He arched his back at the sudden sensation of Gojyo's nails scratching against his chest and moaned. "Gojyo…"
"Hakkai…"
"Please…" He reached up and brought Gojyo's face down, trapping his lips in his and slipping his tongue down his throat.
"What is it you want, Hakkai?" He spoke roughly.
"You."
Gojyo bit Hakkai's lower lip and massaged his hips. "Are you sure you want to do this?"
Hakkai nodded, unable to bring his voice. Gojyo slowly positioned himself over his lover and slipped into his entrance, Hakkai gasped and moaned at the sudden entry. "Oh God…" Gojyo wrapped one arm around Hakkai and lifted him slightly, giving him more room for entry, his other hand wrapped around Hakkai's throbbing member. Gojyo was much larger than Hakkai had expected and he whimpered when he started moving faster. "Gojyo…"
"Yes?" He moved slower when he noticed the hitch in Hakkai's voice. "Am I hurting you?"
Hakkai shook his head and pulled Gojyo in closer, urging him to go on. "Please…" Gojyo smiled and forced himself as hard as he could into his lover, making him scream. They both hit their climax as Gojyo thrust harder, faster and deeper into Hakkai.
Hakkai laid in his arms until morning came, taking in the scent of cologne and smoke, which he had grown to love. Gojyo was asleep beneath him; his eyes softly closed and breathing had become steady again. "I love you." He said to the seemingly sleeping water sprite.
"I love you too."
Hakkai quickly opened his eyes, sweaty and hard. He cupped his head in his hands and breathed lightly. "So… you have a dream or something?" He heard a familiar voice say. He looked back to see Sanzo smoking a cigarette, looking at him from the corner of his eye.
"I… I… yes… a dream…" They had camped out in the woods that night on their search for Gojyo, and Hakkai hadn't packed the tents or sleeping bags in the Jeep; then again he thought he wouldn't need them, since they were supposedly going to be staying at hotels.
"Next time we bring tents." Sanzo stated blankly.
"I agree." Hakkai said, standing up. He brushed himself off and hopped into the car, starting it. Sanzo sat passenger, idly smoking his cigarette, Goku sat back, keeping a watchful eye out for the 'red-roach'.
"THERE HE IS! I FOUND HIM! I FOUND HIM!" He screamed like the child he was.
"Where?" Sanzo dully asked.
"Over there!" Goku yelled, jumping out of the vehicle and running into the woods.
"Goku!" Sanzo screamed. "You idiot!" He ran after the boy, but Hakkai stayed behind. He stared at the steering wheel and his eyes watered.
"Gojyo…" There was no way it could've been him. What Goku saw couldn't be Gojyo. He wouldn't have stopped running. He was mad. He would've just kept running, like Gojyo does. "What did I do…?" He whispered to himself.
"You did nothing, Hakkai." A quiet voice came from behind him. He turned quickly to see Gojyo crouched on the back of the Jeep.
"Gojyo…"
"Yeah…" He crawled into the front seat with Hakkai and wrapped his arms around his small form into a tight, loving embrace. He nuzzled his face into Hakkai's neck and took in his beautiful scent. "I'm so sorry…" He whispered.
"For what, Gojyo-san?"
"For being a jerk. For yelling at you. For upsetting you. For everything." Gojyo looked him in the eyes. "I love you and I shouldn't have acted like that. I'm sorry." He kissed his emerald-eyed lover and placed his hand behind his head, lowering his body to the seat. "I'll never hurt you again. I'll never leave you. I'll never betray you. I'll always be yours." He said between kisses.
"Gojyo…" Hakkai said, sitting up.
"What?"
"Have you ever had a dream about your first time?" He asked shyly, looking away.
"Of course, why?"
"When was your first time?"
"With you."
"Really?" His head snapped back to the kappa.
"Yeah, really."
"Me too… I just had a dream about it last night… well… this morning sort of…"
"Yeah?"
"Does that make you feel uncomfortable?"
"Not at all. Why should it?"
"I don't know. It was the best thing that's ever happened to me, you know that?"
"Oh? Am I really that good?" Gojyo smirked and kissed Hakkai's forehead. "Or are you implying something else?"
"Well, it isn't that you aren't amazing… because you definitely top amazing, but… I was more or less talking about sharing that amazingly wonderful time with the love of my life."
"I thought Kanan was the love of your life." Gojyo said, cocking his eyebrow.
Hakkai looked down and away from Gojyo. "Please don't bring her up, Gojyo…"
"Well, why not? You say she isn't the love of your life by saying that I am, and I thought you always said that she was." Gojyo tilted Hakkai's face up to look him in the eyes. "So tell me the truth. Who is the love of your life?"
Hakkai's eyes watered. "Gojyo… don't make me do this…"
"Look, I just want to know if I'm lower than your ex-lover, who just happens to be dead." Gojyo snapped.
"Gojyo!"
"What?! Don't you get it, Hakkai!? She's dead! Long dead! She's never coming back and you have to just learn to accept that!" Gojyo screamed, clutching Hakkai's shirt and pulling him closer.
Hakkai was speechless and bawling his eyes out. "I…" He shook his head and looked down.
"You what?" Gojyo smacked Hakkai's chin, forcing his head up again.
"Stop it…"
"No. Not until you tell me."
"Gojyo… her and I had so many plans. We were going to grow up and live together, have children, grow old together… she was just like me. I loved her very, very much…"
Gojyo threw Hakkai back against the car door. "I get it." He jumped out of the jeep and began walking back into the woods.
"Gojyo, wait a minute! You didn't let me finish!" Hakkai yelled, running after him.
"Look, you've said enough, alright?" He spoke quietly, not turning around.
