1Another chapter yay!! Hurrah You know the more I write this story the more I think..Dang...this is going to be a long stroy! Hmm...but O-so good!! ok I have also noticed, (this is stupid) It seems that I cant get what period or Naraku-Sensei's class Inuyasha is in. Stupid mistake and if anyone noticed I ask for your forgiveness. And just so you know Inuyasha is in seventh period. Cause most schools have seven periods. Yeah...sorry!
Disclaimer: Again!? Do I really have ta say I do not own Inuyasha? Well you know what I'm not saying it this time. What? Aw I just did? Crap!
I quietly closed the front door behind me, not wanting to wake up my family. I did not wanna deal with Sesshomaru. He is such a prick in the mornings. Not that it bothers me or anything, I actually gotten used to his bad behavior, but today I really am not in the mood for anything. Yesterday I told the love of my life, who is my teacher, that I was in love with him. And me being cowardly I just ran away before he had the chance to say anything. Maybe it was for the better though. I just needed to get that out of my system and now I should be fine.
I was walking down the side walk when I stopped in front of my best friend Kagome's house. I kinda left her on a bad note last night as well. You see Kagome and I have been best friends forever but she doesn't know that I'm gay. I know she's suspicious and know's something up, but I just don't have the courage to tell her. Maybe today, I need someone to talk to about this.
Kagome came bounding down the steps of her house wearing her school uniform carrying her large yellow bag. She looked a little surprised to see me. Which I'm not sure why. Even if we have fights I always walk her to school.
"Good morning Inuyasha." She walked next to me and we walked down the street. It was quiet for a long time before I tried to break the ice.
"So how ya do in'?"
"I'm good. How are you doing?" I paused at the question and almost like reading my mind Kagome started asking questions.
"Inuyasha are you okay? Like I said you can say whatever you need to."I became quiet again thinking over the words I wanted to say. It was in my head, but the words wouldn't come out. I took in a deep breath and looked at Kagome.
"Something happened yesterday."
"Does it have something to do with Sesshomaru coming home?" Her voice was concerned but strong.
"No. It has nothing to do with him. Hey how did you know about that?"
"Just guessed." We continued walking, halfway to school now.
"It happened after school in Naraku Sensei's class." Her face became confused but she kept listening to me. The sidewalk started becoming more crowded and I started feeling more uncomfortable with every person I saw.
"Kagome lets go this way." I went down the street to the opposite where we were going. The road we started taking would lead us to the park. There shouldn't be anybody there this time in the morning, so it would be private.
'Were are we going?" Kagome asked trying to keep up with me. I hadn't even noticed I was walking a lot faster than normal. I slowed my pace down, "we're going to the park so we won't be interrupted by people." She nodded her head and kept the same pace as me. We kept quiet until we were in the park.
The park wasn't really anything special. It usually was filled with children, and this early in the morning, I was sure there wouldn't be anyone there. And I was right. The park was empty. I walked passed the slide that was filled with fun memories and straight to the swings. I have always loved the swings. Actually I don't know what child doesn't love swings.
I took a seat at the blue plastic seat and wrapped my hands around the chains and gently pushed my self back and forward, feet still touching the ground so that I wouldn't go flying. Kagome took a seat next to me and started doing the same thing.
"Inuyasha what is it you wanna talk about?" She asked getting straight to the point. I took a gulp and was ready to tell her all my feelings and my secret.
"Kagome, I um. You know how I told you I did something stupid yesterday after school in Sensei's class?" She kept her eyes on me, a sign saying I'm listening , and nodded her head. Here it comes. Do I just say it? Or is there away for me to say it without actually saying it? I wondered this for about a minute, and I saw that Kagome was getting a little frustrated waiting for me to say anything. Ha just like Naraku. A snapped out of it and decided that I was just going to go out and say it.
"Well" I paused. Just say it already. "Kagome I told sensei that I loved him!" I screamed out. The only way I could get the words out of my mouth. I starred at the ground, my face becoming red. Well I guess I said I was gay without actually saying it. It had been quiet for a few seconds before I decided to look up at Kagome. She looked at me and smiled.
"So you love the teacher, a lot of students love him."
"But Kagome," I paused again.
"You're worried that he will turn you down or think you a weird homo or something?" I nodded my head.
"I mean I don't even know if he's straight or gay. Or if he's already in a relationship or not." She started to laugh. I gave her an angry look. "Hey it's not funny!"
"I'm sorry. But it kinda is. I mean you love him and you don't know the basic stuff about him." her laughter ended and I gave her a smile.
"It's stupid huh?"
"No it's not stupid. Telling someone you love them is never a stupid thing. You just didn't research." She gave me another smile. She was right, I just really jumped in with out ever thinking. For months I've been in love with the man and I don't know squat about him.
