The taxi eventually pulls up outside Logan's hotel, you throw money in the driver's general direction and rush out the door. You arrive at the concierge desk and ding the bell for service. No one comes so you ding it again and again and again until finally someone with a sour expression on the face addresses you.
"May I help you?" The woman asks in a tone you don't like but you'll deal.
"Logan Echolls. I need his room key."
"Sorry but we don't give out clients room keys to just anyone and he hasn't requested for anyone to be given a room key."
"You don't get it. He called me a few minutes ago, he's drunk and angry and depressed and ready to jump off the balcony. I need his room key."
"Sorry Ma'am but we can't give you the room key. I can though ring through to his room for you."
"Listen!" You tell. "The love of my life is very drunk and very capable of killing himself right and I want the fucking room key because if he jumps off that balcony before I get up there I will not only see to it that you are fired and never work again but I will fucking kill you myself!"
You hear a crash, like breaking glass and a gasp from people standing by who've obviously taken notice to Logan.
"Right this way." The woman says, moving from behind the desk and walking briskly to the elevator.
The elevator takes so long for it to arrive, or maybe time has slowed. You're not sure but you don't care. It's taking too long.
"The stairs." You say, heading to the door with the stairs and quickly climbing each as if your life depended on it. A life depends on it, just not yours.
The woman follows you and as you finally reach Logan's penthouse suite you bang on the door loudly.
"LOGAN!? Answer the door Logan!"
The woman pushes you aside and knocks. "Mr Echolls sir? Are you alright in there?" When she's met with no answer she pulls out the master key card. "I'm coming in sir." She swipes her card and the door unlocks.
You push past the woman and stop and stare when you see Logan balancing on the rail of the balcony like a little kid. He has a drink in hand, sipping from it.
"Mr Echolls, could you come down from there?"
"No." He says like a kid, continuing his balancing act.
"Logan, hey, it's Veronica. It's me baby."
He turns back quickly, stumbling and almost losing his balance. You gasp, your heart beats that little faster, your palms grow that little sweatier and your hands shake that little more.
"Veronica. Ronnie."
"Come down from there please? I want to talk. We can talk. Please Logan. You don't want to do this."
"No. I want to do this. I want to end my fucking life! Who do I have anymore? My family is dead, you left me, I have no one! Fucking no one!" He yells.
"Logan!" You cry out as his foot slides, luckily he manages to gain his footing again.
Tears stream down your face and you see the sympathy apparent on his face but is it ever enough?
"I'm sorry. So sorry Logan. I love you. I need you in my life. I don't have anyone either anymore Logan. My dad, my mom, Duncan, they've all gone. Please Logan. Don't do this. You don't want to hurt me like this."
His eyes soften for the first time since you've been there, he nods as a tear escapes his beautiful eyes.
"I'm sorry, V. I've been such an-" His sentence is cut off when both his feet slide from the railing and he slips.
Your world moves in slow motion, you see every part of him falling in slow motion, every step, every move, everything. Your heart races, feeling as if you're having a heart attack.
"Logan!" You finally scream, hearing the people from the ground gasp and scream.
His hands grip the bar, straining every muscle in his arms.
"No, no, no!" You scream and run over to him.
"Veronica, I love you." He says as his hands slip and he lets go but you grab both his hands, saving him from the fall. His body is so heavy, a lot heavier than yours and you're not able to pull him up.
"Logan I'm not letting go. I won't let go. I have you." You cry.
"Veronica, I'm going to…" He groans. "Pull you with me if you don't let go baby. Let go. Please, Veronica. Better me then both of us."
"No." You cry selfishly.
"Veronica." He says.
"I will not let you go. I love you Logan. I'm not losing you again."
"I love you Veronica but you have to let go."
His eyes are so sad and he finally looks not so angry at you. You have to let go because you're slowly going over the edge as well. Your fingers let go of his hands and you watch horrifyingly as Logan falls. You gasp and scream and cry, turning your head as he yells.
"Logan." You mumble, your head in your hands.
You finally hear that thud and look over the edge, but to your surprise he's not on the ground, he's fallen, just two floors though, falling onto the balcony of another person.
Please don't be dead Logan. Please don't be dead.
You hurry down the flight of stairs to the room and bang aggressively on the door, it's opened by an older man, he pulls you in quickly. You see the older man's wife with Logan, tending to him. The older man dials an ambulance quickly as you sit by Logan's body.
"Logan." The older lady pulls you into a hug.
