Disclaimer: I don't own Twilight
Disclaimer: I don't own Twilight.
Bella's POV
One month later…
I was on my way to Alice's for a sleepover. I had a little duffle bag packed, with PJ's and another outfit. Apparently Rosalie and Jasper were sleeping over too, so it would be just like old times.
Except, in old times Edward and I were best friends. And now we were barely even speaking. It sucked. I missed how we used to just talk and laugh and be friends. How I felt so comfortable around him. How we used to not blush and be extremely awkward whenever we happened to pass each other in school or in their home. And of course Alice always wanted me at her house, never mine.
After the day I told Edward to stay away from me, he had been seeing Liz Turner. Oh how I hated Liz Turner. With her hideous not blond but not brown hair. Her throw up colored eyes. Her cheap clothes and heels that looked wrong on her gigantic feet. And her too small boobs and too large thighs. She was always insecure and jealous and just plain mean.
Okay, yes I know I am being extremely bitchy and petty. But Liz just waltzed in and started dating Edward, my Edward. No not my Edward. He had never been my Edward and never will be. I sighed. I felt like I was going to cry. It had been a month since I had even spoken to Edward, other than the occasional hello, and I still couldn't get him out of my head. I still remembered the feel of his lips on mine, the magic, the sparks. The connection that just felt right. But I needed to get over it. He had a girlfriend and he was clearly over me. If he had been into me in the first place.
Alice was constantly trying to get me to talk to Edward. She still believed we were "meant to be." Every time I went to her house she would send me to the kitchen or bathroom the minute Edward went so we were forced to make awkward, fake sounding chitchat. And as badly as I wanted Edward back, even if it was just as my friend, I knew it couldn't happen. Because I had told him I didn't want him, because he didn't want me. The most I had left with Edward was a few good memories and a lot of if only's.
But sometimes, I would see something in Edward's eyes that would make me wonder if he really did care for me. Since he had started going out with Liz, I had started hooking up with his friends. Okay, once again, I know this is pretty pathetic. But I was hurting. And I was hoping that I could hurt him too, even just a little bit. It seemed unfair that I was the only one who got hurt. And at first Tom seemed really sweet. And I never went any further than kissing. So the first time Tom and I hooked up, Edward had walked in. It had been at a party and I was partially drunk when Tom and I started making out in the bathroom. When the door burst open we both jumped apart, blushing. And there was Edward, shaking, his hands balled into fists, like he wanted to hit Tom right there. And then he looked at me with such sadness and hurt in his eyes, I had wanted to hold him in my arms and comfort him right then. But as quickly as it came, it was gone and he was rolling his eyes and stomping away. He left me sitting there in an awkward silence with one of his best friends, wondering if I had just imagined that look or if it really happened.
And another time when I had seen him kissing Liz. I had felt like I had gotten punched in the stomach. But the moment he saw me he pushed her away and looked up at me with pleading and guilty eyes. He opened his mouth to say something but I had bolted from the room and into the nearest bathroom to cry for ten minutes straight. But in that moment when he saw me, he looked like he really cared that I was hurting. I guess our mind has a way of making us see things we want to see. Because Edward couldn't care less that I was hurting. Especially since he was the one causing all of the pain.
As I knocked on the door I knew it would be Edward who answered. Alice always sent him to the door when I came over. Like we were both going to declare our love on the doorstep. Please. So I braced myself as he came to the door. But what I saw took the breath out of me and I felt like I was about to cry but held it back.
On his arm, looking like such a tool, was Liz Turner. She was smiling at Edward, a sickeningly sweet smile that looked too fake for my liking. When she saw me her smile faltered. Her eyes narrowed just a tiny bit and she took an instinctive step closer to Edward.
"What're you doing here?" she asked, trying to sound polite but failing miserably.
"I was invited to spend the night with Alice actually. If you'll just excuse me." My voice sounded how it always did when I was trying to hide me feelings. Dead. Broken. I brushed by them, hating the small spark of electricity I felt when Edward's bare arm brushed against mine.
"She's in the basement," Edward said, his voice sounding flat, uncaring. I felt his eyes on my back but I didn't look at him. I couldn't.
"Thanks," I mumbled, instantly going downstairs. Alice was sitting on the couch with Jasper, Rosalie and Emmett.
"Hey Bella!" she sang. She saw the look on my face and her smile was gone in a second. She knew Liz was upstairs. She knew I had seen her. And by the look on her face she hadn't planned that. "Um, I invited Steve over. We're all going to hang out." Her eyes were apologetic. I never told Alice I still loved Edward. But she could tell.