"So what should I do?" She looked at me, and put on a wonderment face.
"Well, the truth is the chances of him turning you down if very high." My heart dropped all the way to my stomach when she said that. "The main reason is because you are a student, and he is a teacher. It's would be his whole life he would have to throw away for a relation ship with you." I let my gaze drop to the floor. "But you never know, he might just wanna throw it all away for you. You're a really cool person Inuyasha."
I looked back at her. "It's just really hard."
"Of corse it is. This is your first real love, so you don't know what to do. You just need to be yourself and don't let this get you down. It will be painful at first. Like your heart is heavy but you will need to move on if things don't end out with a story book ending."I nodded my head again. All her words were making sense, but still, I want a story book ending.
I lifted myself off the swing also bringing my hand up to my face to brush away some of my fallen hair. "Well I guess we better get going then." I watched as Kagome sat up brushing off her school skirt, and then flash a large half moon grin at me.
"What is it?" I felt a little worried asking the question.
"So you think the teacher is hot?"
"Yes, that comes with loving someone." She smiled at me again and patted me on the back.
"I knew you didn't hate him like you always acted." I sort of blushed at her statement. But then the little tune she sang to her self made me go one hundred percent red in the face, "Inuyasha and Naraku sitting in a tree. My best friends homo and so is he." It was a dumb tune, but still.
"Kagome!!!" She took off running and I followed her, like a game of tag almost. Like the old days playing in this park. We chased each other all the way to school. Were before entering I took in a deep breath and prepared my self for that horrid last period of the day for his answer. I felt a hand being placed on my shoulder, "It will be okay Inuyasha." Kagome gave me a reassuring smile that gave me enough courage to walk into that school. But as the day wore on, I started to lose all that courage.
Each time the bell rang as another hour had left the day, I felt my self weakening. After I had gotten some lunch in me though I felt a lot better. Not only that but Kagome and I talked a little bit more. However we were using code words. Like using the word "whip cream" for gay, and "Ice cream" for Sensei...my code name was "banana." It was a very weird conversation, just imagine what some people were thinking when they heard us talking about how much banana's are whip cream and wanna get with the ice cream. It was very hard to follow.
It was after lunch and time for fifth period. Kagome and I were making our way to our next class, still talking about "ice cream" and "whip cream" and now the word "chocolate" came up.
The silliness of the whole thing was making me feel a lot better. I was smiling and laughing. But that all stopped when Kagome bumped into my shoulder causing both of us to stop dead in the hallway. "Hey look its ice cream. Do you think ice cream is going to say anything to the banana?" I think she was enjoying the whole thing.
I looked down the hallway and there he was. He looked so hot today. His hair was tied back in a loose ponytail, and his shirt wasn't buttoned up all the way. I got shivers of excitement. He looked so beautiful. I looked at Kagome as she looked at me, "I don't think he will say anything. Not with every one around. Just act normal when we walk past him." She smiled and nodded her head.
He was about twenty feet from us now and I totally froze up. Thank goodness Kagome was able to get me going again. She started talking about the "banana" and "ice cream" again. Which made me laugh again. But on the inside I was all scrunched up and practically holding my breath as he walked by. I wonder what he is thinking about?
I couldn't help it. I looked into his eyes and, he looked into mine. If only for a second and at that moment I felt a flood of sadness go throughout my body. I don't know, maybe he noticed because he flashed me a smile and slightly nodded my head. I became flustered. He smiled at me! Is that a good sign!? I felt my face turning red so as quickly as he smiled at me a turned my head around so he wouldn't see it.
Kagome chuckled at me, "your face is red."
"Shut up." I wonder if him smiling at me was a good sign. Maybe he thinks I'm cute or something. Maybe's he's just trying to tell me that things will be ok. I didn't realize it but I had been smiling at the thought. "Banana and ice cream sitting in a tree," Kagome started but I didn't give her a chance to finish by covering up her mouth with my hand. Just then she broke free from my grasp and yelled all the way across the hallway, "Naraku sensei my friend thinks you're hot!"
I watched in horror as he slowly turned around to see who had yelled that. My face became red and I quickly grabbed Kagome by the arm and dragged her around the corner. "Why did you do that Kagome?"
"He didn't seem to mind." My face was flushed with red. "Oh come on Inuyasha. He smiled at you. That's gotta be a good sign." I looked at her, a little happy now.
"You think so?"
