Kara awkwardly made her way to Admiral Adama's office, it was so much harder knowing people were staring, whispering behind her back. She knew they whispered about the baby, they didn't know it was twins at least. They also whispered about Sam, and how she'd been sharing the CAG's bed for the past month. It's not like she was getting any, she thought angrily, Lee had rarely touched her since finding out she awas pregnant. He looked at her like she might keel over at any minute, which wasn't far from the truth according to Doc Cottle. The cylon compound in her blood stream had increased in concentration due to the hormones and they weren't sure exactly what they were doing in the first place.

Bill opened the door, "Please sit down Kara."

"You wanted to see me sir?" Kara kept up the military pretence; even as her swollen stomach pressed out against her tanks. She had resolved to tell him the truth.

"I wanted to talk to you Kara."

"About Lee?"

"About Zak," Bill took off his glasses at sat on the couch next to her, "Did you love him Kara?"

Kara froze, she herself had been trying to answer this question, she'd never told Zak that she loved him, never told Sam either. "I did."

"What about Lee?"
"It's different with Lee, more intense, harder to shake."

"How can you love them both?"

"I don't know, from the beginning with Lee, it was always…"

"But they were brothers."

"I know, don't you think I've thought about this? It's been on my mind for years, why do you think I pushed Lee away? Am I betraying Zak? Did I betray him years ago when I fell in love with Lee?"

"I love you and Lee like my children, both of you, it's disturbing that…"

"Try not to think about it?" Kara suggested jokingly, "I know Lee wonders if I-"

"Compare them?" Bill looked away.

"I don't, I love Lee and-"

Kara was cut off by a tight hug, "I respect it, even if I don't like it."

It was going to take time, but it was going to be okay.

Kara moved toward Lee aggressively as soon as he got out of the shower, everyone knew now what was the point of sneaking around like they were ashamed? She caught him in a deep kiss. Running her hands over his damp back. "I love you." She whispered in his ear, believing herself more than anything.

"I love you too." Lee kissed back with tenderness, "But-"

"Cottle said it's fine…" Kara resumed her passionate attack on his body, licking his lips with her tongue and guiding him onto her rack, ripping of his clothes as she went, yanking down his pants to his knees.

"Kara you have to stop, cause I can't." Lee murmured in between kisses placed on her neck, one hand reaching for her breasts.

"No chance." Kara managed to gasp out as on of Lee's hands dove for her thighs, pulling off her pants and yanking down her underwear in fury.

Kara lowered herself onto Lee, straddling him. He grabbed for her hips and dug in his fingers as she began to move, they found their rhythm easily.

They cried out together when they reached their joined climax, and Kara fell asleep on Lee's naked chest.

She dreamed again that night more vividly than ever before. She saw the gods, all covered in light. They touched her stomach and murmured words she couldn't quite hear. than to burning in fire. Pain and crying babies. Then wrapped in Lee's warm embrace. Then sinking deep in water, sinking deep until she saw it and realization hit her like lightning as she sunk deeper towards the light and-

Kara woke up gasping for breath, she finally understood, she knew what she had to do.