Is he even breathing? Is his heart beating? Why isn't he moving, why isn't he talking?
--
The ambulance pulls up at emergency at the hospital, they rush out and pull Logan from the ambulance, you follow suit but as you get in the doors and start to follow them you're told not to go. You're told you can't go further.
"Sorry Ma'am but you can't go past this point, you'll have to go wait in the waiting room."
"That's my boyfriend! My boyfriend." You cry.
"Miss, can you go wait in the waiting room please."
"No! I will not wait in the waiting room!"
"I'm sorry Ma'am but if you don't go wait in the waiting room I will have security kick you out."
You storm off in the direction of the emergency waiting room. There's probably 20 or so people already sitting down there. You take a seat at the back in a corner. You don't want people seeing you like this. Seeing you crying and vulnerable.
A little boy approaches you, he has a toy truck in his hands.
"Don't cry lady. My mommy said crying makes God sad." The little boy tells you but you can't even fake a smile for him.
"You should go back to your mommy then."
"Why are you crying? Did your toy break?" He asks sitting beside you on the chair.
You sort of laugh. "No."
"Then why?"
"My boyfriend is really hurt."
"Did he fall off his bike?"
"No. He…he just fell and hurt himself."
A woman comes over to you and the boy and smiles at you.
"I am so sorry about this. James has got to learn not to bother people. Come James."
James fights to stay. "Mommy this lady says her boyfriend is hurt. He fell and hurt himself."
"I'm sorry to hear that." The woman sincerely says.
"Thank you."
"Now come on James."
"But mommy! This lady is crying and I trying to make her feel better."
"You could make the nice lady feel better by leaving her alone." The woman sternly says to her son.
James looks at you with sad little eyes as he's carried away by his mom.
--
You're awaken by a gently shove, your eyes shoot open hoping Logan's suicide attempt was a nightmare but you realise it's not when you wake to see a surgeon standing in front of you.
"Are you Veronica Mars, the girl who came in with Mr Echolls?"
"Yes."
He sits down and looks at you sympathetically. Oh god. This can't be happening.
"Logan just came out of surgery, he has some spinal damage that we've just gone in and tried to correct it and with hope he'll recover and be able to walk after some therapy. But that wasn't all, he also suffered some internal injuries, he was bleeding inside his skull and we have tried to fix as much as possible right now but we don't know how well it went until he wakes up but in saying that there's a high chance Logan may never wake up. He's done some real damage to himself, with major injuries like I've said and a few broken ribs and a broken arm."
"So you're saying…you're saying that Logan may never talk…or walk or even be able to see me again?"
"Well if he wakes up then there's a high possibility that he'll walk and talk and see but we can't guarantee he'll wake up."
"May I see him?" You ask feeling those tears heating your eyes.
"Certainly, I'll have a nurse take you down to intensive care in a moment."
The surgeon walks off, you pull out your cell from your bag and dial Ryan's number.
You get his voicemail.
"Hi, you've called Ryan, I'm unable to reach my phone at the moment but leave a message and I'll try and get back to you."
"Ryan it's Veronica, tell Danny and Nathan not to worry about me. I'm sorry for not calling early and telling you where I am but I'm at the hospital. Logan tried to kill himself last night and he's undergone surgery…" You choke out the words. "…and…and he's in a really bad condition. So if you need me I'm at the hospital, I probably won't have my phone on but you know where I am. Bye."
--
Your hand rests on Logan's. His breathing is steady and you suppose that's a good sign…or you think it is. His body is so limp and lifeless it makes you fearful of him. His skull is wrapped in a bandage, covering the incision made to fix it. You wonder if you'll ever get to see Logan's wonderful eyes again.
Your fingers stroke his hand softly, the callous hands you remember touching you in intimate places now feel cold. You wish you could take him away from all of this and make him wake up. You'd give anything to turn back time and make sure this didn't happen. You'd give anything.
"Veronica?" Ryan's voice travels to your ears.
Your head whips around quickly and your eyes soften on the second man to steal your heart. He smiles softly, you get up and wrap your arms around him. He embraces you wholly, caressing your hair adoringly and whispering to you that Logan will be okay, he will pull through.
"I'm so sorry." You sob into his jacket.
"Don't be. You've nothing to be sorry about. Let's just worry about Logan now who's sorry later, okay?" He says.
"Okay."
"Have you eaten?"
"No."
"Why don't you go to the canteen and get something to eat and I'll stay here with Logan?"
"I can't leave him Ry, what if he wakes up and I'm not here?"
