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In Six Months I Lost My Mind But Found My Heart

Chapter Twenty-Four: Fiancée

May 1st

2 Months & 6 Days Left

Edward's POV

At breakfast my father pulled me aside and informed me that I would be meeting my possible fiancée. Without even noticing the first thing I did was look over at Bella. This would put strain on our secret relationship. I don't want to hurt Bella but I feel that isn't possible anymore. At the beginning of July she will get hurt when we have to end this.

I was dressed to look smart and welcome them in the main hall at eleven. Alice was to take Bella shopping and then to the movies whilst I was spending time with my possible fiancée. She, whoever she is, will only be confirmed as my fiancée if our fathers feel that there is a good connection between us.

Before Bella left I wanted to see her. She would be able to calm my nerves about what I was about to do. She had just finished getting dressed and was fixing her hair in the mirror. I smiled softly before wrapping her in my arms and kissing her neck, I found that weak spot a few days ago and it makes her putty in my hands.

"Hi." She murmured, leaning against me.

"Hi. How are you?" I asked, kissing her a little more.

"I'm much better now."

"Good." Bella stood up, as though to walk away from me but I wasn't having any of that. I moved with her and caught her in my arms at the bed.

"Edward." She warned but as I was giving her my crooked smile she didn't put up much of a fight when I kissed her properly.

Slowly I brushed my lips against hers, asking for entrance to her mouth. She gave it up almost immediately and just encouraged me. The passion and lust took over me and my hands were pulling her hips closer to my own and making sure my lips didn't leave hers.

Somehow we ended up on the bed but I certainly wasn't complaining and neither was she. Her hands were everywhere and I was throwing rationality out the window and letting my senses take over. Bella seemed to be doing the same thing and was throwing caution to the wind when she slowly started undoing the buttons on my shirt.

Our bodies were moving against each other's of their own accords. I was going on sensation alone and could only comprehend how amazing Bella felt beneath me. The only noise in the room was our 

heavy breathing and the drum of my heartbeat pounding in my ears. I wouldn't be surprised if she could hear it.

"Bella I just wanted to- oh my god my eyes!" My sister's voice shrieked from the door. I practically flew off Bella and out the door to hide my obvious arousal from both Bella and Alice.

That was too close. If that had been Esme or Carlisle things could have hanged drastically. I think Esme would understand but with my father I don't know. He wants the rest from me and I don't want to disappoint him.

Next time I'm locking the door.

Bella's POV

Edward raced out of here like a bat out of hell and Alice slowly took her hand away from her eyes. She shut the door behind Edward and gave me her I-can't-believe-you look before she started.

"What the bloody hell was that?" She didn't sound annoyed, more grossed out by what she had witnessed.

"Nothing." I said, trying to regain my breathing back to normal.

"Nothing!" Alice cried. "He was practically dry humping you!"

"Okay it wasn't that bad."

"Yes it was! Please never do that again without locking the door first. Who knows next time I might see something ten times worse." Alice sighed then calmed herself down. "Okay, so are you ready to go?"

"Yeah." Today was going to be a very long day.

"Oh don't forget to remind me to stop off at the pharmacy on the way home." She said as we walked down the stairs to her car.

"Alright, anything I should be worried about?" Maybe she was sick or something.

"No, no. I just need to get a few things that's all." I did not like the glint in her eye when she said that.

Edward's POV

The girls had left and my future fiancée would be arriving any second. I don't know what to make of this situation anymore. I'm so confused. On one hand marrying this girl would be the best thing for everyone, well except Bella, since I would do what I was meant to do since birth. But then on the other hand I don't love her and probably never will.

I wanted the chance to find someone I wanted to spend the rest of my life with and not someone I'm with for convenience. For once I just want to have a normal life, be able to make my own choices and not be expected to carry on as my father's successor.

The sound of a car pulling up outside broke me from my thoughts. She had finally arrived. On the other side of that door could be the woman I'm to spend the rest of my life with and is the mother of my children.

Oh joy, someone just kill me now.

"Shall we?" My father asked rather cheerfully as he opened the door. I changed my entire demeanour in seconds so I was now smiling politely ready to welcome them rather than looking like this was my personal hell.

"Hi. Welcome. We're so glad you could make it." Carlisle greeted as two guests entered the hall. After the usual pleasantries Tanya, my wife to be, and I went out to the veranda for drinks. It was our fathers' idea for us to bond together.

We both sat down opposite each other with drinks in hand, neither of us saying anything. It was awkward to say the least. She was gazing out over the gardens and I was watching the condensation run down the glass.

"You have a beautiful home." Tanya commented after a few minutes. "And lovely gardens to match. I hear they are among the top in the country." We were now making small talk.

"I've heard so but they aren't that special. There are advantages and disadvantages to it." Maybe if I was dull she wouldn't want to marry me.

"You don't want to be here do you?" Her question caught me off guard. I took a few seconds to consider my answer but decided honesty was most appropriate.

"No I don't want to be here." I was looking at the glass again, not wanting to meet her gaze. She was pretty, I would grant you that, but she just wasn't what I wanted in a girl.

"Where would you rather be? Or more to the point who would you rather have here with you than me?" Perceptive, I didn't think she would be.

"There is someone. She's out at the moment, doesn't know I'm here with my possible fiancée."

"You didn't tell her?" Her voice was full of curiosity and I could detect no malice.

"No. I didn't think it would be appropriate." I shrugged as though to express that I was still unsure about my decision to keep this from Bella.

