Chapter Six:
Mileys POV:
I heard the thunder rumble and the rain pounding down on the deck I just lay awake in bed when I heard a car door shut and a soft banging under my window. I was about to yell and scream until I heard a string of explicet words and something about a foot being caught when I realized it was Jake. I immediatly felt the walls shoot up around my heart as I closed my eyes not ready to see him yet not ready to talk to him without wanting him to be inside me...
The moment I felt him lean down and kiss my cheek I had to with hold all my strength to not turn and begg him for the answers I needed so desperatly.His scent filled the room and my body needed his touch pleaded with me for just one quick look when I felt him drape something across my side. I could have sworn I heard him say he was
sorry and that he loved me but that wasn't true right? He was out with another girl just after...after the..'argh'
Just as quickly as he was there he was gone and at that moment another peice of me was gone to. "Damn" I jumped out of bed and ran down the stairs hoping to catch him before he drove away. I saw him just about to get in his car when I yelled for him forgetting the rain and clutching his sweatshirt running to his car and jumping in his passerner side. "Miley?!" He was shocked and I think Iam going to die my breathing just wasn't going back to normal..I tryed but the air just wouldn't fill my lungs..." Ja..k..e" I closed my eyes I knew this is what happened when I was upset..."Miles" his voice was full of concern as his arms wrapped around me "Iam..ok" slowly I took a deep breath and felt myself relax.
"Iam so sorry Miles she dosn't mean anything to me I swear" His eyes were tearing up and I could tell he was hurting too. I nodded to the road "Lets park at the beach and talk" the thunder was louder then before "you sure?" I looked at him and my world slowly slipped away "yeah". It was quiet and I knew he was letting me take the time to think and I was grateful. I was so confused about everything I just felt as if my world was slipping out of my reach...and I had no way of getting it back. I don't remember hearing the car turn off or even Jake speaking to me until I felt him gently shaking my arm "Miley" I turned to him and broke down tears filled my eyes and I couldnt handle it.
"Why would you do this to me Jake?! I love you I almost gave you everything I had to give and you turn around and just walk into another girls arms?" I knew I was yelling but he didn't say a word. "Am I just some joke to you!? You come back after all these years and I throw myself into your world again and this is what I get?" I just cried and cried it hurt me so bad to think someone could ever do something like this...'slow down mabey he can explain' but the moment he held his head down and the tears on his cheek I knew that he wasn't innocent but guilty...
Jakes POV:
I cant stand to see her like this ' OH God' I feel the wetness on my face but I dont care I love her so much I just don't want to do this anymore... I can't run away not again. I just need time..right...but thats running..."Miles I.." how do I tell her this...Its so hard...for me...When it was just me for the last years it was so easy to live the lie I was now caught in because no one knew the story of my past and no one cared. All they wanted to see was Jake Ryan the movie satr Jake Ryan the serial dater..and that was easy to give them. Another easy way out but another weight added to my already crumbling shoulders. ' I cant do this Iam sufficating..' "Iam..." I have to get out of this car... I opened the door and ran as far as I could just ran I didn't care that it was raining I don't care about anything...but her...I can't hurt her again I just can't... I ran until my legs gave out on me and I fell to the ground... 'She will never forgive me if she knew...just like I cant forgive myself" The moment I looked up I saw the cliff towering off before me and I knew that I should go back down this road but it seemed like the only way.
Before when all thid mess started I almost did the same thing until Melissa...but now...I need it like I need air..I crawled the last few feet to the edge of the cliff and looked down at the crashing waves as tunder rumbled...'I need this its the only way..' Just as I closed my eyes and was about to let go of everything I had ever known I was pulled back by arms that became my saving grace when the weight of my crumbling shoulders made me fall...
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