"Well yeah, if this was me, and I saw the guy I would just act like I didn't see him. But he acknowledged you." She smiled which made me smile. She's right. It could be a good sign. The tardy bell rang as both of us ran to our next class, arriving a little late. I didn't really pay any attention to the lesson. Not like I ever do. Two more hours to go. In two hours I'll have to face that man that I love again. My stomach was in nots. And it would be so easy to fake sick and go home. I thought about doing this a few times but I decided against it.
1st reason I will have to face Naraku sooner or later. And I would prefer sooner.
2nd I don't wanna have to go home any sooner than I have to with Sesshomaru there. I hate when he is here. Why did it have to be now he decided to come over. I pushed my brother out of my thoughts and tried my best to pay attention, and again, it was a miserable attempt.
2 hours later.
I took a deep breath and walked through the class rooms door and took my seat with out even giving him a glance. Once at me seat though, I noticed however that he was acting strangely. He was very active. Which isn't what he usually did during class. Today he was cleaning away the notes already written on the white board, and kept cleaning it at the same spot over and over again. Even if it already had been cleared. If he was trying to act unnerves, he wasn't doing a good job. Apparently Kagome caught on to this as well and leaned in towards the isle to tell me something.
"Look how nervous he is. He can't even look at you right now." I smiled. I guess that's true. I watched as he reached to a high point on the board and his shirt rose up along with him. Giving me a clear look at his butt. Again Kagome had to say something about this. "Are you looking at his butt?" she smiled, but I felt like hitting her. Good thing that every one was to much into their own conversations to hear anything.
It seemed like when he had finished cleaning the whole board he turned to the class. I myself wanted to look like I wasn't at all scared, so I did what I normally would do. Look down at my desk and not pay any attention. Which is exactly what I did. I ended up playing around with my pen. It was very amusing twirling it around in my fingers. I was amazed I did not drop it. I was fully unaware o f anything until I hear a loud cheer from my class mates. I looked up to see Sensei sitting on his desk with a slight smile spread across his face.
"Well that's all great and all" he paused for a brief moment to pick up a stack of papers. "But first a pop quiz! Isn't that fun?" This time the whole class roared with an "aw" including my self. I watched as Sensei started passing out the test saying, "Now now if you did your homework last night it shouldn't be hard" Crap. I didn't do it last night. I hardly ever did. Damn I'm gonna fail. He told us to begin.
The test was torturous I did not know any of the answers. And to help it off, it wasn't even multiple choice. All fill in the blank. At least with multiple choice I could guess. "Ok pencils down." every one did that, minus a few people. Not me. I totally had given up like five minutes into the thing. "Now was it that hard?" I heard him say. And then Bankotsu, he was the class clown, responded. And totally got humiliated by Sensei. He came by my desk, almost pausing for a moment when I handed him the test. But then something that completely surprised my. While picking up the test he had somehow handed me a crumpled up note. He walked by with out a word an continued to pick up the test. No one seemed to notice he had handed me a note. Not even Kagome, who usually notices every thing.
I quickly and awkwardly opened the folded note. I read what was scrawled out on to the paper. He wanted me to stay after class so we could talk. I just hope that I wouldn't run out this time like a crying maniac. The hour ticked away really quickly this time. Soon enough the bell had rung and the class was out the door and leaving. Kagome looked at me and gave me a reassuring simile. I nodded toward her and she left the class room. Now it was just me and him.
I stood with my head down, and my hands in my pockets, waiting for him to say something fist. I was so nervous. But not as much as yesterday. At least yesterday I had gotten all my feelings out. Now it really was waiting for the answer. I was still sure it was going to be 'no' and then some long sympathetic speech as to why we couldn't be together. Why am I even wasting his breath. I should have never said anything.
His voice was the one to end the silence. "Inuyasha. If you don't mind could you close the door?" I did as a was told. Still not looking at him in the face. The door clicked and the endless silence began again. My heart started to beat. He must be thinking of an easy way to say it. I'm such an idiot! My fist tightened. I couldn't take the silence anymore. I heard his voice start to say my name, but my tone came out louder and faster.
"I'm sorry for saying that stupid thing yesterday" I practically yelled it out as I now was looking straight at him, face flushed and a angry face trying to hide my pain. He looked a little shocked from my out burst, but he still had a calm sense to him.
"Um ok...but saying that you love someone...should never be a stupid thing." His words shocked me. I wanted to yell out that it is stupid, especially if you barely know the person. I bit my lip and kept my fist into a tight ball. I lowered my head feeling tears start to swell up in my eyes. Damn it! I don't wanna cry again.
"Oi" I heard his feet hit the floor and walk towards me. "Inuyasha look at me." again I did what I was told and was greeted with a soft smile spread on his perfect face. He's so handsome. My heart beat was quickening and I felt like I was on fire. He grabbed a bunch of his black hair. A sign of nervousness. "Inuyasha, I..I um..." There was a slight pause once again. "I wanna be your boyfriend."
