Disclaimer: All characters belong to Stephenie Meyer.

In Six Months I Lost My Mind But Found My Heart

Chapter Fifteen: Everyone's Confused

28th February

4 Months & 5 Days Left

Edward's POV

Last night was terrible; I didn't get an ounce of sleep. Charlie's a police officer so I'm sure he has a gun and I know he will shoot me if I walk along the corridor. The problem with last night was I was terrified that once I went to sleep he'd hack me death with a butcher's knife. He clearly knows that I'm attracted to Bella and he must be thinking that I want sex from her, every father's once nightmare.

Now obviously I know that that would never happen but he doesn't. I can certainly understand why, we spend so much time together alone in the house that we could be up to anything.

Alice entered my room with her load of books and sprawled herself across the floor as I worked at the desk. After a few moments of silence I spun round in the computer chair to look at her. She's becoming my secret keeper and confidant so maybe she could also give me some advice on how to deal with Charlie.

"Alice?"

"Mm-hmm." She responded with the end of her pen in her mouth.

"Remember the conversation we had last night?"

"Of course." She was still looking at her textbook, trying to work out a problem.

"Well Bella's father overheard it and I think he wants to kill me." She gazed up innocently then smirked. Trust her to find my predicament funny.

"How much did he hear?" She sounded far too cheery.

"I know for a fact he definitely heard the bit about cold showers and trying not to kiss her senseless. He could have heard all the stuff before that, like choosing Bella or my inheritance, but I really don't know. He didn't give me any indication as to what he heard, just that if he could hear me if I walked along the hall." She giggled.

"Oh that's genius. He probably thinks you're some sleazy teenage guy trying to bed his daughter."

"Yeah but I'm not."

"Well he doesn't know that. Is that why you have those dark rings round your eyes, too scared to sleep?" Before I answered she was laughing at me again.

"Not entirely, I needed the bathroom but couldn't go." She stopped and frowned at me.

"Why not?"

"Because the bathroom is at the end of the hall next to Bella's room." With that she was in a fit of giggles again. Really, what possessed me to even think of asking her? She's no help what so ever.

"I don't find this particularly funny, Alice." It was a warning tone which she picked up on and stopped laughing but the smirk was still there.

"You're right, I'm sorry. Okay, I don't think you have much to worry about. Just don't let him catch you kissing her or touching her in any way and you'll be fine." I doubt that.

"But-" She cut me off.

"No, you'll be fine so stop worrying. And perhaps go to the bathroom before Bella goes to her room."

"That won't work; he'll probably think I'm hiding in her closet for my midnight escapades." Alice rolled her eyes but started giggling shortly after.

Of all the siblings I could have had I end up with her.

Bella's POV

Edward and Alice had headed upstairs to start on the mountains of homework we were issued today, it's like the teachers just love to see us suffer. No doubt by the time I was to head up there they would have finished it. I was washing dishes at the sink and placing them on the drying rack. We had just had dinner and it was, for lack of a better word, weird.

Edward was completely on edge, he had dark purple circles under his eyes from lack of sleep and he looked hellish. Every time my father said his name he looked like a deer caught in headlights. Alice and I had no idea what was going on but she planned on asking Edward later then filling me in.

Usually after dinner Charlie goes next-door into the sitting room to watch the television but for some reason he was still sitting at the table, watching me. I dried my hands and smiled at him as I went to leave but he called me back and asked me to take a seat. I was nervous to say the least. This looked serious.

"Bella I wanted to talk to you." Charlie said nodding, as though trying to convince himself that this was the right thing to do.

"Okay...what about? You're not sick are you?" I asked concerned for his welfare.

"No, no, no. I'm not sick..." He paused for a second. "I wanted to talk to you about Edward." Okay I wasn't really expecting that, for a moment there I thought he was going to go off on one of those parental talks about drugs, sex or alcohol that Renee gave me years ago.

"So what about Edward?"

"Well he's a teenage boy and...And you two are friends or perhaps more-" That startled me a bit, god please do not tell me my father saw us kissing. "-and usually when that happens two people do things...they...they regret."

I had no idea what my father was on about but the fact that he thinks me or Edward are more than friends just confirms that he must have seen us kissing.

"Frustration and raging hormones might...increase the chances...of...stuff happening...but you need to be sure-" Charlie was still rambling and I was lost. I didn't regret kissing Edward and he didn't regret kissing me.

"I don't regret it, I was sure." I said confidently. My father's face paled slightly and he had his mouth gapping open.

"You...you did...did it?" It was barely a whisper but I just heard it and no more. What's the big deal? It was just a couple of kisses.

"Yeah." He paled again; I didn't think you could even get that pale. Suddenly there was a change in his expression as he looked up the stairs then back at me.

"EDWARD GET DOWN HERE NOW!!" My father bellowed as he quickly rose from his chair. Seriously, I didn't think he would over react this much about a kiss. It was nothing, hell there wasn't even tongue involved in some of them.

Edward came round the corner apprehensively looking like a terrified schoolboy. He was no longer the confidant pompous ass who strutted around like he owned the place. Nope he now looked like a lost little boy about to get told off.

"Ye-ss-ssi-rr?" It was shaking and I swear he was going to piss himself in terror.

