How Do You Really Feel? Chapter 8: Broken Wedding Bells, an inuyasha fanfic

Heyy Kiddies.

Looking at the reviews, I'd say you really liked the last chapter. :)

It was really funny cause I read one of them was like "UGH I HATE SESSxKAG PAIRINGS !!!"

Ahahaha.

But don't panic dearies, it's an InuxKag story, I promise.

Okay. The chapter you've all been waiting for.

D i s c l a i m e r: I don't own Inuyasha characters. Or the song.

W a r n i n g: OMG. Another lemon. obejeezus.

I dedicate this chapter to Elmo, Seresu, Dom, and BlackParade

Chapter 7: Broken Wedding Bells

- 1 year later -

After a year of planning, Kagome and Sesshoumaru were ready to get married.

Sango was, of course, maid of honour, whereas Yuka, Eri, and Ayumi (those are their names... right?) were her bridesmaids.

Miroku was Sesshoumaru's best man and the bridesmaids' dates would walk them down the aisle.

They decided that Souta would be the ring bearer and Sesshoumaru's cousin's daughter, Rin, would be flower girl.

They were getting married in a fairly nice- looking church with enough room for close friends and family.

Kagome picked out the most beautifully designed bridesmaid dresses. Purple-blue spaghetti-strapped dresses with a small slit on the side up to the knee and a purple ribbon wrapped around the waist. The maid of honour's dress would have flowers on the top and bottom hems.

Kagome's dress was the most stunning of all. It was pearly white with matching gloves and the same coloured ribbon around the waist. It had flowers on the bottom hem and on the headband for the veil. (haha I actually drew these dresses too and they're not half bad. I apologize for the fact that I'm horrible at describing things. xP -- is not a very detailed person or a good describer .. person.)

If you were to see Kagome's face, you'd see the most cheekiest grin ever.

But you'd never guess what (or who) is on her mind.

During the year of planning Kagome and Sesshoumaru's wedding, Inuyasha had been getting ready to travel to the States. Now that he didn't have much to lose, he could do pretty much anything.

As he was packing, he found a picture of Kagome and himself. He sat on the edge of the bed, staring at the photograph. With his nail, he stroked the smiling Kagome's cheek.

He looked at the picture with a sad smile. He really missed her, but she was with Sesshoumaru now and they were getting married in a few days.

And there was nothing he could do about it.

Tonight was Kagome's bachelorette party. They were going to celebrate in Kagome's favourite club, Typhoon, and the girls were all pretty damn excited. They rented a VIP room for themselves and later they just planned on having fun at the club.

Sango and Kagome were on their way to Typhoon. When Sango looked at Kagome, she saw that Kagome was deep in thought; staring aimlessly out the window.

"Penny for your thoughts?" Sango asked.

Coming out of her thoughts, Kagome turned to Sango. "Huh?"

"What are you thinking about?"

Kagome shrugged.

"You were thinking about something... Pre-wedding jitters?"

"Sort-of..."

"What do you mean?" Sango asked curiously.

"Promise not to tell?" Kagome asked.

"Come on. When have I ever told your secret?"

There was a small silence between the two girls; Both remembering different times when Sango spilled a secret of Kagome's, especially when it involved Inuyasha.

F l a s h b a c k

It was Valentines Day, and Kagome and Sango were waiting for the guys to come over.

Miroku came in first, bearing flowers and chocolates and gifts for Sango. The two of them were cuddling up to each other on the couch, while Kagome sat on the loveseat glaring at them enviously.

Hearing a knock on the door, Kagome ran to it. As Inuyasha opened the door, Kagome stood there with a smile on her face. When he approached her, she closed her eyes waiting for a kiss. But after about two minutes, she opened hereyes and saw Inuyasha heading for the loveseat.

"What are you guys watching?" Inuyasha asked as he sat down.

Furious, Kagome stood in front of him, blocking his view of the television.

Inuyasha raised his eyebrow. "What are you doing, babe? You're blocking the TV."

"Get out of my apartment, you stupid asshole!!" Kagome yelled as she slapped him numerous times. Then she stormed into her room, slammed the door and locked it.

Inuyasha had confusion written all over his face. "What the hell? Did I miss something?"

Sighing, Sango stood up and knocked on her friend's door. "Kagome? It's me, Sango. Let me in."

