Sam hadn't left her childs side at all. She hadn't eaten in days and barely drank anything. She was still in her work clothes that she had brought alexa in on. Alexa had gone from bad to worse in a couple of days. She was now hooked up to machines. Lucky had arrived back at the hospital after a shift at the PCPD to see Sam in their sleeping in the chair. She had alexa resting on her chest. not moving so she wouldn't mess with the wires that lead from her child to the machines. The doctors walked into Alexa's room waking sam as the doors opened. They were going to go take Alexa for test and Sam couldn't be with her. Sam walked out of the room for the first time in a long time.

"Whats going on sam?" lucky asked as sam put her hand on the window to her baby's room.

"their taking her for test and says i can't be with her"

"well let me take you home"

"no i dont want to leave"

"its going to be awhile, you should go home and change sam"

"i can't leave her lucky i just can't" sam looked at lucky her eyes watering up.

"nothing is going to happen to her, come on ill take you home"

He put his hand on her back kinda pushing her in the direction to leave. Sam finally stopped pushing. Sam was glad lucky was taking her home she didn't think she could drive plus she didn't have a car their. Carly had taken it back to sams. They didn't speak at all on the way to sam's. They pulled up to sam's. It was so dark and empty looking. No one had been their in days. No gaurds no one. Sam got out of the car and walked up to the house with lucky following her. Sam went in as lucky collected the news paper that had collected on her steps. along with her mail and walked inside shutting the door behind her. Sam didn't say anything and just went upstairs. Lucky could hear the water running to the shower. Sat her mail on the table next to the papers. He walked to her kitchen and made her a cup of hot tea. Sam came down about 30 minutes later. He saw lucky on the couch with a couple of tea and a muffin. Lucky looked at her. She had no makeup on and her face was so sad. Her hair was pulled up into a ponytail and she was wearing black pj pants and a white tanktop. she was carring a stuffed animal with her. He assumed it was Alexa's. she flopped down next to him on the couch. Lucky couldn't get passed how beautiful she was even when she wasn't trying to be.

Lucky was the first to talk.

"You should eat,i made you hot tea and brought you a blueberry muffin"

"thanks. you know this is her first stuff animal"

"who gave it to her?"

"um if i remember it was jason,"
lucky looked down.

"was jason their for you while you were pregnant?"

"no, he was either with his son, or looking for who tried to kill me and alexa"

"sorry wasn't here for you"

"its not ok, but i dont think ill ever figure out why you weren't, and took you this long to realize that Alexa is your family to"

"your my family to sam"

"no i'm not Lucky, i am just the mother of your daughter. Liz, cam and your unborn baby are your family along with the spencers and Nik"

She had a point and he didn't argue it. Sam picked up the muffin. and started eatting it. Lucky looked at her and he didn't know what hit him. As flashes of her eatting a blueberry muffin with her wrist wrapped up. Lucky was confused. Because her wrist wasn't wrapped now.

"what happened to your wrist?"

sam looked at hre wrist adn saw nothing.

"what do you mean lucky theres nothing wrong with it"

"but was thier?"

"why"

"Because i remembered you eatting a blueberry muffin before but you had a pink cast on it"

sam looked at him. Her eyes were wide.

"so you really didn't remember us"

"what happened to your wrist"

he really wanted to know.

"it hurt it in the hostage crisis at the metrocourt, and that same day when i hit jason in the face"

"were we in love then?"

sam looked down adn sadly said "no you were just my hero back then"

"oh, so when did we fall in love"

"i am not really sure, it kinda just happened your friendship turned into love"

"who said i love you first?"

