Hermione
and Madame Pomfrey managed to cure Snape in a few weeks, during which
Dumbledore took care of his potion classes. Snape spend most of the
first few days sleeping and was fed with nutritive potions. On the
tenth day, he was able to eat solid food again. (Too) soon enough, he
was fit enough to complain, which was an encouraging sign of his
recovery. However, and to his great displeasure, the headmaster
insisted for him to stay at the hospital wing, which resulted in a
decrease of the number of students visiting the nurse; indeed, most
of them preferred fainting on the spot or throwing up their guts in
the bathroom rather than having to meet an extremely moody
Snape.
´Headmaster, couldn't I at least return to my quarters,
if you please?'
´Severus, we've talked about this before. You
need rest, and you're not leaving-'
´Dumbledore, I'm not a
child-'
´Then stop acting like one, Severus'. Dumbledore
sighed. ´Severus, listen to me'. Snape, who had started pouting,
his arms crossed upon his chest, barely looked up at the sound of his
name.
´I am willing to let you return to your quarters under one
condition'; Snape focused his attention on Dumbledore.' Get out
of your bed and walk to the door'.
´Pardon?'
´You heard
me, Severus.'
'Is that all?'
'We'll see', said
Dumbledore, his eyes twinkling.
Snape heaved himself with
difficulty (though he tried to hide it from Dumbledore) from his bed,
and had barely walked clumsily a few steps that he fell
unceremoniously to the floor.
Hearing him falling, Hermione rushed
with Madame Pomfrey from the latter's office. They let out a cry of
surprise at the sight of Snape struggling to get back to his feet,
tears of pain and humiliation menacing to fall. He refused Hermione's
helping hand grumpily, pulling himself into bed all alone.
'Really,
headmaster!'Madame Pomfrey looked angrily at Dumbledore.' Can't
I leave you a few seconds with a patient without risking an
accident?!'
´I'm not dead yet, Poppy', grumbled Snape.
´You
could've broken yourself an arm or a leg, Professor Snape, for
heaven's sake!'
´I'm not made of glass!'Snape raged.
Behind his fury, Hermione sensed that he was hurt. Was it because
of the previous accident? It wasn't easy to guess;
everyone's aloud to trip once in a while...What is he so mad
about?
´I've made my point, Severus; you're not in condition
to leave the hospital wing. Miss Granger?'
Dumbledore had taken
Hermione by surprise; she shot her head away from Snape's
direction.
´Headmaster?'
'May you please follow me, I
would like to discuss a certain matter with you.'
She walked
around the bed to join Dumbledore, staring quizzically at him.
They
walked out of the infirmary, Dumbledore shutting the doors behind
them. As he turned to face her, his expression was grave.
'Miss
Granger, you are a clever woman. Surely you understand why I wouldn't
allow Professor Snape back into his rooms.'
Hermione had never
given it a thought, but made a quick guess.
'You think that
he'll try to commit another suicide once he's left alone, don't
you?'
She found it hard to keep her voice from quivering.
Memories from the day she sweared to herself she'd save him, her
confused feelings for Snape, the kiss...
Dumbledore's eyes
seemed to X-ray her; he had confirmation of the sympathy the young
woman had for her former teacher and perhaps a tad more than just
that.
´Miss Granger, I would like you to be Professor Snape's
personal nurse.'
Hermione
was gob smacked.
´Why?' she asked wearily. ´Why
me?'
'Professor Snape hates having to stay to long at the
hospital wing. The poor chap prefers the comfort of his quarters.
However, as I've just told you, he is not to be left alone, should
he prepare another poison or other more sophisticated means to attend
to his person. Madame Pomfrey will be much too occupied with the flu
season coming. That leaves my choices limited to you, Miss Granger.'
The corners of his mouth twitched into a small smile.
Hermione,
though she didn't look remotely happy, felt butterflies fluttering
in her stomach, but wasn't sure why…
´No'.
´Severus,
please consider. You haven't even thought about-'
'What is
there to consider? Dumbledore, I shan't be treated like an infant,
and that's that.'
