Chp. 5- The Ugly Truth
(Ginny's Thoughts)
Thanks to all the reviewers:
Malfoy vs Potter: I like that part too. Well hope you like this!
The Devils Child 666: you have to wait and see!
cc: glad you love it.
Jen: Draco did get what he deserved. he was being a bloody git, so he deserved it.
Hogwarts-mania: Thanks for the review, i'll check out your stories later.
Kyiree: well here ya go.
DGloveangel: Sorry for the wait, thanks for review.
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Cinder2004: thanks, lol.
YashiriRanma4ever: lol. i love shocking people!
short arse: aah thanks. here ya go.
Lady of Masbolle: well here ya go! hope you like it.
DracozFallenAngel: you have to wait and see what happens between them.
Candy Ice: ok thanks. here it is!
SyltherinsQueen: yes it is, and u have to wait to find out the answer.
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SugaAngel86: thanks, here's the new chappie!
fanfare: yes he did! lol
Lyss: well it's finally here!
Last Time:
Ginny spoke a curse, and Draco was pinned against the wall, and his voice was gone. Ginny walked away and she felt the train slow down. She waited by the door closes to her, and stepped out when the door opened. She saw people streaming out of the doors. She went and found a carriage. Hermione, Harry, and Ron came and joined her. Ron's nose was still bleeding a little, and he was sullen. Ginny didn't look at him at all, and Ron didn't look at her at all.
Now:
While Ginny and Ron sat and pouted, Harry and Hermione sat uncomfortably. All four sat the whole trip not talking, afraid of what the others might say. When they finally got to Hogwarts, Ginny threw the door open and stormed out of the carriage. Hermione looked at Harry and ran after Ginny.
"Ginny wait up!"
Ginny kept walking.
(I don't feel like talking to anyone right now.)
"Ginny, come on it's Hermione!"
(DUH! Of course I know that! We've only been best friends for over a year! I know it's her, she should figure out I don't wanna talk.)
"GINNY!"
(Fucking damn it Hermione! Why can't you leave me alone? Can't you see I'm in pain? My heart has been broken and smashed into pieces. I won't be able to trust another guy in a long time, if ever......Please just go away, so I can crawl in a hole and die!)
Hermione grabbed Ginny's wrist and spun her around roughly. Hermione took one look at Ginny's face, and hugged her tightly to her.
"What's the matter Gin?"
"Oh everything Hermione!!!"
"Tell me all about it."
"Well......."
"Hurry up and tell me!"
"Ok it's about Dra....Malfoy."
"What did he do now? If he hurt you I swear I will kill him."
"Well he didn't hurt me physically, but emotionally he did."
"Here Ginny walk with me. We will go tell Dumbledore that we aren't gonna be at the feast, and maybe he will send food up with one of the elves, maybe Dobby or Winky!"
"That would be great Hermione, I don't feel like seeing anyone right now. I look like crap. Let's hurry before anyone else gets inside."
The girls walked into the great hall and went up to Dumbledore.
"Aah Ms. Granger, and Ms. Weasley. How wonderful to see you. What would you like?"
"Well Ginny isn't feeling very great Professor, so we were wondering if we could go to the Gryffindor common room and hang out."
"Of course Ms. Granger. I will send food up with Dobby or Winky. Maybe both. Oh, if I were you girls I would go to the Head Common Rooms, so you have more privacy. The password is, "Petrificus Totalus." Just to let you know the feast will end in 2 hours."
"Thank you so much Professor."
"No problem."
Hermione grabbed Ginny and dragged her along with her to the Head Common Rooms.
"How do you know where they are?"
"Hogwarts: A History, and Dumbledore said where they were in the letter stating I was Head Girl."
"Oh ok."
"Once we get up there we can talk all night, or now that we know when the feast ends, you can go back to the Gryffindor common room before Malfoy gets back."
"I'm not sure what I want to do yet."
"Well we'll wait and see what happens."
"Thanks Hermione, you are a great friend."
"Petrificus Totalus, and thanks."
A door popped out of the wall.
(Wow, that is so cool!)
Hermione walked in and pulled Ginny along with her. Ginny looked around and her mouth feel open.
(OH MY GOD! This place rocks. Why can't the Gryffindor common room be like this? This place is huge, and it's only for 2 people! Jeez, I would become Head Girl for this place! You could fit 3 Gryffindor common rooms in this place AND look at all those books. Man Hermione has got it good! I feel bad she has to share this place with Malfoy though. Knowing him he will be in his bedroom forever shagging Parvati............)