Kagome unlocked the door, allowing Sango to come in. Before she entered, Inuyasha could've sworn Sango gave him a death glare.

Once Sango closed the door, Kagome began to wail. "I told you, Sango! I told you he would forget and he did! That retarded bastard always forgets about me- us!"

Sango sat next to her and hugged her. "He's a guy. What do you expect?"

Through sobs, Kagome replied, "I expect my boyfriend to remember these kinds of holidays and do something special with me- his girlfriend!"

Sango sighed. She was about to tell off Inuyasha when Kagme grabbed her arm. "Promise me you won't tell that jackass about what I said or even what today is. I want him to find out for himself."

The girl nodded and walked out of Kagome's room into the living room. She walked in to see the two laughing at something on TV.

She took her seat next to Miroku and started to watch whatever show they were watching. Sango took glances at Inuyasha, looking for any sign of worry or guilt of some sort in his eyes.

But there wasn't any.

He was just... normal, as if this were some any ol' day.

Infuriated, Sango walked up to Inuyasha and slapped him hard without any warning; the smack echoing throughout the whole apartment.

"What the hell was that for, wench?" Inuyasha yelled.

"Do you even know what today is, you jackass?" Sango yelled back. "Do you even care to find out? Do you even care about Kagome?"

"What the fuck are you rambling on about? It's just February fourteenth!"

"Are you fucking retarded? It's Valentines Day! Kagome depended on you to fuckng treat her like she's loved- if you can fucking call it that!"

Inside her room, Kagome gasped. Sango! You idiot! You promised! URGH!!!

Fortunately, Inuyasha made it up to Kagome by taking her out for dinner and to the amusement park and then some "couple time" behind bedroom doors.

E n d . F l a s h b a c k

The two girls blinked then looked at the other.

"Okay, so I messed up a few times... I promise I won't tell," Sango said.

"I don't think Sesshoumaru is the one," Kagome blurt out.

"Then why are you marrying him?"

"I really don't know..."

"Do you still love Inuyasha?"

Kagome looked at Sango, shocked. "Wh-what?"

"Do you still have feelings for Inuyasha?"

"I don't know the answer to that either..."

"Well you're going to have to think about it faster. Your wedding's coming fast."

"Yeah..." Kagome sighed.

The two arrived at the club and were greeted by their friends at the entrance. They walked into the reserved VIP room and chatted away.

Present time came quickly. Kagome was half excited; though her mind was jumbled with many thoughts. Maybe it was pre-wedding jitters.

Hell, like she knew.

"Come on, Inuyasha!" Miroku groaned. "You have to do something before you leave tomorrow!"

"No," Inuyasha grunted.

"Why not!?"

'Cause there's a chance I might run into her, Inuyasha thought. "I just don't want to, okay?"

Miroku sighed. "Please, man? Come on, let's get you a nice piece of drunken ass at Typhoon, yeah?"

"How about just getting drunk? I'll go if you shut your fucking piehole."

"It's a date!" Miroku cried as he walked out of the room.

After receiving gifts of sexy lingerie, the girls went dancing, having the time of their lives.

As for Kagome, she was sitting at the bar, getting drunk. There were just too many things on her mind to have fun. With her blurry vision, she turned to see the girls dancing and laughing the night away. Oh how she dearly wanted to trade lives.

One daring man came up to her, offering to buy her a drink. He heard her mumble something and gave her a confused look. "What was that, honey?"

"I said," she replied in a drunken state. "'Go... go... go..."

"Go what?"

"Go.. fuck yerself," she said before she hiccupped. (FYI:: That was an intentional spelling error.)

He muttered a "bitch" under his breath and left her alone.

She slightly smiled to herself, feeling somehow victorious. Soon she began tapping her foot and nodding her head to the beat.

(Beyonce:) Bass
(Jay-Z:) Uh
(Beyonce:) Hi hat
(Jay-Z:) Uh
(Beyonce:) 808
(Jay-Z:) Uh
(Beyonce:) Jay
(Jay-Z:) Uh-huh
Ready?
Uh-huh
(Beyonce:) Let's go get 'em
(Jay-Z:) Uh-huh
C'mon

(Jay-Z Rap)
I used to run base like Juan Pierre
Now I run the bass hi hat and the snare
I used to bag girls like Birkin Bags
Now I bag B (Beyonce: Boy you hurtin' that)
Brooklyn Bay where they birthed me at
Now I be everywhere, the nerve of rap
The audacity to have me whippin curtains back
Me and B, she about to sting
Stand back

Kagome was dancing to the music, moving her hips from side to side. Sango and the girls joined her, making a circle around the bride-to-be.

