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Chapter 12 - from Wild Horses by Natasha bedingfeild (All i want is the wind in my hair, to face the fear but I feel scared)

A couple weeks's later Meredith was begining (she'll be about 5 months now I've decided) to show mark was getting more and more wary of Ryan's attitude's towards Meredith, Derek and Addison were still going great.

"Meredith nice to see you how are you and the baby"

Addison was like this now she would be all fake and nice.

"I'm fine" ok so I did the same but hell everyone was being fake other than Derek and I suppose mark.

"Oh your getting big I'm sure ryan must be thrilled"

"He is" I stated plainly"

"Ok well I've got to go home to Derek he's so great I can't believe we're renewing our vows in a month"

"It's amazing how one minuet people can be divorced then just months late they're getting married again it makes you question whether they're really supposed to be together"

"They made a bad decision once but they would have learnt from it so I'd say they were gonna stay together forever because they would have only gotten stronger"

I wasn't gonna cry I had gotten stronger over time so I walked away and into a supply closet were I was sure no-one would find me until they did.

Derek

I was back at work finally chief was very reluctant.

Ryan had moved to seattle with his girlfriend although I think she moved here first I haven't actually spoken to her other than when she had asked me about how I was feeling and all that.

Anyway I was finally at work again and I needed a suture kit so I went to a supply closet to get one and there she was

"erm, your ryans girlfriend right"

"yer" she was obviously reluctant talking to me

"do you not like me or something cause you seem to really hate talking to me" I stated simply

"no I just I have issues"

"what kind of issues?" I questioned sitting down next to her.

"the kind that are better left unsaid"

"so it's a secret"

"yes"

"some secret's are meant to be told"

"not this one"

"go on you know I'll find out the only thing that spreads faster than disease around here is gossip."

"you wouldn't believe me"

"try me"

I looked deep into her eye's they were full of sorrow and regret.

"is it about the baby are you ok"

"I'm fine just messed up"

"what's messed you up tell me, don't make me beg"

"what if I told you this baby could be yours…"

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