"you did, in a text message the night you were shot"

"did you tell me you loved me"

"i sent you a text, but i dont know if you had a chance to read it. cruz said you did because it was on your phone when they found it, but i always thought he was just saying that to help me"

"oh, so we had sex not long before that didn't we"

"ya we either concieved Alexa the night before or the morning of your shooting"

they had been sitting close together on the couch after sam had finished the muffin. Luckys arm was on the back of the couch around sam but not touch her. Sam's pony tail had gone over his arm. Listening to her talk. He knew she still loved him and did back then. He was having feelings for sam more than her just being the mother of his child. There was something thier that he couldn't deny. Everything he was told about sam wasn't true. He couldn't see it. Sam had looked at him. She had scened him just looking at her and without thinking Lucky leaned in and kissed her sweet lips. Sam was shocked but didn't pull away. it had been so long since she felt his lips on hers and she had dreamt about him kissing her all the time. they broke the kiss at the sam time. sam opned her eyes looking at lucky. He couldn't believe he just kissed her especially since he was a married man. Afraid that sam would get mad.

"Sam im sorry i shouldn't of done it"

"done what" she gave a small and looked down. her mind was back on her sick baby. sam looked at lucky tears was trying to push its way out from sam's eyes.

"what is it sam?"

"i don't know what im going to do if i lose that little girl lucky, i don't think ill survive another heartache"

"shh sam its ok, she going to be ok"

the arm that was behind sam wrapped itself around her and pulled her close as she cried in his arms. after awhile of holding her, lucky realized that sam wasn't crying anymore but that she had fallen asleep in his arms. Lucky gave a smile as he looked down at sam who was asleep in his arms. He saw a clock on the fireplace and knew that Alexa would be done with her test soon and that Sam wouldn't want her chile to be alone, but he also couldn't wake her up. So he gently moved laying her down on the couch and pulled a blanket off the back of the couch covering her up. He took the tea and put it in the kitchen and wrote sam a note. So she wouldn't worry when she woke to find him not their. Lucky headed to the hospital. When he got there they were just putting alexa back in her room. He walked in and talked to the doctors.

"so how is she doing?"

"well things are looking better, her fever is clearing up and the infection in still really bad but its starting to clear up a little"

"thats good, its it fine that i hold her"

"ya just becareful not to touch the tubes"

lucky carefully picked up his baby girl putting her against his chest and sat down rocking his baby girl. It felt like forever since he had held his baby girl. Liz had been watching Lucky holding his child. She wished he was holding their child instead of Sams. Elizabeth's jealous was starting to grow into obsession. Sam had woken up to find herself alone in her home. She looked at the time and knew that her baby was back in her hospital room. Sam saw a folded piece of paper and opened it and started reading out loud:

"sam, sorry im not there when you woke up but i knew you didn't want our daughter to be alone when she got back to her room so i went ahead and left and im at the hospital right now telling her how much her mommy and daddy love her. I didn't have the heart to wake you because you needed the rest, so ill see you when you get here..." the note was signed lucky. Sam smiled and slipped on some fuzzy house boots and headed out. She was going to be comfty she didn't know when she was going to be back. While rocking his baby girl who was asleep laying on his chest holding the finger that was supporting her against his chest. Lucky had slept off in to dream land.

lucky's dream

Lucky and sam were sitting on the couch as they talked and watched Alexa play on the floor with her boxes. She was sitting up now and just learning how to crawl. Sam smiled up at lucky who kissed her forehead. Sam put her hands on her stomach. She just found out she was pregnant.

"I love you sam"

"i love you to lucky, this baby is going to know the both of us from day one one"

"i think the hardship our realtionship has gone through proved to us that we were ment to be and nothing is ever goin to change that"

"forever and always, its us vs. the world, im just glad that you finally realized and remembered that its us, you belonged with"

"i woudn't have it any other way ever again. you mean the world to me sam, so does both of our babies"

he kissed sam's tummy that was carring their twins.

"this is where i am ment to be"

he kissed sam. The kiss was filled with Passion and love.

end of luckys dreams

he didn't know that sam had been watching him sleep. he slowly looked out the hospital window to the hall and saw a smileing sam taking in the look of lucky holding their baby. Lucky smiled at her. He knew that Sam and alexa is the family he was suppose to be with, but their was only just desire behind it and he didn't really understand why the desire to be with Sam and Alexa was so strong. But he knew he wanted Sam and only Sam. He wanted to feel her touch on his sking and fill her lips on his once again. The desire to want that was getting ready to turn into the need to have Sam.