Ginny broke down into tears again. Hermione stopped looking around the room, and hugged Ginny tightly.
"Oh Gin, calm down, tell me everything. I know we can get through this and you won't care about Malfoy one bit."
"Oh Hermione, you're such a good friend," Ginny said while wiping her eyes.
"Here let's go into my bedroom."
"Alright."
Hermione walked over to her bedroom and pushed the door open. Ginny walked in and laid down on the bed look at the room. It had to be at least 2 times the size of one 5-girl dormitory.
"Wow Hermione, this whole place is huge, I hope I'm Head Girl next year."
"I'm sure you will be, well let's talk about this stuff then," Hermione said while locking the door and putting a silencing charm over it.
"Ok well when I got on the train I ran into Malfoy. I said sorry and he helped me up. Then he realized I was Gin AND Ginny. He was grossed out cause he kissed me and was touching me at the club. Then he threatened me to tell no one. He said if I did he would kill me, and I told him he didn't mean it. He had me pinned against the wall."
"Oh Ginny, you poor thing."
"Please don't say anything yet Hermione, I need to keep going or I will break down into tears and won't be able to finish."
Hermione nodded her head and listened.
"He didn't do anything, and I told him so, he said he was thinking if he was going to torture me first, and I said he wouldn't be able to torture me worse than having to sleep with him. He said I was trying to trick him into having sex with me because that is what I wanted. I told him he wanted me, he denied, so I told him to resist this, and I kissed him. He couldn't resist and I eventually pulled away and I said I told you so. The he said he could resist me, but I couldn't resist him. So he kissed me, and I pulled away after a little bit. I said he couldn't resist me first, but he said I couldn't resist him either, so I said, yea so we're even. what you gonna do about it?"
Ginny breathed in deep and started again.
"He pulled me into his compartment and locked the door. He pushed me up against the wall, and kissed me. I told him we shouldn't do this, cause he would get rid of me right after he was done with me. He told me to shut up, that we both wanted this, that we needed to do something passionate in our lives. I started to complain, but his lips silenced me. It felt so good. He started kissing my neck, and it felt great, then he unbuttoned my skirt and flung it off. He pushed me towards a seat."
Ginny took another breath, on the brink of tears.
(Don't cry, your fine Ginny!)
"I said his name and he stopped and said hum. I told him we shouldn't do this. That we had been enemies forever, and told him I can't do this. He told me to live a little. I told him I would when we got to know each other better. I told him he had to wait if he wanted this. I got up and put my skirt back on. He commented on my choice of underwear and told me I would wear those, but I wouldn't have a one night stand. I said Uh No. Then he said we could get to know each other better. Then I asked him to unlock the door. He said jokingly that he wanted to keep me in here as long as he wants. I told him if he didn't let me out, I would never ever kiss/shag him. He said ok I'll let you out. I said I knew you would see it my way. Then I forgot about leaving until he said he would lock me in again if I didn't hurry up. I left after waving bye. And met you guys, and Ron was being a git."
Hermione nodded.
"I punched Ron, grabbed my stuff. I couldn't think of where to go so I went back to Draco's compartment, and flung the door open. There was Draco......snnnoggggingggg Pppparvati!"
Ginny broke down into tears again.
"Oh Ginny you poor thing. How could he do that to you?"
"Hhhhold on, there's more," Ginny sniffled.
Hermione sat back down on the bed.
"I stormed out after flinging the door shut and ran to the bathroom. I heard Draco come out and ran after me, calling my name. I got to the bathroom and waited till he was right in front of the door, and slammed it in his face. I locked it, and he pounded on the door calling my name. I leaned against the door, and slide down and cried. He kept pounding, even though I was in there a long time. I eventually stopped crying and looked at how awful I looked in the mirror. I cleaned my face, and opened the door. Draco stood there looking at me like he was worried. He tried talking, but I cursed him against the wall and so he couldn't speak. I felt the train slow down and waited till it had stopped and got out. Then I met you guys, and you know everything else!"
"Oh My God Ginny, I can't believe that jerk. How could he do that to you? He is a complete asshole."
Ginny broke down into tears yet again.
(Why do I have to fall for the losers? Why can't I met a decent guy? Someone who will treat me right and never disappoint me!)
"Ginny please don't cry."
"Misses are you in here?"
"Ginny I will be right back. That has to be the elves. Hold on."
"Alright. I'm going to the bathroom to clean up."
"Alright."
