The
next day, Saturday, Snape was taken to his room on floating
stretchers. The potions master had insisted for the operation to take
place early enough for no student to spot thim in this state, which
meant just before 8 o'clock, as it wasn't a week day. Being a
proud man, he couldn't bear the thought of the children he had
worked so hard on scaring seing him so weak; it would melt the myth
about him being barely human completely.
Hermione walked beside
him the whole while, resisting the temptation of taking his hand. She
was the one using wingardium leviosa on the stretchers and found it
harder than usual concentrating on the spell, for a million questions
sprouted all at once in her mind: where would she sleep? How will
Snape act with her? Will they end up having a friendly relationship?
Or more?
She usually slept in a small room hidden behind a
tapestry old tapestry featuring the four Hogwarts founders in the
hospital wing. She felt completely OK about it, even though it didn't
have anything special about it. The furniture was quite formal, the
walls painted in white and the only decoration was a painting of
several pretty women wearing white dresses standing by a riverbank.
She wouldn't mind leaving it at all; the women of the painting were
starting to nag her, anyway.
Professor MacGonagall and Professor
Dumbledore were following close behind. They didn't talk during
their small journey to the dungeons; Professor Snape was laying inert
on the stretchers, his slightly opened eyes out of focuse. As
predicted by Madame Pomfrey, going back to his quarters was a tiring
affair for the potions master.
They arrived in front of a tapestry
of a huge silver serpent on an emerauld background; the words
Magistrus cupidi were embroided in silver thread above the snake's
head.
Dumbledore walked past Hermione and whispered the words
Emerauld orbs. The snake on the tapestry slythered to the bottom
edge, hissing; a large hole appeared, just two feet over the ground.
Dumbledore walked to the side to let Hermione and Snape enter first,
followed by MacGonagall. Hermione gasped.
The room had no
paintings. A beautiful forest green carpet was covering most of the
living room floor. A black couch was set in front of a fireplace
which mantelpiece was made of black marble on which were
graved two large snakes. In a corner was a large ebony elaborate
desk. The walls were covered in books, most leather-bond, of every
size and shape.
They finally arrived to Snape's bedroom. The
room was midnight blue, and a great tapestry with a huge silver 'S'
covered one of the walls. Beside it was an enormous wooden cupboard
decorated with two large ´S' and silver handles. A marble
matlepiece which looked very much like the one in the living room
stood a few feet behind a large four poster bed with green silver
ebroided hangings and bed covers. Beside the bed was a large ebony
night table with graved does on the side. A forged metal lamp laid
upon it.
Hermione hurried to levitate Snape off the stretchers
and into his bed while MacGonagall lit a fire; the chill in the room
was enough to make the hair on the back of Hermione's neck stand on
its end.
Snape was asleep and very pale. Hermione reluctantly
followed Dumbledore, who insisted upon showing her her new room. It
was slightly larger than her former one, decorated in crimson and
gold (because, as said MacGonagall, it would be relieving to escape
all this Slytherin background once in a while), with a large four
poster bed. Her trunk had been settled before her bed. She felt
relieved that there wasn't any painting of pesky pretty girls.
She
came back to Snape's bedroom. Dumbledore gave her a nursing kit
full of little potion bottles, also including a sthetoscope and the
book Curing for the clueless: 101 charms for everday nursing. He and
MacGonagall wished her luck and, with a last handshake, left her with
her patient.
Snape laid inert on the bed. His breathing was
regular, but his forehead felt cold. Hermione bent over the nursing
kit for some Pepperup when she heard a sneaze that made the door
rattle
in
its hinge.
´Uuugh...'Snape had woken up. His black eyes were
rolling into their sockets; he looked groggy.
´Good
morning, professor'. Snape turned his head towards the
sound.
'Her...mi...oneee...' Wait... has he just called me by
my surename?
It took Hermione a few seconds to come back to the
present.
'Professor, what would you like for
breakfast?'
´Can't...eat...'
´Professor, I'm afraid
you caught a bad cold, no wonder, it's freezing down here.' He
glared at her for criticizing his chambers. No use upsetting a
patient. Think of something nice to tell him, quick!
´Uhm, I love
your bedroom, nice furniture.' He raised his eyebrows,
suspicious.
'Professor, I can't give you any medicine without
you eating before'.
´Fine with that', he
muttered.
'Professor, don't play that game with me.'
'You
take life for a game, now, Miss Granger? How very optimistic of
you.'So it was back to Miss Granger now, was it? Fine.