"I TRUSTED YOU IN MY HOME AND THIS IS WHAT YOU DO." Edward looked slightly confused for a sec. I was lost and had no idea what was going on. "YOU SCREW MY DAUGHTER THEN TELL YOUR SISTER BELLA'S NOT GOOD ENOUGH FOR YOU."

With the first half of that sentence I was out of my chair, knocking it to the ground behind me. Edward now looked confused, lost, terrified and as though he was about to cry. If it was any other time I would give him a hug.

"Wow, we haven't had sex!" I said quickly, catching my dad's attention. He turned to me looking angry but not as angry as he was when looking at Edward.

"What?!"

"Edward and I have not had sex." I repeated.

"Then why did you say you did?" Charlie said, now also confused. God did anyone in the room actually know what the hell was going on?

"I didn't." He shook his head.

"I asked if you did it and you said you yes." He was calming down but if looks could kill Edward would be dead.

"No I thought you meant did I kiss him. I've kissed him sure but sex? Hell no." That brought him back to normal.

"Sorry." He mumbled to me before turning and quickly pacing into his room.

"He's not going to get his gun is he?" Edward asked wide-eyed and scared. I laughed softly and shook my head.

"No he's not." That relaxed him and the calm and collected Edward was returning.

"Thank God, I'm not wearing my bullet proof vest."

"Please don't tell me you have one of those here." He looked at me for a second as if I was stupid.

"Bella there are gangs!" I rolled my eyes and dragged him into the living room to head up stairs. I stopped momentarily when I though back over what Charlie said.

'... TELL YOUR SISTER BELLA'S NOT GOOD ENOUGH FOR YOU.'

"Edward?" He stopped ranting about the gangs and turned to me. "What did my father mean when he said you told Alice that I wasn't good enough for you?"

"Eh...we...uh...I...mm." Was all he got out before stopping entirely.

"I'm not good enough for you?" I asked softly. It seems like I take two steps forward with him then three back all the time. Will this ever just work?

"It's not like that...it's really complicated actually."

"Yes or no?" I didn't want excuses, just the truth.

"I can't answer that." He looked to the ground and that was the only answer I needed before I walked up the stairs and went straight to my room, ignoring Alice's calls.

5th March

3 Months 3 Weeks & 6 Days Left

Alice's POV

It was a Sunday and we were all in the house together. The last week has been hell for me. It's like I'm caught in the middle. Edward is moping and Bella's trying to act like she's fine when she's moping too.

We were all crashing in the living room. The television was on and Edward was watching some rubbish movie as he lay across the couch. Bella was sitting curled up, wrapped in a blanket, reading a book on the side chair and I was watching those two.

Every so often Bella would glance up from her book and look at Edward before returning to the page before her. Edward would do the exact same; he was watching Bella more than the movie. They were both sending each other longing glances and I knew that neither of them liked the sticky situation that they landed in.

Of course it sounded bad when Charlie said that and Edward didn't help matters by not giving her a straight answer but those two fools like each other and this is just stopping them from ever getting together.

I know my brother and if he doesn't think that there is enough of a relationship then he'll let her go. He won't tell her how he feels or things are, instead he'll bottle up his feelings and get his sweet little heart broken when she leaves in about 4 months.

Bella, well from what I can gather she won't say anything, or if she does then Edward will totally dismiss it without even realising he's trampling all over her feelings. She might get the guts to tell him but after this last little dilemma I can't see that happening anytime soon.

"Does anyone want a drink?"Edward asked, getting up and heading towards the kitchen.

"I'm alright." I said quietly.

"No thank you." Bella mumbled, barely looking at him. He nodded and sighed before disappearing.

He would be back pretty soon so I decided to jump start on damage control. I had tried to do this earlier but Edward kept yelling at me for interfering. What does he know? If it wasn't for me they would never have kissed and wouldn't have had that sensual hand wash, food making time in the kitchen together. They're the puppets and I'm the puppet master, without me they would be nothing.

"He doesn't think you're not good enough for him. In a way I would say that he thinks he's not good enough for you. In our lifestyle he wouldn't be able to protect you from those who would love to see someone like you humiliated and ridiculed. Trust me when I say he cares about you."

Bella looked up from her book then back at the kitchen, we could now hear him on the phone talking animatedly to someone, my guess Emmett or Jazz.

"I like him but how could this work? He lives there, I live here. He's rich, I'm not-" I cut her off.

"There is no way I'm going to sit through that whole speech again. Edward already walked me through it and I'm not doing it another time round with you. If you guys care about each other, which you do, this will work out. Trust me, I know."

That was all we had time to say as Edward walked back in smiling slightly, the only smile out of him I've seen all week.

"What was that about?" I asked curiously.

"Emmett and Jasper are coming down sometime this week to help me with something."

"Rose not coming?" I would love to see Rose; I need my shopping partner since Bella is too reluctant to go.

"No, the guys are only coming down for a few hours then heading back."

"Big trip for a few hours, six hour car ride there and back. What's this something you need to take care of?" It must be something important if they are making such a journey.

"Just a couple of guys I was having trouble with, that's all."

"How big are your friends?" Bella asked, I was slightly surprised since she directed the question at Edward who was smiling back at her.

"Emmett's huge, as big as a bear. Jasper's pretty big too, he can hold his own." She smirked and shook her head.

I felt slightly left out, they knew something I didn't know. Oh well I'll just get Jazz to tell me afterwards.

But hey, it was good to see them smiling at each other again.