Ginny walked into the bathroom from Hermione's room, and locked the doors. She went to the bathroom, and splashed her face with water. She dried it and looked at herself in the mirror.
(Look at myself. I look like shit. Where did I go wrong?)
Ginny slipped back into Hermione's room and sat on the bed again. Hermione walked in with the food. Ginny grabbed her plate and stuffed her face.
"Whoa slow down Ginny, or you'll make yourself sick!"
(That's what I'm hoping. Maybe it will numb my body, and make me forget this awful pain.)
After Ginny finished her meal she felt sick, so she laid down on Hermione's bed.
"Oh Hermione, has this ever happened to you?"
"No Ginny."
"So you have no idea what this pain feels like. It feels like a million knifes digging into your heart and ripping it apart. You want to numb your whole body so you don't feel the pain. You feel like hurting yourself so you concentrate on that pain. You feel that you should have done something to not cause this, but you know you can't. You feel useless, and vulnerable. You want to punch someone or something, and usually that ends up being yourself. And Hermione that is only the beginning."
"Wow Ginny, I think I better make you stay here, so I can watch you."
"I don't care what goes on anymore Hermione. For all I know, the world has come to a complete and utter stop. I've crashed and burned. My life is officially over."
"Oh Ginny please don't talk like that. You're scaring me. If anything happened to you, I don't know what I would do."
"Hermione, thanks for being here for me. I feel like a heavy weight has been lifted off my twisted and mangled heart."
"So Ginny, what do you want to do?"
"I think I'll stay here. I can't bear to be by all those people yet."
"Alright, well you'll stay in the bedroom with me obviously."
"Thanks for letting me stay here Hermione......"
"Oh it's no problem Ginny."
"Oh Hermione, can I ask you 2 favors?"
"Sure Ginny."
"First, Don't EVER tell Ron or Harry ANYTHING about this!"
"Alright, my lips are sealed."
"Second, Escort me around till classes start, so Draco can't talk to me."
"That's fine with me Ginny."
"Thanks so much Hermione," Ginny replied and gave her a hug.
"No problem Ginny."
Just then Ginny heard a door slam.
(Oh bloody hell! Here we go.............the battle begins!)
Well review to find out what happens next. Sorry it took me so long to update, but I've been busy. I'll try to update more often, but I can't promise anything!
(Ginny's Thoughts)
Thanks to all the reviewers:
Malfoy vs Potter: I like that part too. Well hope you like this!
The Devils Child 666: you have to wait and see!
cc: glad you love it.
Jen: Draco did get what he deserved. he was being a bloody git, so he deserved it.
Hogwarts-mania: Thanks for the review, i'll check out your stories later.
Kyiree: well here ya go.
DGloveangel: Sorry for the wait, thanks for review.
bBy x jUjUbee: here ya go.
Cinder2004: thanks, lol.
YashiriRanma4ever: lol. i love shocking people!
short arse: aah thanks. here ya go.
Lady of Masbolle: well here ya go! hope you like it.
DracozFallenAngel: you have to wait and see what happens between them.
Candy Ice: ok thanks. here it is!
SyltherinsQueen: yes it is, and u have to wait to find out the answer.
slytherinchic4 ): thanks for the review.
SugaAngel86: thanks, here's the new chappie!
fanfare: yes he did! lol
Lyss: well it's finally here!
Last Time:
Ginny spoke a curse, and Draco was pinned against the wall, and his voice was gone. Ginny walked away and she felt the train slow down. She waited by the door closes to her, and stepped out when the door opened. She saw people streaming out of the doors. She went and found a carriage. Hermione, Harry, and Ron came and joined her. Ron's nose was still bleeding a little, and he was sullen. Ginny didn't look at him at all, and Ron didn't look at her at all.
Now:
While Ginny and Ron sat and pouted, Harry and Hermione sat uncomfortably. All four sat the whole trip not talking, afraid of what the others might say. When they finally got to Hogwarts, Ginny threw the door open and stormed out of the carriage. Hermione looked at Harry and ran after Ginny.
"Ginny wait up!"
Ginny kept walking.
(I don't feel like talking to anyone right now.)
"Ginny, come on it's Hermione!"
(DUH! Of course I know that! We've only been best friends for over a year! I know it's her, she should figure out I don't wanna talk.)
"GINNY!"
(Fucking damn it Hermione! Why can't you leave me alone? Can't you see I'm in pain? My heart has been broken and smashed into pieces. I won't be able to trust another guy in a long time, if ever......Please just go away, so I can crawl in a hole and die!)