"That's fine," I said. Steve was who I was currently seeing. We'd only been together for a week or so, and I wasn't sure if I liked him or not. We hadn't even kissed. Something much stronger overshadowed him, just like it had with all of the other boys I had seen in the month since Edward had stopped talking to me. Overshadowed by a more powerful love, something that wasn't easily ignored or forgotten. He was sitting in the Cullen's oversized armchair and he held his arms out for me. I walked over and plopped into his lap, kissing his cheek. He wrapped his arms around my waist. Then the door opened and Liz and Edward came in. They were holding hands. Edward stopped in dead in his tracks when he saw me on Steve's lap his expression shocked and angry. We stared at each other for a second and he quickly looked away, pulling Liz onto the couch next to Alice. The room was filled with a sudden, tense, awkward silence. And I knew it was because of Edward and I. It seemed like wherever we went, awkwardness followed.
"Oh my gosh everyone!" Alice yelled suddenly, making everyone jump. "We should play Never Have I Ever!"
"No way," I said instantly. "Last time I played that I ended up drunk and doing things I regretted in the morning." I felt Edward's eyes on me. Only he knew what I was talking about. And only I knew I was lying. I never regretted it. In fact, I wished I had kissed him more, deeper in that night. Because I never really knew how much I would miss kissing Edward.
"Please Bella! We won't go really hard on you like last time," she begged.
"Fine," I sighed in defeat. Since there were so many of us Alice grabbed like six bottles of vodka and gave us all shot glasses. Esme and Carlisle were gone for the weekend again, at another conference. She filled them each up.
"Okay I'll start," Alice announced. "Never have I ever broken a bone." I drank, along with Emmett, Liz and Jasper.
"Never have I ever dyed my hair," Jasper said. Rosalie and Liz both drank. Liz was up next.
"Never have I ever…hooked up with a guy when I was drunk," she announced. I sighed and took a shot along with Alice and Rosalie. Edward was next.
"Never have I ever had sex," he said softly. He was watching me but I didn't drink. I wasn't lying either. Everyone drank except for Edward and I. I had an odd feeling he only said that to make sure it was still true for me. Like I would really do that, I thought bitterly. I'm not a slut. Unlike his scumbag girlfriend.
"Damn, I thought you would've gotten laid by now," Emmett said with a pointed look at Liz.
"It's not like I haven't tried. He's the one that wants to wait," she said bitterly. Edward glared at her. I was up next, on the other side of the room. I was blushing red from Liz's comment and also half angry and half happy. I didn't want him to sleep with Liz. I didn't want him to sleep with anyone to be completely honest. Except me maybe.
"Never have I ever…led a girl on just to make another girl jealous," I said. I was watching Edward. Might as well see what he does. Although I already pretty much knew he wasn't going to drink. He quickly took a shot, never looking away from my eyes as he did. He must have led me on to make Liz jealous, I thought angrily. Of course. Steve was next.
"Never have I ever kissed Bella," he grumbled. I giggled, somewhat embarrassed. Edward took a shot and Liz's jaw dropped.
"When was this?" she burst. I was happy that she seemed so jealous of this.
"Truth or dare," he said briefly.
"And after our last game of Never Have I Ever," I added, just to piss Liz off more. And Liz was looking quite pissed. Rosalie was next and she had never had sex on the beach. Then Emmett said he'd never drank a margherita. Then it was back to Alice.
"Never have I ever told a boy I didn't want him when I really did," she said quietly, not meeting my eye. You don't have to drink, I told myself. You can just lie. But for some reason I found myself picking up my shot and downing it. Edward's eyes widened. Jasper was next.
"Never have I ever pushed a girl away because I thought I was the rebound guy," he said. Edward watched me carefully. I held my breath in anticipation. He picked up his drink and tipped it into his mouth. I wondered who this was. Because clearly it wasn't me. I mean it would make sense but…no, no, I scolded myself. Don't get your hopes up. He doesn't want you and you're not supposed to want him. Liz was watching our little staring session with slit eyes. She was next.
"Never have I ever gone out with a girl to try and get another girl jealous," she snapped. Edward looked up at her with a guilty expression. And then he drank. She burst into tears. "I can't believe you! You're just using me to get to her!" She pointed across the room at me.
"Liz…I-" she cut him off.
"I don't even want to hear it." She folded her arms across her chest and pouted. Edward just shook his head, hardly even bothered. I felt a little triumphant. Of course it wasn't true but it was nice to make Liz angry and jealous, especially angry and jealous of me. I felt like standing up and sticking my tongue out at Liz, making moose ear and blowing a big fat rasberry at her. But Edward wasn't talking about me. He didn't want me and that's just the way it is. I was only trying to fool myself to believe that he wanted me.
