Hermione
was sitting at a desk brought a few months ago for her personal use
at the hospital wing.
She stretched, stifling a yawn. Madame
Pomfrey had left her in a rush after having received a message from
the headmaster urging her to join him down at the dungeons, but she
wasn't too worried. Probably another cauldron explosion or an
experiment that went wrong. She was indeed more worried for what
would happen to the unlucky students later on; causing mayhem on
Professor Snape's territory had a price. Little did she know...
She
was surprised to see Dumbledore, Professor MacGonagall and Madame
Pomfrey surrounding a single stretcher, on which laid the body of a
thin, tall, white-faced man. It took her a few seconds to realize who
was the unconscious person lying down. Truth finally hit her like a
whip.
'Professor Snape!' she shrieked and, pushing her chair
beside, she nearly ran to the bed on which the potions master had
been levitated. She came at MacGonagall's side, and, to her great
surprise, the latter delicately took her hand and squeezed it.
Completely flabbergasted, she barely took in the headmaster's words
of explanation.
´I'm afraid that all facts bring us to the
conclusion that Severus here'-he nodded towards Snape's
marble-white face-'has committed...has...has attempted suicide".
The words seemed to have been torn from him. His eyes, staring
unblinkingly at Snape had lost their usual twinkle and he had the
appearance of a father standing besides his ill son's bed. He was
putting in huge efforts in the restrain of his unshed tears, as if he
had the obligation to set an example of courage to the
others.
Meanwhile, Madame Pomfrey was fussing about with a set of
potion bottles, looking for what would be best to administer her
patient first. Hermione remained beside the bed, completely
forgetting for a while her role as nurse assistant. She spotted dried
blood that had leaked from the corner of Snape mouth, and drops
spattered all over his face, throat and chest. She pulled
out her wand from her robes' pocket and cast a cleaning spell all
over him and transfigured his dirty robes in a clean set of pajamas
(black, no need to say). She placed her hand on his
forehead; it was nearly ice-cold. She checked his pulse and was
relieved to find one, feeble as it was. She noticed that Dumbledore
and MacGonagall had left for the opposite side of the wing. Her heart
shattered at the sight of her ex-transfiguration teacher weeping
softly, a tartan handkerchief at the corner of her damp eyes.
Dumbledore was trying to comfort her, but she only gave a quiet sob;
Hermione felt like all hope had left her at the only time she
witnessed the woman whom she knew had always kept a cold head in the
most extreme situations lose control. She sighed, her face
falling.
Madame Pomfrey finally came back with a tray full of her
selection of potions. She left the tray on the night-table and chose
a little flacon full of a dark red liquid. Blood replenishing
potion.
'Professor Snape was already given an antidote back in
his quarters', she told Hermione, noticing her puzzled
expression.
´So you knew what poison he drank?', asked
Hermione, her tone relieved.
'Well, maybe antidote is not the
proper word to use...' the nurse replied sadly. 'The potion we
made him drink down there made him cough out his blood... It seemed
to be the only way to get rid of that thrice damned poison'.
Hermione
shuddered just at the thought of it.
'Couldn't you just give
him a bezoar?', she suggested.
Madame Pomfrey smiled
faintly.
'You seem to forget who we're dealing with, Miss
Granger. Professor Snape is one of the best potion masters in Europe,
and in the present situation, I don't think he would've taken
something he knew would have a cure so simple to find...The
headmaster thinks the potion was a creation of his, unfortunately.'
'Unfortunately?'
´Yes,
we fear that only he has the cure to it.'
´But what if we used
Legilimency? Or Veritaserum?'
'Professor Snape is a renown
occlumens-'
'But in that state, you don't think he'll be
able to-'
'Miss Granger!'Madame Pomefrey's temper was
rising at being interrupted. 'Professor Snape has used occlumency
in states of great weakness against He-who-must-not-be-named'-why
doesn't she use the damned name? He's dead already, Godammit!
Voldemort! Voldemort! Voldemort!-´and will use it again if we try to
use legilimency against him, which will only result in his weakening.
As for Veritaserum, we don't have anymore in stock, the only person
storing it being himself. His act was clearly well prepared', she
finished bitterly.
After giving Snape a blood-replenishing potion,
Pepper-up, a strengthening solution and a dreamless-sleep potion
(Hermione feeling awkward whhile she had to hold Snape upright for
him to drink properly, while Madame Pomfrey fed him the remedies),
both nurse and assistant conjured chairs from thin air and sat beside
the bed.