Hermione grabbed Ginny's wrist and spun her around roughly. Hermione took one look at Ginny's face, and hugged her tightly to her.
"What's the matter Gin?"
"Oh everything Hermione!!!"
"Tell me all about it."
"Well......."
"Hurry up and tell me!"
"Ok it's about Dra....Malfoy."
"What did he do now? If he hurt you I swear I will kill him."
"Well he didn't hurt me physically, but emotionally he did."
"Here Ginny walk with me. We will go tell Dumbledore that we aren't gonna be at the feast, and maybe he will send food up with one of the elves, maybe Dobby or Winky!"
"That would be great Hermione, I don't feel like seeing anyone right now. I look like crap. Let's hurry before anyone else gets inside."
The girls walked into the great hall and went up to Dumbledore.
"Aah Ms. Granger, and Ms. Weasley. How wonderful to see you. What would you like?"
"Well Ginny isn't feeling very great Professor, so we were wondering if we could go to the Gryffindor common room and hang out."
"Of course Ms. Granger. I will send food up with Dobby or Winky. Maybe both. Oh, if I were you girls I would go to the Head Common Rooms, so you have more privacy. The password is, "Petrificus Totalus." Just to let you know the feast will end in 2 hours."
"Thank you so much Professor."
"No problem."
Hermione grabbed Ginny and dragged her along with her to the Head Common Rooms.
"How do you know where they are?"
"Hogwarts: A History, and Dumbledore said where they were in the letter stating I was Head Girl."
"Oh ok."
"Once we get up there we can talk all night, or now that we know when the feast ends, you can go back to the Gryffindor common room before Malfoy gets back."
"I'm not sure what I want to do yet."
"Well we'll wait and see what happens."
"Thanks Hermione, you are a great friend."
"Petrificus Totalus, and thanks."
A door popped out of the wall.
(Wow, that is so cool!)
Hermione walked in and pulled Ginny along with her. Ginny looked around and her mouth feel open.
(OH MY GOD! This place rocks. Why can't the Gryffindor common room be like this? This place is huge, and it's only for 2 people! Jeez, I would become Head Girl for this place! You could fit 3 Gryffindor common rooms in this place AND look at all those books. Man Hermione has got it good! I feel bad she has to share this place with Malfoy though. Knowing him he will be in his bedroom forever shagging Parvati............)
Ginny broke down into tears again. Hermione stopped looking around the room, and hugged Ginny tightly.
"Oh Gin, calm down, tell me everything. I know we can get through this and you won't care about Malfoy one bit."
"Oh Hermione, you're such a good friend," Ginny said while wiping her eyes.
"Here let's go into my bedroom."
"Alright."
Hermione walked over to her bedroom and pushed the door open. Ginny walked in and laid down on the bed look at the room. It had to be at least 2 times the size of one 5-girl dormitory.
"Wow Hermione, this whole place is huge, I hope I'm Head Girl next year."
"I'm sure you will be, well let's talk about this stuff then," Hermione said while locking the door and putting a silencing charm over it.
"Ok well when I got on the train I ran into Malfoy. I said sorry and he helped me up. Then he realized I was Gin AND Ginny. He was grossed out cause he kissed me and was touching me at the club. Then he threatened me to tell no one. He said if I did he would kill me, and I told him he didn't mean it. He had me pinned against the wall."
"Oh Ginny, you poor thing."
"Please don't say anything yet Hermione, I need to keep going or I will break down into tears and won't be able to finish."
Hermione nodded her head and listened.
"He didn't do anything, and I told him so, he said he was thinking if he was going to torture me first, and I said he wouldn't be able to torture me worse than having to sleep with him. He said I was trying to trick him into having sex with me because that is what I wanted. I told him he wanted me, he denied, so I told him to resist this, and I kissed him. He couldn't resist and I eventually pulled away and I said I told you so. The he said he could resist me, but I couldn't resist him. So he kissed me, and I pulled away after a little bit. I said he couldn't resist me first, but he said I couldn't resist him either, so I said, yea so we're even. what you gonna do about it?"
Ginny breathed in deep and started again.
"He pulled me into his compartment and locked the door. He pushed me up against the wall, and kissed me. I told him we shouldn't do this, cause he would get rid of me right after he was done with me. He told me to shut up, that we both wanted this, that we needed to do something passionate in our lives. I started to complain, but his lips silenced me. It felt so good. He started kissing my neck, and it felt great, then he unbuttoned my skirt and flung it off. He pushed me towards a seat."
Ginny took another breath, on the brink of tears.