He smiles like the perfect person he is and makes you sit down. "I'll go get you something then. Any favourite?" He asks as he makes his way out of the room.
"No." You reply as he disappears.
You want so desperately to climb in bed with Logan and sleep with him but you can't because he has a spinal injury and the tiniest of movement could leave him paralysed.
So you put your head against the edge of the bed, still holding onto his hand and close your ever so tired eyes. In your dreams Logan is well and alive, his hands are running through your hair and across your stomach and every where possible. This Logan is not suicidal, injured or in a coma. This Logan you like.
--
Three days later and no sign of movement from Logan. You left the hospital early last night, figuring you'd go home just that night and sleep in your bed instead of the uncomfortable hospital chair. It didn't work though, you barely slept, if at all. Your mind kept replaying the event that could have killed Logan. Over and over it replays like a scratched record.
Ryan sees you in the hall, your eyes so tired and dull he feels sorry for you but doesn't every body? You've notified Wallace, Weevil, Mac and even Dick of Logan's whereabouts and health issue and they all wish him well but more so you. All of them know what Logan is to you and that if he dies you will die along with him.
The house phone rings Ryan walks past you to answer it. He eyes you intensely, you know he's thinking about how good you look in your little boy shorts and singlet but the most part of you has no energy to tell him off.
"Okay, yes. Alright. Yeah, okay. I'll tell her." Ryan hangs up and faces you.
For a moment you can't read him at all but then he smiles and you just know that was the hospital. He's awake isn't he?
"Logan woke up." The words are like candy to a kid.
"I need to go see him." You tell Ryan, he nods as you quickly shove on some pants and grab a jacket.
He drives as fast as he can to the hospital, you realise he's running risk at being arrested for speeding but you're so thankful for it. As soon as the car pulls up to the hospital entrance you nod and Ryan and smile, getting out and running in the entrance.
You pass numerous wards before you reach the right one. You stand at the desk and wait for a nurse to assist you. Your foot taps annoyingly on the ground and eventually a nurse notices you.
"May I help you?" The older woman asks.
"Logan Echolls, I'm here to see Logan Echolls."
"Ah yes, the coma patient who awoke today. He's been asking for you." She pushes you in the direction of his room and follows you inside to check on him.
Sure enough Logan is laying there, his eyes open watching TV. You can't help but smile at Logan and how happy you are to see his eyes again. He notices you and smiles.
"Veronica." He rasps.
"Logan. I'm so sorry Logan. I'm sorry." You say immediately kissing him.
The nurse checks his chart and notices the two of you. She smiles at the both of you.
"Are you two married?" The woman asks.
"No." You reply. "We're just out of school, really."
"Oh. Well you seem really good together. I hope for your sake it lasts." She says before walking out.
Logan looks at you adoringly. How did you ever give this man up? You have no clue.
--
Logan wakes up late at night, you're barely awake, your head is lying on the side of his bed and you feel his hand reach to touch your hair. You smile and look up, he smiles back.
"I love you." He says.
"I love you too." You whisper back.
"Veronica, about what happened between us…" Logan starts.
"Don't. Not now. We can talk when you get out of here. Not now Logan."
"I want to."
"Please."
"Come back to Neptune with me." He says out of the blue. "You and me. We'll buy a house in the 09 area."
"Do you think that's sane? We broke up not so long ago and I moved to Australia."
"I love you and I want to do this with you. I have the money, I'm just wasting it on hotel bills at the moment, why not buy a house with the girl I love?"
"Because it's crazy."
"If you don't want to just so say."
"Logan, it's not that I don't want to. It's just…well think about it. We fight on a regular basis and buying a house together…well it wouldn't be wise."
"Will you come back to Neptune with me?"
"I can't."
"Please Veronica. I won't be able to do this without you."
You ponder. You want to go back to your friends and back to Neptune but you don't want to leave Ryan, Danny and Nathan.
"Please." He whispers.
"Okay. Okay. We'll go back to Neptune together as soon as you're allowed to fly." You tell him caressing his hand.
"Veronica Mars, one day I'm going to marry you and we're going to have beautiful babies together."
Logan closes his eyes, smiling. You smile back and can't believe that was Logan who just said that.
Sorry to everyone who has been waiting for an update on this. I've been busy with school and stuff so I haven't had time to update. This chapter is one of the lasts of this story. As much as everyone loves this story I've come to an end and I have written the rest of the chapters and the epilogue. They will be posted within a few weeks. Please enjoy this and don't forget to review.