Snape's face was serene, and seemed nearly unreal
without his usual sneer twisting it. He didn't look his usual
imposing, sometimes even ferocious self. Or was he at last acting
himself, after years of hiding behind a mask he had created to face
society? What did you have to face all alone to come to this,
Professor? Why did you hurt yourself like you just did? All hope for
you isn't lost yet, see how many people cry you... You are loved,
Professor, open your eyes to the warmth of the world you have been
blind to, that lays right in front of you...But you stubbornly refuse
to see it, or even notice it. You have the right to be
happy...
Haven't you?
Hermione was brought out of her
thoughts by a soft moan. Snape was still fast asleep. She was glad to
see that he had regained a little color. Madame Pomfrey stood up and
checked his temperature buy pointing her wand at his temple. She
frowned.
´What's the matter?'Hermione didn't like the
nurse's worried look one bit.
´His temperature's rising too
quickly', she answered.
´You don't mean-'
´Yes Granger.
Expect a high fever soon...It sometimes happens when one takes too
many different potions in a short lapse of time'.
´But we
didn't have a choice', said Hermione, nearly outraged.
´It
happens nevertheless. If you're not happy with that, go and
complain to the potions, Miss Granger'.
Hermione didn't reply
the sarcastic comment but went to fetch towels and a small hospital
dish filled with cold water. She soaked the towels and twisted them
before placing them on Snape's forehead. He was shivering by now,
muttering nonsense under his breath. Hermione felt happy the hospital
wing was empty, for Snape was needing both women's full
attention.
She touched his cheek; he was literally boiling. His
breathing swallowed, he trembled harder, jerking his head from one
side to another. Soon he was convulsing, his back arching violently a
few inches from the mattress and landing back heavily with a thud,
making the springs squeak.
Hermione panicked.
She tried to hold
him to the bed, but he let out a high scream the moment she touched
him.
´HANDS OFF, MISS GRANGER!' barked Madame Pomefrey. Not
used to the tone she had used and shocked by how Snape was reacting,
Hermione stepped away from the bed, feeling helpless and on the verge
of tears.
´There, there, Miss Granger'; Madame Pomfrey had
taken her friendlier tone back and walked
towards
Hermione, laying her hand on her shoulder to comfort her.
'You
must avoid touching him for the moment. His nerves are...
over-sensitive and the faintest touch results in pain. There is
nothing to do for the time being but waiting for the crisis to
end.'
Hermione nodded. Snape had calmed himself down a little.
His convulsions were over, but his temperature was still high. He
whispered weakly, and Hermione could barely make out his
phrases.
'Must...end...no...finish...enough...shan't...no
more...' His breathing evened, his chest rising and falling more
regularly. The whiteness of his face clashed with his black pyjamas.
His face was sad to look at; it had the innocence of a sleeping young
child. His dark hair was falling loosely at the sides of his head, a
few locks falling over his brow. His mouth was slightly open. He
turned weakly on his side and tried to snuggle back to the warmth of
his bedcovers, with no success. Hermione pulled them over him and
tucked him in, nearly tenderly. She remembered how weird it had felt
to watch MacGonagall, who had long gone back to her duties with
Dumbledore, cry. However, seeing what suspiciously looked like
Snape's inner-child reappear didn't feel strange, but comforting.
It was, after all, the proof that the fellow's human.
Hermione couldn't help smiling at the relaxed features of Severus Snape's face, and for the first time, noticed how graceful they were. He reminded her of a Chinese ink drawing. Madame Pomfrey left to fetch an extra blanket, and Hermione felt intimate with the man in front of her.
She made herself the promise to save him, no matter how.
She bent down...
She was so close...
Her lips met
his, she didn't understand why, she only knew... She only
knew...
Suddenly, Snape seemed to respond feebly to her kiss. She
sat up, blushing furiously.
Snape muttered ´Hermione', gently,
as if he was calling out for her, and stood quite still.
Madame
Pomfrey came back with the blanket. Hermione blinked, she felt like
waking up from a dream.
'Anything wrong, Miss Granger?',
the nurse asked with concern.
'No! ... nothing...nothing',
Hermione answered with a start. For all it was, maybe something was
finaly going right in her life... All she had to do was wait and
see.
Only time would tell her.