(Don't cry, your fine Ginny!)
"I said his name and he stopped and said hum. I told him we shouldn't do this. That we had been enemies forever, and told him I can't do this. He told me to live a little. I told him I would when we got to know each other better. I told him he had to wait if he wanted this. I got up and put my skirt back on. He commented on my choice of underwear and told me I would wear those, but I wouldn't have a one night stand. I said Uh No. Then he said we could get to know each other better. Then I asked him to unlock the door. He said jokingly that he wanted to keep me in here as long as he wants. I told him if he didn't let me out, I would never ever kiss/shag him. He said ok I'll let you out. I said I knew you would see it my way. Then I forgot about leaving until he said he would lock me in again if I didn't hurry up. I left after waving bye. And met you guys, and Ron was being a git."
Hermione nodded.
"I punched Ron, grabbed my stuff. I couldn't think of where to go so I went back to Draco's compartment, and flung the door open. There was Draco......snnnoggggingggg Pppparvati!"
Ginny broke down into tears again.
"Oh Ginny you poor thing. How could he do that to you?"
"Hhhhold on, there's more," Ginny sniffled.
Hermione sat back down on the bed.
"I stormed out after flinging the door shut and ran to the bathroom. I heard Draco come out and ran after me, calling my name. I got to the bathroom and waited till he was right in front of the door, and slammed it in his face. I locked it, and he pounded on the door calling my name. I leaned against the door, and slide down and cried. He kept pounding, even though I was in there a long time. I eventually stopped crying and looked at how awful I looked in the mirror. I cleaned my face, and opened the door. Draco stood there looking at me like he was worried. He tried talking, but I cursed him against the wall and so he couldn't speak. I felt the train slow down and waited till it had stopped and got out. Then I met you guys, and you know everything else!"
"Oh My God Ginny, I can't believe that jerk. How could he do that to you? He is a complete asshole."
Ginny broke down into tears yet again.
(Why do I have to fall for the losers? Why can't I met a decent guy? Someone who will treat me right and never disappoint me!)
"Ginny please don't cry."
"Misses are you in here?"
"Ginny I will be right back. That has to be the elves. Hold on."
"Alright. I'm going to the bathroom to clean up."
"Alright."
Ginny walked into the bathroom from Hermione's room, and locked the doors. She went to the bathroom, and splashed her face with water. She dried it and looked at herself in the mirror.
(Look at myself. I look like shit. Where did I go wrong?)
Ginny slipped back into Hermione's room and sat on the bed again. Hermione walked in with the food. Ginny grabbed her plate and stuffed her face.
"Whoa slow down Ginny, or you'll make yourself sick!"
(That's what I'm hoping. Maybe it will numb my body, and make me forget this awful pain.)
After Ginny finished her meal she felt sick, so she laid down on Hermione's bed.
"Oh Hermione, has this ever happened to you?"
"No Ginny."
"So you have no idea what this pain feels like. It feels like a million knifes digging into your heart and ripping it apart. You want to numb your whole body so you don't feel the pain. You feel like hurting yourself so you concentrate on that pain. You feel that you should have done something to not cause this, but you know you can't. You feel useless, and vulnerable. You want to punch someone or something, and usually that ends up being yourself. And Hermione that is only the beginning."
"Wow Ginny, I think I better make you stay here, so I can watch you."
"I don't care what goes on anymore Hermione. For all I know, the world has come to a complete and utter stop. I've crashed and burned. My life is officially over."
"Oh Ginny please don't talk like that. You're scaring me. If anything happened to you, I don't know what I would do."
"Hermione, thanks for being here for me. I feel like a heavy weight has been lifted off my twisted and mangled heart."
"So Ginny, what do you want to do?"
"I think I'll stay here. I can't bear to be by all those people yet."
"Alright, well you'll stay in the bedroom with me obviously."
"Thanks for letting me stay here Hermione......"
"Oh it's no problem Ginny."
"Oh Hermione, can I ask you 2 favors?"
"Sure Ginny."
"First, Don't EVER tell Ron or Harry ANYTHING about this!"
"Alright, my lips are sealed."
"Second, Escort me around till classes start, so Draco can't talk to me."
"That's fine with me Ginny."
"Thanks so much Hermione," Ginny replied and gave her a hug.
"No problem Ginny."
Just then Ginny heard a door slam.
(Oh bloody hell! Here we go.............the battle begins!)
Well review to find out what happens next. Sorry it took me so long to update, but I've been busy. I'll try to update more often, but I can't promise anything!