AN: SORRY FOR SUCH LONG DELAY IN MY UNDATES, LIFE AS BEEN HECTIC, BUT I'M BACK TO WRITING! HOPE YOU ENJOY THIS CHAPTER AND DON'T FORGET TO REVIEW!!
DISCLAIMER: I DON'T OWN INSTANT STAR, JUST THE STORY LINE. I ALSO DON'T OWN THIS SONG, ITS SEVENTEEN ISN'T SO SWEET BY THE RED JUMPSUITE APPARATUS.
CHAPTER THREE
Speed dropped Jude off at home, and had asked if he wanted her to stay but Jude told him to go, that she would be ok and she would call him soon. Making sure the door was locked behind her Jude quickly went upstairs and found her suitcase and opened up her closet and started to pick and chose from the many clothes she had hung up there.
Glancing over at her dresser she slowly slid open the top draw and pulled out a picture of her and Tommy that was taken at the studio one day. It was them carrying around in the sound booth with Jude on Tommy's back. They were both smiling and Jude prayed that one day she could remember what it felt like to be that happy again.
Tossing the picture on top of her suitcase, Jude reached over to her stereo and hit the power button and turned the music up as loud as she could.
Well she never was the best
at following the trend
stayed one step above the rest
and even though it seemed
like the world was crashing on her
didn't let it hold her didn't hold her back
oh no
Jude started to rummage through her draws trying to figure out what she was going to need, never been to the states except for the short time on her tour. Looking over to her night stand she saw a picture of her and Justin from one of their dates, knocking the picture into the trash, Jude continued her way through her room.
Don't worry you'll show them
there's a fire in your eyes
and I hope you'll let it burn
there's a scream in your voice
and I hope you will be heard
there's in your eyes
and I hope you'll let it burn until your heard
until your heard
Stopping suddenly Jude started to wonder what she was doing and why she was so quick
to decide to pack up her life and head to Tommy. Where was he the entire this was happening, it was all over the news for the last couple weeks and in all the tabloids, he must have some idea what's going on, and all she gets is a letter. Sitting down on her bed she closes her eyes and starts to concentrate on the music.
Seventeen is just a test
Just a test Jude thought to herself, what kind of test is this, one that makes me go completely out of my mind.
yeah and I would recommend
that you live with no regrets
and even if it seems
Regrets?Is going to see Tommy something I'm going to regret or is it something if I don't do I will regret. Why can't their just be something sitting right in front of me telling me the answer Jude said dropping her head into to her hands.
like the world is crushing on you
you shouldn't let it hold you back
oh no
oh no
Who are they to sing about the world crushing down, do they have any idea what it really feels like... do they know that I can't breathe, and they are telling me that I should keep going like nothing is happening.Jude said starting to argue with the lyrics of the song in her head
don't worry you'll show them
there's a fire in your eyes
and I hope you'll let it burn
there's a scream in your voice
and I hope you will be heard
there a fire in your eyes
and I hope you'll let it burn until your heard
until your heard
Show them what... that I run away when things get toughJude thought, but then turned her mind to what she was running away from, Can anyone blame me for running away, no one in their right mind would stick around and see what he has planned.
relax girl
Relax, easy for them to say, go in my head for a minute and you'll be anything but relaxed
turn down the lights
no one can see you shining
No one can see him hurting you eitherAll alone in the dark...
relax girl
it'll be all right
no one can stop you if you try
Relax, I can't relax, not when every time I close my eyes I see him... not when I'm scared to walk alone because he is following me, afraid that I'll turn around and he'll be right there.
point of rhythm is the fall await in time
to listen to the beating in your mind
and if you seek you shall find
woah oh
Question is what am I planning on finding if I go to Tommy, more heartbreak, Tommy and my heart breaking seem to go hand in hand. But can he hurt me anymore then I've already been.
there's a fire in your eyes
and I hope you'll let it burn
there's a scream in your voice
and I hope you will be heard
there's a fire in your eyes
and I hope you'll let it burn until your heard
There may have been a fire in my eyes... he took that away... they both took that away. Maybe I need to go find it.
there's a fire in your eyes
and I hope you'll let it burn
there's a scream in your voice
and I hope you will be heard
there's a fire in your eyes
and I hope you'll let it burn until your heard
"Tommy." Jude mumbled into her hands when the song come to an end, and was about to get up off the floor when Sadie came through the bedroom door with a look of disbelief written all over her face.
"I can't believe you are actually considering going to him!" Sadie exclaimed, "Tommy asks you to forgive him and you go running to him."
"Sadie, don't." Jude said picking up the stereo remote off the floor and turned the stereo off.
"Don't you understand what he's done to you, you were completely unconsolable when he left, now you are putting yourself right back there again." Sadie not understanding what tie Tommy had on her sister.
"And what do you want me to do, stay here and always have to watch my back. I don't think so Sadie, Tommy may be a lot of things, but he has never hurt me like that." Jude said, then whispered, "I need to get away. This is my escape."
Sadie hearing every word said, "If you need an escape we can go to the family ranch, or go somewhere's, anywhere's that isn't with Quincy."
"He'll find me, he'll never think of Tommy, nor would he ever be able to find me and him." Jude said going over to her dresser and started to pull more clothes out and tossing them on top of her suit case not even bothering to fold them. "Sadie don't even pretend that you know what's going on in my life, the worse thing that happens in your life is you break a nail."
Sadie angrily turned to leave Jude's bedroom but before she left she turned and said, "Fine this is your life do what ever you want, but don't you dare come crying to me when Tommy breaks your heart again."
With that Sadie walks out of Jude's room, slamming the door behind her.
Digging through her suitcase until she found the picture of her and Tommy, Jude hugged it too her chest and whispered, "Please don't let this be a mistake."