'Professor,
don't try my patience. Either you eat something now, or I stun you
right away and put you on perfusion. Your choice.'
Snape looked
as furious as his state would permit it.
´How dare you-'
'How
dare you imagine you're unloved!' Hermione was on the verge of
tears. ´Did you see how Professor MacGonagall cried-'
'Since
when did I mention living for the other's sake?' his voice was
hoarse, angry. ´All my life's been dedicated to the others, never
to me, who'd care if-'
´Didn't you listen to-'
´You've
got a lot to learn, Miss Granger. There are things you can understand
just by experience, which you still lack of, I'm sorry to say.
Minerva Lionheart only feels pitty for me. Poor Severus, why did it
have to end like this? I can't live out of pitty, Miss Granger. Not
anymore.' Snape's eyes were colder than ever, and nearly made
Hermione recoil.
´Don't you think that the people around you
feel something else for you than pitty?'
´You mean
hatred?'
´You know what I mean.' Hermione was getting
exasperated. I'll leave you ten seconds, Snape, and then it's the
perf'.
´Breakfast cereals and fruit juice.'
´Pardon?'
said Hermione stupidly.
´I believe you asked me a while ago what
I wanted to eat. Good gods, Granger, if I knew you had such a short
term memory, I'd be quite afraid for myself.' Hermione
giggled.
'Cereales and juice it is, Professor'; she walked to
the fireplace to leave an order to the kitchens, asking for two
servings, having not eaten breakfast.
In next to no time, a house
elf named Wizzles apparated in the room with a loud crack, balancing
a large tray with two bowls and two glasses of orange juice. Hermione
hurried to help it, taking the tray from her with a smile.
She
placed the tray on the night table and handed his bowl to Snape. He
reached for it, his hands shaking, and bearly managed to fed himself
to a spoonful of cereales.
´Professor, would you like some help?'
Hermione tried to be as diplomatic as she could. It didn't stop
Snape from snearing at her.
´Really, Miss Granger, I was under
the impression of disposing of all my facult-'
´Whoops...'
Snape's grasp on the spoon had lessened, so that it splashed back
into the bowl. Hermione hastedly cast a cleaning spell and took the
spoon from Snape without asking for his
permission.
She filled it and point it at Snape's mouth. He didn't open up.
She brought the spoon closer, closer still. Snape refused to open his
mouth. Hermione sighed. She didn't wan't to have to come to this,
but he left him no choice.
'Come on, Sevy, open for the plane to
land, viuu!Aaaaahh!!', she said in a sing-song voice. Snape stared
blankly at her.
´Miss Granger, stop this-' Hermione took her
chance and shove the spoon into Snape's mouth; he was taken by
surprise and swallowed at once. He choked and coughed, and when he
finally regained composure, grumbled sourly:
´Alright, Miss
Granger, I'll let you feed me, Goddammit, but I beg you to stop
that idiotic routine of yours.' Hermione smiled. For a moment she
felt like she had scared Snape, something she considered like
a personnal achievement.
Hermione fed Snape until he couldn't
eat more (which ment half a bowl) and convinced him to finish his
glass of juice before she could at last give him his Pepperup. After
that, he fell immediately to sleep, all the morning's action having
tired him quite a lot. Hermione took profit of the moment by having
her own breakfast. When she had eaten the last bite and drained her
glass, she returned to her musings about Snape. She thought about the
kiss, and felt disapointed he hadn't talked once about it while he
was awake. Maybe he doesn't remember...
Meanwhile, Snape
replayed in his dreams the romantic scene Hermione and he had shared.
It seemed to have happened so long ago, years from now... He knew the
young lady had feelings for him, and that he wasn't indifferent to
her. But how would she react if a man who could be her father
expressed his... was it love? Snape shook himself inwardly; no, no,
no, it could not do to call this love, for it was, for the moment,
only pure desire...Animal magnetism...Yes, he was just responding to
her call because of her good looks, and perhaps a little more...
It
wouldn't do.
Not him.
Not now.
Never.
But why? Was he
refusing his key to happiness?
Severus Snape tossed and turned in his bed. Hermione came beside him and held his hand. He felt so weak, physically and mentally speaking, but yet so strong at her touch...
This was going to be difficult. Moreover, the way things were going with Hermione, he would have to mention...Sooner or later...
Later.
What she didn't know couldn't
harm her. He'll see how things turn out, then he'll
have a choice, wether to tell Hermione or not.
My last choice.