The headmaster and potions master stood
alone, on Dumbledore's demand, in the ward. Hermione and
Madame Pomfrey chose to use this time organizing students' files in
the nurse's office.
´Severus, nobody here wants to
treat you like an infant. We wish you all to recover in the meanest
time'.
Snape sniffed disapprovingly. ´But of course,
Dumbledore'.
´Think of your students-'
´I'm
sure they've been worrying their heads off during my absence.'
Snape's voice was heavy with sarcasm.' Surely I wouldn't like
to cut short to the celebrations'.
´Severus,
please…'Dumbledore's voice was tired, plaintive…Severus
sighed…
´Who will be that nurse you were talking about,
anyway?'
´Hermione Granger', replied Dumbledore,
promptly.
Snape felt a jolt in his core; it was suddenly harder
for him to keep an impassive face.
´The… the Granger girl?'
he stammered. Damn it, if Dumbledore notices anything…
Severus
Snape had always considered showing openly emotions as some kind of
weakness… He had never loved, or for that matter, felt loved,
though he had a fairly good companionship with Minerva and Albus. But
he couldn't fool himself into thinking he never yearned
such…intimate relations with a woman… Years ago he had loved Lily
Evans, but the misery caused by her loss had wounded him more than
all the torture sessions he had been through… He had never felt
love for any other woman since then, mostly because nobody had had
any feelings for him… any passion for him… But now… what wasn't
his surprise when he had felt soft lips gently pressed against
his…Miss Granger-no, Hermione- acted like nobody before, had made
him feel more alive than he had felt in years… Suddenly the idea of
having a permanent nurse didn't feel so bad… But he had to hide
it as long as possible from Dumbledore. He isn't sure of what he
knows or not, but he's stubborn enough to carry on the whole night
long. Accepting too quickly would be a mistake; I need to hold on for
a while and stop just before he gets tired of it. I have to make him
understand by the end of the discussion that I'm fine with the
arrangements, or else he'll have second thoughts about this…I
shan't exaggerate…He'd realize it's all acting, he's not
easy to fool.
Snape took a deep breath.
'I can't believe
your leaving me in the hands of a trainee, Dumbledore', said Snape,
eying him reproachfully.
'Severus, you know as well as I do that
it's only a matter of time before Miss Granger obtains her healer's
license'; Dumbledore's voice was close to outraged.
´And
you'll understand that I value experience as well as pure
knowledge. Excuse me for not trusting a youngster prone to
experience…'
´What
experiences are we talking about, Severus?'
Snape looked down,
fixing a spot on his bed sheets. Bitterness seemed to radiate from
him.
'Surely you know, Dumbledore, that students studying to
become healers take psychology courses. On their seminaries, they
feast on depression and despair, for they fancy a challenge once in a
while. I won't be surprised that Miss Granger considers me like a
tempting hors-d'oeuvre, a more instructing subject than any her
school might provide her…'
Dumbledore chuckled.
´Really,
Severus, hearing you, I'd think we're discussing dementors. Trust
me, it's not Miss Granger's type to abuse somebody in search of
knowledge'.
Realizing he might've been a little tactless,
Dumbledore cleared his throat and carried on:
´Sincerely,
Severus, I really think you'll be in good hands with her.'
Snape
heaved a sigh, careful not to sound too exasperated.
'If you say
so, Dumbledore, I'll have to take your word for it'. Dumbledore's
face cracked into a grin.
'Excellent. I'll go tell Miss
Granger at once'.
He left Severus's bedside to announce
Madame Pomfrey and her assistance about Snape's decision.
He
came back a few minutes later to explain the necessary arrangements,
such as the addition of a room in his quarters, to Snape.
´Well,
I'm happy you've finally come to reason, Severus', said
Dumbledore gleefully. Snape sneered.
´It's getting late, we'll
move you down tomorrow. I'll leave you to rest,
Severus'.
´Finally'.
'Goodnight,
Severus'.
´Goodnight'.
Dumbledore walked to the door,
still smiling as he exited the hospital wing.
Alone in the dark,
Severus Snape couldn't help it.
He smiled too.