Inuyasha and Miroku entered Typhoon, immediately hearing music pumping through the speakers.

Baby seems like everywhere I go
I see you, from your eyes, your smile
It's like I breathe you, helplessy I reminisce
Don't want to compare nobody to you

Inuyasha nodded his head to the beat. He couldn't help but smile at the lyrics. He definitely agreed with Beyonce on his current situation. He can never get Kagome off of his mind even if he did try.

The two boys walked over to the bar and ordered their beers. As they drank, they watched the fellow clubbers dancing and just having fun. Inuyasha spotted one girl dancing. She was drunk- he could tell from her stumbling feet. She looked like Kagome, but he shrugged that off. It was probably just another hallucination of some sort.

He drank about seven or eight glasses of beer, now completely wasted. He walked onto the dancefloor, leaving a sober Miroku at the bar. He strode over to where he saw that raven-haired chick before and danced with her.

(Pre-Hook)
Boy, I try to catch myself
But I'm out of control
Your sexiness is so appealing
I can't let it go
Oh

(Hook)
Know that I can't get over you
'Cause everything I see is you
And I don't want no substitute
Baby I swear it's Deja Vu
Know that I can't get over you
'Cause everything I see is you
And I don't want no substitute
Baby I swear it's Deja Vu

The couple swayed and grinded their hips together. Kagome blinked and squinted through her blurry vision, trying to see this guy who was dancing with her. He had yellowish- brownish eyes, but she couldn't tell if his hair was white or black or even pink or blue for that matter! But who cares? She was never going to see him again anyways. (-enter evil grin here-)

(Verse 2)
Seeing things that I know can't be
Am I dreaming? When I saw you walking past me
Almost called your name
Got a better glimpse and then I looked away
It's like I'm losing it

Inuyasha could've sworn he was dancing with Kagome. But he was drunk so how could he know any better? Nevertheless, he was thankful he came wearing a cap and had his hair tied, just in case.

He leaned in, his lips barely touching her's. "You're so sexy.." he said huskily. (OMG. Whatta corndog.)

Kagome purred. This guy reminded her of Inuyasha. Wait, NO! She couldn't be thinking of him now!

(Pre-hook)
Boy, I try to catch myself
But I'm out of control
Your sexiness is so appealing
I can't let it go, oh

Kagome felt his hands on her hips and smiled. She stood on her tip-toes as best as could and said to him, "Come with me."

A grin appeared on Inuyasha's face as Kagome pulled him into a VIP room.

(Jay-Z Rap)
Yes! Hova's flow so unusual
Baby, girl you should already know
It's H-O, light up the strobe
'Cause you gon' need help tryna study my bounce, flow, blow
What's the difference?
One, you take in vein while the other you sniffin'
It's still dough, po-po try to convict him
That's a no-go
My dough keep the scales tippin like 4-4's
Like I'm from the H-O-U-S-T-O-N
Blow, wind so Chicago of him
Is he the best ever, that's the argu-a-ment
I don't make the list, don't be mad at me
I just make the hits, like a factory
I'm just one-to-one, nothin' after me
No Deja Vu, just me and my, oh

Once the door of the VIP room was closed, Kagome pinned Inuyasha to the wall and captured his lips with hers. He moaned, wrapping his arms around her petite waist, holding her closely to him. They tasted each other's drunken sweetness, tongues dancing.

Inuyasha picked her up and lay her on the bed, and kissed her once again. Her taste- intoxicating. He could never get enough.

(Bridge)
Baby I can't go anywhere
Without thinking that you're there
Seems like you're everywhere, it's true
Gotta be having Deja Vu
'Cause in my mind I want you here
Get on the next plane, I don't care
Is it because I'm missing you
That I'm having Deja Vu

Kagome wrapped her legs around the male's waist. She kissed, nipped and sucked on his neck as she tugged on his shirt.

Inuyasha growled and ripped off his shirt and pulled off his pants, leaving him in only his boxers.

He removed the raven-haired beauty's tube top and mini-skirt. Even if she was only in her underwear and he was dead drunk, she was still beautiful.