I totally was in shock. And he was embarrassed. There was no way I was hearing correctly. My mind must be playing tricks on me. I saw his face turned a light shade of pink. I'm sure nothing compared to my full red face. It was also hard for him to keep his eyes connected to mine. There was no way.."Did you say what I think you said." I had to know for myself.
He still had a smile on his face. "I did. But there are going to be exceptions for you dating me."
I was astatic this must be some dream of mine. But no, this was real life. And without fully thinking things out again I just blurted out what I was thinking. "Anything I'll do anything." now I noticed it sounded to clingy and annoying. But his face became more full of that wonderful smile. I don't think he noticed it but there he was smiling at me and my immature clingyness,
"When do you turn eighteen?" The question kinda threw me for a loop. But then I understood the point of it.
'Next year in July." I said in a less enthusiastic voice. He was upset by that. If he wanted to be my boyfriend it would be hard for him to not get caught. Not only would he be a pedophile, he can loose his whole carrier. "Damn.All right then, that will be the first rule. Because of the large age difference there can be no public display of affection." My heart sunk a little. But this is what will be if we wanna be together. "The second rule is that I'm a teacher first and that means that I will make sure you are doing your homework before we can do anything fun." He's going to...my brain totally had an over load as the last words of his sentence sent excitement run through my body. He seemed to be enjoying the whole thing.
"And the last rule is that you can't tell anyone about this. If they find out I can get fired and be put into a lot of trouble. Do you understand?" I nodded my head. But what about Kagome? She's going to wanna know about this. And I know she won't drop it until I say something. I guess I'd have to lie to her then. It was something I didn't wanna think about, but this is something very serious and I can't fool around. The room was quiet.
"So what do we do?" this time I was the one who broke the silence. I was embarrassed but I had no idea what people did in a relation ship. I mean I knew they went on dates, and hugged, and...kissed. But that was practically it. I didn't know the finer details of things. Which is pretty foolish.
"What do you mean? Have you never had a girlfriend um or boyfriend before?" I never had one. I responded "no." its so embarrassing, I know that I'm good looking. I had a few girls tell me that before, but I never had any interest in dating. I was a pretty straight forward guy. And when I first met Sensei I didn't know what the exact feeling it was that I had. But eventually I realized I was in love with him. "Hmm. I don't know why." His words broke me from my thought. "A boy as handsome as you, there is no way you never had a partner."
Like putting salt into a wound. "Well I didn't ok You're my first." My first response I snapped at him, and the last part, I was almost to embarrassed to say. "Hmm"
"Hmm? What do you mean Hmm?" I was still trying to keep my tough exterior. Which I don't know why. The man has seen me at my weakest moment. He walked closer to me and grabbed my hair. I felt his fingers intertwined with in my hair. It felt good. I tried keeping my self from getting to excited. He said something softly, so softly I think he was actually talking more to himself than to me. He took the hair he had in his hands and slowly, and almost seductively up to his nose sniffing it. "Thank y-" before I had the chance to finish he took me into a tight embrace. I slowly lifted my hands returning the hug. This is going to be great. I felt his hot breath whisper into my ear, "Inuyasha come to my house at 5:00"
What!? He let go of my and I looked at him confusion and shock written on my face. He was ready to leave. A smile still on his face. "Remember my house at five" I almost nodded my head but realized that I didn't know where he lived. I acknowledged this fact and to room became quiet again. He didn't realize it either. We both got so caught up in the moment it slipped our minds. I watched as he scribbled his address onto a piece of paper and handed it to me.
He told me what to do if my parents asked where I was going. Which was really a no brainier. Not like my parents would care. I thought about this for a second and realized with Sesshomaru here it might be harder to get out then I thought. "Thank you Sensei" He stopped from opening the door and looked at me curiously.
"For what?" I smiled up at him, "For agreeing to be my boyfriend." He decided to make a joke out of it "Heh. You make it sound like I had no choice in the matter."he smiled and then kissed me gently on the forehead. He was really teasing me. He opened the door and said as a disguise "I'll see you tomorrow right?" I was still flustered about the small teasing kiss. He barely knew me and he was teasing me like mad. I was now out the door, "Yeah, again thank you.". I started walking down the hallway and home. My heart still beating. I was in love.
Gasp omg there we go!!! im so sorry that I take so long to update! And then I have other stories I need to attend to! Omg so so so so sorry! Im wondering if I should combined some chapters together. Both Inuyasha and Naraku POV together. This is just going to take to long to get the story through. Well I'll think this over. And adu. I hoped you liked the 4th instalment of F in Science, A in love. R&R