"Gojyo…"
"I said, enough, okay? What are you trying to do, hurt me even worse?" He turned to face Hakkai now, and the green-eyed man gasped. Never until now had he seen it, but Gojyo's eyes were tearing up.
"Oh, Gojyo…" He reached his hand out to touch his face, but it was slapped away.
"No. No more. I'm sick of the lies, Hakkai. Am I really the love of your life?" He stared bullets into Hakkai's face.
"You never let me finish what I was saying, Gojyo."
"Then finish, but don't touch me." He lit a cigarette and looked away.
"Okay. But I'm sorry if I don't listen to you, you're hard to resist." Gojyo smirked. "Yes, I loved Kanan very much, but it doesn't compare to what you mean to me, not at all. It took me a little bit before I loved Kanan that much, but you I loved from the moment I met you. I loved you enough to trust you, to live with you, to have you put back my entrails… to doctor me, to touch me even. I tell you everything, and this is why. I love you more than I've ever loved anything before. And it kills me when you say I don't, or I can't love you because of what you are. Gojyo, it doesn't matter to me what you are. I don't care it you're a half-demon, child of taboo… it doesn't matter to me. I love you for who you are. And it still amazes me to this day how you can just walk in the room and make my day better… I…"
Gojyo stood and kissed Hakkai quickly. "Okay, okay, I get it… shut up." Gojyo nuzzled his face into his neck and held back tears. "I love you too…"
Hakkai smiled and rubbed Gojyo's back. "I know you do."
"Alright you sick love-birds. Let's go." Sanzo spoke, hitting Gojyo in the head with his fan.
"HEY! WHAT DID I DO, A FUCKIN' PRIEST?!"
"Are you challenging my authority, kappa?" He snapped, turning to face Gojyo.
"What if I am?"
"Then you've made a bad mistake."
"Like a care, Sanzo, you couldn't shoot me anyway." Gojyo smirked.
Sanzo gritted his teeth at the smirking water sprite. "Shut it." He climbed into the passenger seat of the jeep. "Can we just go, already?"
"Sure, Sanzo…" Hakkai smiled, then looked at Gojyo sternly. "What was that all about?"
"Something that happened a long time ago, okay?"
"What?"
"Calm down, Hakkai, it was nothing." Gojyo ran his hands up and down Hakkai's arms and kissed his forehead. "Nothing at all, I promise."
"If it was nothing, then you shouldn't have a problem telling me what it was."
Gojyo rolled his eyes. "For God's sakes, Hakkai, chill out, okay? I said it was nothing so you shouldn't care."
"No! That's exactly why I do care. If you just told me what it was, I might not care."
"Alright! Alright! We were at his place and he was reading something and I wanted to know what it was, well, when I saw that it was fuckin' porn, and not straight guy porn, I wanted to know why he had it. He told me that him and Goku were going out and they both read that sort of stuff. I asked him how the sex was with the monkey, and he said that Goku hadn't given it up yet. I told him that was too bad and he proceeded to tell me that he was in deep need of a release, and I told him that I'd help him out with it. We both agreed that it meant nothing to us, so we saw no harm in it at all!"
Hakkai's eyes widened as he looked from Sanzo to Gojyo. "I… I don't believe this… Gojyo… how could you do this to me?"
"How do you even know we were together at the time?"
"Because Goku and Sanzo got together after we did. And besides, this means that you just fed me another lie."
"What?"
"You said your first time was with me."
"And it was."
"But we had sex after we knew that they were together!"
"Wrong."
"Oh?"
"Yeah. Because you didn't know they were together until two days ago. I didn't even know they were together until that day. Nice try saving yourself though."
"Oh… well… I guess you're right… I wasn't meaning to sound like I was trying to save myself… I just got time all mixed up… but still! We were together at the time!"
"Yes, but as I said it didn't mean anything to either of us so what should it matter?"
"I'm sure Goku isn't too thrilled about this either!" They looked to the boy, who shrugged at them.
"Actually, I completely understand. It didn't mean anything so why should I care."
"My point exactly, Hakkai!" Gojyo yelled.
"I… well… I just don't think it's right, is all…"
"God, Hakkai, you're such a friggin' hard ass sometimes." Gojyo said under his breath while jumping into the jeep.
Hakkai's face fell and he climbed into the jeep. He sighed and looked to Sanzo. "What do you want me to say, Hakkai?"
"I don't know, Sanzo. Why did you do it?"
"Because it meant nothing to either of us. Look at it this way, we weren't going to tell you guys."
"I just don't see why everyone thinks it's okay to have sex with someone else when you're in a relationship… whether it means something or not…"
Gojyo leaned over the seat. "Because that's just it. It doesn't mean anything. The only thing that meant something to us was our lover's. Hell, I thought of you while I was doing that… and I'm sure Sanzo over here thought of Goku as well." Gojyo smirked at the priest. He told Goku to move to the other side so he could sit behind Hakkai. "Babe… here's how it goes, okay?" Gojyo wrapped his arms around his lover's shoulders. "I love you more than anything, sex with Sanzo is nowhere near as good anyway." He laughed.
"Gojyo…stop… I'm mad at you."
"No you aren't. You're so close to laughing…" Gojyo smiled and moved his arms down around the seat's base. He soflty squeezed Hakkai's hips, causing him to jerk.
"Stop that." Gojyo laughed and moved his hands up to Hakkai's ribs. "Quit it, I really am mad at you."
"No way are you mad at me… if you were mad, you wouldn't be smiling or laughing right now." Gojyo smirked and tickled him more. Hakkai burst into laughter and stopped the jeep.
"Gojyo… I love you sometimes."
"Thought you said you were mad at me?"
Hakkai turned around and smiled. "I could never be mad with you, Gojyo."