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CHAPTER 10 - Don't walk away - Bethany joy ( I could never leave you )
Meredith
He knows should I be happy, sad I don't know what to do.
"I'll protect you." he had said that, but that was what made me even more hesitant if Derek tried to protect me he would only get more hurt.
"no"
"what" he questioned.
"no one can help me"
"don't Derek don't"
"ok, but can I ask you a question?"
"what?"
"will you ever be able to forgive me for leaving you, I honestly thought you wanted to stay"
"It wasn't your fault I told myself everyday it was your fault but I was wrong, you only did what you thought was right."
"it doesn't matter I should have thought for your heart"
"I made you think I'd given my heart away and that wasn't a lie the lie was telling you I'd given it to Ryan when I'd given it to you and I don't want it back"
I couldn't believe I had just said that, he was frozen he didn't feel the same way.
"I love you Meredith"
"I love you too"
We meshed together in a hot fiery kiss before finally breaking apart.
"will you stay with me tonight" I ask tear's from before still in my eyes.
"sure"
RYAN
Pregnant seriously, she's pregnant and she run's away again, what she isn't smart enough to know is I know where she's gone she's gone back to him, it's the only place she could have gone.
But I'm going after her and my baby yes my baby I will make sure it's my baby no matter what happens that will be my baby and Derek will know it to be my baby.
A COUPLE OF DAY'S LATER
RYAN
There it is his trailer and the light's still on.
Derek will never know what happened Meredith on the other hand will have to live with the guilt of knowing this was her fault.
Mark
"so how are thing's"
I was talking to Meredith we had made good friends, I knew she had a dark and twisty past but she was still to stubborn to tell me.
"thing's are fine Derek and I are getting past things and things are fine"
"that's great if you ever need anything just know that I'm here"
"I know"
I meant it for once I was going to be just friends with someone.
Meredith
I just walked into an on call room when I got a chill.
"hello Meredith"
Again damn.
I turned around to come face to face with ryan.
"Ryan"
I made a dumb move for the door only to be grabbed be ryan.
"be careful, you wouldn't want anything to happen to our baby now would you"
He knew, how could he know.
"so he's what's gonna happen this time you say we decided to move to Seattle because we didn't want to raise our child in Boston got it, you came early for your work and I couldn't come then because of my work, understand?" he questioned placing both his hand's on my abdomen.
I nodded, for once I wasn't letting tear's fall I knew Derek would save me. I just knew.
"now I'd get back to your work I heard there was a head trauma that just came in."
I walked out to the pit to see the work of Ryan.
Derek was just waking up from consciousness.
"Derek, Derek what happened to you?"
I knew the answer but I couldn't let the nurses know that.
"w… who… who are you… what happened… where's Addison I need Addison"
I ran out of the room crying, he forgot me.
I was wrong he can't save me now, no one can…
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