(Pre-hook)
Boy, I try to catch myself
But I'm out of control
Your sexiness is so appealing
I can't let it go
Whoo...

Know that I can't get over you
'Cause everything I see is you
And I don't want no substitute
Baby I swear it's Deja Vu
Know that I can't get over you
'Cause everything I see is you
And I don't want no substitute
Baby I swear it's Deja Vu

Kagome pulled off his boxers as he removed her lingerie. She moaned when she felt his warm tongue on her nipple.

She arched her back as she continued his sexy ministrations to her breasts. She gripped his shoulders, shuddering from waves of pleasure as she felt his fingers play around the outside of her womanhood.

Frustrated, she gripped his forelocks and growled,"Forget foreplay. Just fuck me."

Inuyasha groaned and thrust into the demanding girl, bucking into her desperately.

Kagome moaned continuously as she gripped the sheets. She bucked her hips against his with each thrust. Sesshoumaru was never this good!

Inuyasha tuned her over onto all fours and ruthlessly pounded into her. His sweaty chest against her moist back; he fondled and teased her breasts and nipples.

The girl groaned, shuddering and shaking; gripping the cum-stained sheets. He was desperately bucking into her, wanting to reach his climax. Kagome screamed out as she came and collapsed onto the bed, Inuyasha following soon after.

Kagome woke up (obviouly with a hangover). She rubbed her eyes as she sat up- or at least tried to. She looked over to her side and saw Inuyasha asleep; his arms locked around her waist.

Her eyes widened. She- she didn't... did she?

Oh no. What had she done? What about Sesshoumaru?

CRAP.

SHIT.

FUCK.

FUCKITY FUCK FUCK!

Her wedding is today!

Kagome hopped out of bed, not caring about the man who lay beside her. She was gathering her clothes which were scattered across the room.

Inuyasha woke up as he felt the bed shift. He saw a naked girl running around the room looking for her clothes. He sat up to take a look at the girl he slept with. For last minute memories, y'know? When she turned to face him, his eyes widened.

Was this some sort of sick joke his sub-conscious was playing on him? "K-Kagome?" he asked with his hoarse voice.

Kagome refused to answer him. Talking would just make things worse.

Inuyasha sniffed the air for her scent and knew it was Kagome. "I know it's you, Kagome. Your scent never lies."

"Maybe I should wear Kikyou's perfume and hair products more often, huh?" she muttered to herself. So much for not talking to make things worse.

"I love you," Inuyasha stated bluntly. "I love you so much it hurts."

Kagome began to dress. "A little too late for that, you think?"

"What can I say to make you change your mind about the wedding? What can I do?"

She sighed. "Absolutely nothing. You practically killed me, Inuyasha. I'm just lucky Sesshoumaru came along--"

"Lucky!? Sesshoumaru!? Yeah right, wench. Tell me, have you ever told him you loved him?"

She said nothing.

"Yeah, see? Answer this: Do you still love me, Kagome?"

She stood there for a moment, and then said, "Look, I don't have time for this." She put on her shoes and coat. "Today's my wedding day and I have to get ready for it."

"Kagome! Do you always run from everything and everyone you love?" Inuyasha yelled as he ran from the bed and grabbed her arm. "Why are you running from me if we both know that both love each other!?"

"Stop it! Just shut up, Inuyasha!" she shrieked as she tried to cover her ears. "You should know why I can't love you! You cheated on me! How do I know you're not going to do it again!?"

"Because I love you, Kagome! You need to trust me!"

Kagome snorted. "Trust you? You lost my trust a year ago!"

Inuyasha growled. "I didn't know what I was thinking back then. Why won't you just forgive and forget?"

"Forgive and forget? You think it's that easy? You simple-minded bastard."

Inuyasha pulled Kagome to his chest. "Kagome, when we broke up, I couldn't stop thinking about you. I couldn't sleep; couldn't eat... I couldn't do anything. I stopped seeing other women because your face would always remain in my mind. Kagome, I love you and I need you in my life."

Kagome didn't know what to say. The only thing on her mind was the wedding. She knew she loved Inuyasha (but obviously too prideful to admit it!) but what about Sesshoumaru? She loved him too... right?

"Kagome..?" Inuyasha called. He was beginning to panic-- what was she going to say? What did he expect her to say?

"I.." Kagome started. "I need to go." She shoved him away and grabbed her things and ran out, tears brimming her eyes.