"It's your turn Edward," Alice said cheerily. I could tell she had come into this night with an agenda. And it looked like she could cross one thing off. Get Liz pissed at Edward. Check. I was worried about what the rest of that list was like.
"Right," he said slowly. "Never have I ever…gotten in a car crash." No one drank. It seemed like Edward was trying to get the game back in a normal direction. But I had a feeling this was out of our hands. After Steve and I went, it was back to Rosalie.
"Never have I ever…picked another guy over my boyfriend," she said. I drank again. Edward was watching me, confused. Then Emmett went.
"Never have I ever lied about liking a girl because I thought she didn't like me," he said. Edward took a shot. When did this happen? I thought to myself. It wasn't you, I repeated in my head over and over. But I couldn't help getting my hopes up, just a little.
"Okay I'm done with this game," I announced. "I'm starting to get more drunk then I want to."
"Let's play truth or dare!" Alice announced. I sighed. I knew no matter how much I protested she would keep going with it.
"Fine Alice I'll go first," I burst. "Truth or dare?"
"Dare," she said.
"I dare you to tell me what your plan was for tonight," I responded. "And don't act all innocent on me either."
"See Bella, that's actually a truth. I said dare," Alice pointed out with a wicked grin. I replied with a grin just as evil. I was going to figure out exactly what was going on so I could stop it before it got even worse.
"It's either that or snipping up your precious silver mini dress," I sang. Her eyes widened. Then her face slipped into a pout
"Fine." She sighed loudly and looked pointedly at everyone in the room. "Well Jasper, Rosalie, Emmett and I all decided we were going to force you and Edward to come out with the truth. Everyone can see you two are so meant to be together but you're stubbornness and pride get in the way every time! So we were planning on using this to get you two to forgive each other and finally confess your love." I just stared blankly at her.
"Okay, that is so it I am out of here," Liz said.
"Liz," Edward said, sounding tired.
"No. Don't even try and get me to stay cause I won't," she said, crossing her arms again. It was clear that she actually wanted Edward to stop her. Her smile was smug as if she kew he was going to do it and I agreed with her. And what he said next shocked us both.
"Fine," Edward said.
"Excuse me?" she asked incredulously.
"I said fine!" Edward burst. "Just go Liz! I'm sick and tired of your constant insecurities and how you always think I'm cheating on you. If you don't want to stay then just go."
The silence that followed this statement was deafening. Liz took a step away from Edward.
"Fine. Goodbye Edward Cullen!" And with that she stormed dramatically out of the room.
"Yeah…I think I'm going to go to," Steve said. I stood up off his lap instantly.
"Don't let the door hit you on the way out!" I called as he climbed the stairs. Everyone else laughed.
"You go girl!" Alice cheered.
"Anything else you need to let us know Alice?" I asked, my tone flat and bitter.
"Well getting rid of Steve and Liz were two other things we wanted to get done and it looks like that's that." She beamed. She stood up, pulling Jasper up with her. Rosalie and Emmett followed suit. "Now the other thing we wanted was to get you two alone together. We were going to do that using truth or dare but it doesn't seem like that will work. So." All of the sudden Emmett and Jasper were grabbing Edward and Rosalie and Alice were grabbing me. They held me securely so I couldn't escape. I saw Edward struggling in the boys arms but he was no match for Emmett's muscles.
"Alice! What the hell!" I exclaimed.
"Sorry Bella. But we're all sick and tired of waiting for you two to figure out you're in love. So we're just going to help you along." She pushed me towards the bathroom, shoving me inside. I felt Edward being pushed in next to me.
"You two aren't coming out of there until you at least talk things through and be completely honest!" Alice called. Edward and I banged uselessly on the door.
"Sorry Bella, it's for the best," Rosalie called, laughing.
"Yeah Edward maybe you'll finally get laid!" Emmett called. "Ow!" he exclaimed, letting us know Rosalie had hit him.
"We're sick of you two filling this house with so much tension! Just get over it already," Jasper called. There voices were getting further away.
"Everyone else knows you're in love. We'll be back down when you guys figure it out too. Tell her what you really feel Edward. And you too Bella. Don't hold back," Alice called. I heard a door slam from upstairs and I knew we were alone. We continued banging on the door and yelling at them. But when Edward finally blew out a big puff of air and plopped onto the toilet seat I knew I had to face facts.
I was locked in a dark bathroom for God knows how long with Edward Cullen.
A/N: I thought things needed to get a move on already ) There are only like…two or three more chapters. But I'm hoping to do a sequel so review and let me know if you want one! Or just review because you want to! Thanks! And sorry bout the cliffy but I just couldn't resist hehe! And also sorry about the delay but I was watching Camp Rock!! Typical Disney Channel movie but it's not going to beat HSM no matter how hard they try!