She couldn't believe the man she thought so much of was doing this to her,

She didn't know how to react so she did the only thing she knew, she ran like hell.

She knew spike would come after her, but it only made her run faster.

Thinking of Buffy's body meeting his, exchanging there love, it made her sick.

She hated Buffy and she wanted to hate spike too.

She heard her name being called not far behind her, she knew she couldn't keep running

This fast for long, she spotted a park and went and curled up on the park bench.

She didn't care If he found her, she didn't care if he was sorry she just wanted to die.

'Why did you kiss him Nicole? You knew he would never like you!'

She put her head in-between her knees and cried "Nicole! Why did you do that!'

"why didn't you stop you stupid kid!" "you could have been killed you Bleedin idiot!'

Nicole continued to sob 'g, go away!' spike realized she was really torn up about what she seen 'look, me and Buffy' he sighed 'Buffy and I, we have a connection, we don't'

He put his hands on his hips and looked off to the side 'we, we just don't'

Nicole looked at him 'does she love you like I do?!' spike frowned, he didn't have an answer to the question Nicole asked 'Look your just a little girl, your messed up'

He said getting in Nicole's face 'it was your fault what you seen and I don't care!'

She stood 'I hate you spike, I hate you so much that I hope you combust from inside out!'

And with that she ran off so fast spike didn't get to see which direction she headed in.

Spike didn't sleep that night, he couldn't he did like Nicole he just didn't want to admit it.

She was still a child and he had, had feeling's for Buffy long before she came to Sunnydale, no one had ever liked spike before. He didn't know how to react.

He heard the front door shut and light footsteps slowly walking up the stairs followed by another door opening and shutting once again, Nicole… he thought,

She's home. He didn't know what to expect. Was she going to curse him, try to kill him in his sleep? And he didn't want to find out!

Ill just act normal, maybe she's over it by now he thought.

He casually walked down stairs and threw himself on the couch, Nicole walked down the stairs and headed to the kitchen 'hello pet, sleep well?' no answer,

She then quickly skipped up the stairs and locked herself in the bathroom.

Hours passed and spike grew worried 'where the hell is everyone!'

Nor Buffy, faith, dawn, xander, willow or Giles were home!

He walked up the stairs and knocked on the bathroom door 'Nicole, you've been sulking in there long enough come out' 'we need to talk' spike could smell a beautiful aroma in the air, he wafted the smell toward his nose. His mouth began to drool.

That's when he realized, what he could smell, was blood…

A look of panic covered spikes face 'Nicole! you open up right now!'

He bashed his fists on the door, 'NICOLE!' he yelled 'I'll let myself in then!'

After a few kicks and charges at the door it finally broke open.

The smell was very strong now, he turned to face the shower only to find Nicole

In a bloody heap, slashes covered her wrists and her body and beside her lay the knife she had taken from the kitchen.

She was very pale, spike could tell she had lost to much blood to survive.

Thoughts rampaged spikes mind 'Nicole keep your eyes open, your going to be okay!'

He never thought he could, but tears started to fill spikes eyes.

Seeing this little girl woman In such pain because of him.

Usually he would find it amusing, as a vampire but this time it was terrible.

'Nicole please!' "just don't shut your eyes, I'll go get help.'

Nicole flickered her eyes she whispered faintly 'spike, wait.' He looked in her eyes

'yes pet?' he said sobbing and stuttering his words 'I just wanted you to be the last thing I looked at' She smiled gently and closed her eyes.

Spike shook her, 'Nicole!' 'God dammit Nicole! Wake Up!' he knew it was to late.

He held her close, her warm blood was still pumping through her veins, He could feel it, her body still hadn't shut down completely, he thought for a moment. He kissed her gently, and did the only thing he knew how.He slit his wrist and held it over her mouth, then gently bit her neck.