Inuyasha just stood there, eyes wide. What just happened?

"Kagome, when we broke up, I couldn't stop thinking about you. I couldn't sleep; couldn't eat... I couldn't do anything. I stopped seeing other women because your face would always remain in my mind. Kagome, I love you and I need you in my life."

Kagome couldn't stop thinking about her conversation with Inuyasha as she was getting ready for the wedding. Sango and Yuka were helping out with her dress and makeup.

Do I really love Sesshoumaru?, Kagome constantly asked herself.

Just then, Eri and Ayumi barged through the doors. "Everyone's here and settled, waiting for you, Kags!"

"Okay, I'm ready."

Inuyasha sighed as he walked through the airport with his duffelbag and backpack. Was he really sure about this? Did he really want to forget about Kagome?

Yes, he was definitely sure. He needed to get over the soon-to-be-married girl. Kagome wasn't the type of girl to have an affair anyways.

He continued to walk mindlessly as he semi-looked up at the ceiling. Why did she have to pick that bastard, Sesshoumaru?

He was one lucky sonofabitch, that's for sure.

Inuyasha sighed as he looked ahead. Why did his gate have to be so far away?

The ceremony began and Rin, Eri, and Ayumi had already walked the aisle. As Yuka was taking her time down the aisle for pictures, Kagome quietly asked Sango, "Hey, where's Inuyasha?"

Sango looked at her oddly. "I forgot to tell you? Oh shit, Kags. He's at the airport right now probably."

"Airport? Why?"

"He's leaving to Kami-sama knows where."

"For how long?" Kagome asked.

Sango shrugged. "He never said when he'd come back."

Kagome thought she was about to cry. He never told her that he was leaving. She thought about their conversation this morning. What a way to say goodbye, huh?

Sango walked down the aisle, Kagome following after.

She stood next to Sesshoumaru who was in a plain black and white tuxedo with a rose bud in his pocket. He smiled at her. Both of their hearts were pounding in their chests. Today was the day.

"Good morning, friends and family. We are gathered here today to celebrate the joining of Sesshoumaru Taishou and Kagome Higurashi in holy matrimony. Before we begin, is there anyone who objects to this marriage?"

(I'm sorry if this isn't exactly what priests say.. I asked my mother but she wasn't a big of a help.. -.-" Just bear with me.)

Kagome heard a few whispers, but no one really spoke up. She thought about Inuyasha then Sesshoumaru.

I couldn't stop thinking about you.

Kagome shook her head. Inuyash, why must you haunt my thoughts?

Sesshoumaru saw Kagome shake her head. Was she having second thoughts? Was it something he did or said?

"Kagome?" he asked. "Is something wrong?"

Couldn't sleep; couldn't eat... I couldn't do anything.

Could she really spend the rest of her life with Sesshoumaru? Who did she see herself with?

...your face would always remain in my mind.

She thought of Inuyasha. She thought of how they were before he cheated. They were so happy, with a few arguments here and there. They talked about their wedding and the names of their kids. She was so excited about their future until that day.

Then she thought of Sesshoumaru. He was a kind, gentle man. Not the kind of man who would cheat on his spouse. He was a sort-of predictable guy.

And well... Inuyasha wasn't.

Kagome wanted excitement. Someone to keep her on her toes and yet feel so relaxed at the same time.

She loved Inuyasha for sure.

The priest opened his mouth to continue when Kagome interrupted. "I... I don't want to get married."

Everyone snapped their heads to face the bride. Were they hearing correctly?

"Kagome?"

Kagome faced Sesshoumaru. "I.. I'm so sorry, Sesshoumaru, but I love Inuyasha."

(NO FUCKING WAY !!!!! Man, do author/esses always make the characters seem so corny and cliche?)

Not bothering to wait for a reply from the taiyoukai, she ran down the aisle and through the church doors. She started to run down the street, but stopped. She couldn't run through the streets in her wedding gown but she certainly did not have time to change.

Suddenly, she heard Sango and Miroku call her name. She spun around, looking at the two and her eyes widened when she saw Miroku hold out his car keys. "He's heading for the Americas. His plane leaves in half an hour. Go!"

With a quick nod, Kagome ran to Miroku's car and immediately drove off to the airport. Inuyasha... please don't go!

Ahahaha. You all probably hate me now 'cause I left off at a cliffy.

-evil grin-

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♥♥ Chidarake No Bara