Hey everyone! This is my first Death Note yaoi fic, so I'd seriously appreciate if you read it and reviewed it, tell me if there's something I need to improve and how you like it so far, yadda yadda. Anyway, it's mainly NearXMello, but starts off as MattXMello. It has nothing to do with the original death note plot, I focus on the characters: their inner thoughts, their struggles and interaction with eachother. Matt is OOC here on purpose. Any other OOCness among Near and Mello, please alert me of.

I worked hard on this, so please enjoy it. I'm feeling very good about it too!

BTW To everyone looking forward to my next update of my TemaSaku fic "Pretty Red Dress," I'm sorry. It's not coming anytime soon...but eventually it could. There's still hope. In the meantime, I have this to occupy you.

Chapter One

Intro

"Near, I'm not in the mood for this" he growled, his patience thinning. "Whether you're in the mood or not, it does not make the slightest difference. Just listen to what I'm trying to tell you" Near responded calmly.

It was always like this. It couldn't possibly change, not a damn chance in this world.

"Near, when are you going to realize I have a boyfriend?! Just accept that and move on!" the other boy shrieked. Near heaved a sigh. "Matt treats you like a dog. He has no respect for you" Near said firmly. The blonde glared at him, clenching tightly to his bar of chocolate. "Fuck you" he spat. "Fuck you! If you think he's like that, then you don't even know Matt at all!" he seethed. Near felt as though the boy had struck him, rather than cursed at him. Still, he kept his composure as usual, masking how he truly felt. It was something he just learned to do, and in his mind, made handling people a little easier.

"Believe what you want to, Mello. I know the truth, and you do as well. You just can't accept it at the moment" he responded. Mello turned on his heel abruptly and stormed away.

Near continued playing with his puzzle, analyzing the pieces and fitting them together. Puzzles were easy for him, since he's been assembling them his whole life. Why could his relationship with Mello fit like a puzzle? The pieces of a puzzle could be put together so easily, yet the remaining shards of what he has with Mello remain scattered across the floor, abandoned and begging to be picked up and connected once more. A time where they got along was so far back in Near's memory, it seemed impossible to return to it.

Near wouldn't give up. He'd been fighting for this, wanting it, yearning for it for too long to let it go now.

He has always known that Matt was no good. Back when they were just starting to go out, Mello has been completely smitten, gushing about him to anyone who asked. Sure, Matt seemed decent. He was anti-social, just as Near was and still is. He honed a love for anything technical, like video games. He sure had a unique sense of style, just as Mello did. Near knew no style. He wore an over-sized white shirt paired with baggy white pants. Add his curly mop of snow-white hair, and you've got a childish teenager who looks like he just rolled out of bed without even bothering to change or brush his hair.

Mello and Matt's first date was at an amusement park. They hit it off almost instantly, and had a grand old time together. Of course Near knew this, he overheard him blabbing to his friends about it at school the following day.

They had been dating steadily for a year and a half, but lately things were changing for the worse. Too many rave parties has Matt evolving into a hard-partier, frequenting drugs and alcohol. Matt's different now…so different it seems he's not the same person. He no longer takes care of Mello, just disregards his feelings and orders him around as if he were a mutt. He's too shitfaced to care, way too fucked up. Too busy with unimportant nothings like video games and parties.

"I know if he were mine, I'd only treat him the way he should be treated. I'd show him the way love's supposed to be" Near muttered to his finger puppets. Though Near was highly intelligent and skilled, he was embarrassingly unintelligent when it came to love. He was half way through his final year of high school and had never been on a date, let alone asked out.

He had absolutely no experience, but even so, he was confident that he'd be a better boyfriend to Mello than Matt ever was. He'd prove it, too. It'd be only a matter of time before Mello finally breaks and gives him a chance…

Almost there. He's certain.

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