R is for Regret
When we die, we go back. Every part of us goes back. The body to the earth. The mind to the memories, and the soul to its god. Nothing remains, except for those things, big or small, that we want to change. Spike wanted to change many things. How he had treated Faye. How he had not treated Jet. How little he had said to Edward, and how uncaring he had been toward Ein. He wanted to change his inability to let go of Julia and love Faye. He wanted to let go of Vicious and embrace Jet... he just wanted to be undamaged. Stumbling down those ruined marble stairs, he regretted many things... but most of all, he regretted not telling Faye goodbye.