"What is your relationship status with this girl?" I looked up into her eyes and tried to decipher her intent. Now either she could use this to her advantage or just wanted to know her competition.

"We are dating but only a select few know." She nodded and looked out over the grass again, taking a small sip of her drink. "Do you have your eye on any other respective husbands?"

"There are a few." She smiled softly.

"Anyone in particular?"

"There's a lovely Earl who I have my eye on, he lives in Scotland but other than that I would say we were a perfect match. He's top of my list. But you…you're top of my father's list." I nodded. Of course her father would put me at the top; I am after all going to inherit an obscene amount of money.

"I don't doubt you would be a good husband or father Edward I just think you seem rather cold. You aren't the man I see myself marrying. In all honesty I don't want to get married but I couldn't give this life up. Would you?" She stumped me there.

"I could….for the right girl. She would have to be exceedingly special though." I shook my head, brushing the thoughts plaguing my mind.

"So this girl of yours, what's she like?" Tanya asked, leaning forward on her elbows.

"She's….amazing and that doesn't even cover it. She doesn't realise how beautiful she is and she's so innocent is charming. I try to get her to blush a lot; she looks even more breathtaking when she blushes. I feel so much more comfortable around her and she makes me…what's the word…happy when I'm with her." I sighed and shook my head again, this was ridiculous. "It's a good thing you don't want to marry me since it appears I have no balls so we would never be able to have children."

"I doubt that." She said laughing but after admitting how I felt about Bella to a complete stranger I couldn't help but think I was completely whipped. "So you like her, could you marry her?"

"Absolutely not. I don't think she would have me but marriage is not in the cards for her at this age." No Bella wouldn't want her life strapped down at eighteen.

"But you like her?"

"Most definitely. I would do anything for her. All I want to do is be there for her and protect her. I want to be the one she goes to with a problem and I want to be the one to comfort her in a time of need. I want…well…her." I admitted, feeling stupid for saying all this to Tanya.

"From the sounds of it I'd say you were in love." She smiled coyly.

"Love? No, not possible. I don't know what love is. This is just lust and liking, not love." I was sure she was wrong. I couldn't love Bella; we had only been together for a couple of months at most.

"Don't deny it. It's romantic. So you love her, does she know?"

"Of course not. She knows I like her a lot but if I can't even allow myself to think that I love her then I most certainly am not telling her I love her." Tanya brushed some hair away from her eyes as I took a drink. Letting my feelings for Bella settle.

I'm too young to be in love. This has to be lust. She is the only girl I've ever wanted to be intimate with and with all these teenage hormones kicking around my judgement is biased. It's lust. Only lust.

"Well I think you should tell her. What do you have to lose?"

"I could lose her for a start. This could totally freak her out, if it was true, and she may never want to see me again. I couldn't risk that. We have about two months left then things return to normal, I won't be making any extravagant romantic gestures in that time."

"Well if you change your mind give me a call, I'd love to help with something like this."I eyed her pensively.

"Why would you be interested in my love life? After all if something was to happen between me and this girl that means we could never be together."

"Like I said you're a great guy, you're just not my guy. I want the Scottish Earl not the English Marquess. You would be the perfect husband, that's for sure, but I don't want perfect. You're a gorgeous guy Edward, I won't deny that, but there is a part to your personality that I find expressionless. As though you have no emotions behind those beautiful onyx eyes of yours. I certainly don't bring out the good side in you, maybe she does though."

"Maybe." I pondered. I had no idea of the effects Bella had on me.

Bella's POV

"Okay we're done. Time to go home." Alice declared after buying about sixty pairs of shoes that she insisted she needed and without them her world would come crumbling down.

She told me we would be going shopping then go to the movies but instead we went to the movies first so she didn't have to lug all her bags around. I didn't see the problem but now with her multiply overflowing bags I could understand.

"We have to go to the pharmacy. You said you wanted to pick a few things up." I reminded her before getting in the car.

"Oh yeah." She automatically chirped up and seemed far too excited to just be going to the pharmacy.

When we arrived Alice was out the car in seconds, racing into the store. I followed behind weary of what she was getting. The mischievous glint was back in her eye and I knew she was not to be trusted. She was down one aisle, throwing things off the shelves into a basket then prancing off up the next one.

Her graceful movements put me to shame when I finally caught up to her at the checkout. All her items were paid and bagged so I still had no idea what she had purchased.

"Is there a reason you were secretive about what you just bought?" I asked her as she placed the bag on the floor in the front of the car next to my legs.

"I bought the stuff for you and I didn't want you causing a scene in the store." She was smirking as I was panicking.

I lifted the bag onto my lap and opened it up carefully. All the blood immediately rushed to my cheeks at the sight of condoms, lubricating gel and two pregnancy tests. This was some really bad joke or she was being deadly serious and thought I would need these.

"The pregnancy tests are just in case…you know. They are the best money can buy in the store so they're accurate enough if there is any mishaps. The other stuff is for your fun and Edward's of course." She was giggling, finding this hilarious whereas I wanted to jump out the moving vehicle.

I intended to stash the bag somewhere in my room until I could properly dispose of it but unfortunately luck was not on my side. Edward came out to help us with the bags and gave me a chaste kiss. Somehow he ended up carrying the bag filled with contraceptives. I was just hoping he wouldn't look inside it.

"That bag is for Bella's room." Alice directed, pointing to the one he was holding as he was about to put it with Alice's bags.

"Can I see what you bought?" He asked, rather seductively if I do say so myself. I shook my head but he had already opened the bag.

My heart stopped all the blood ran to my cheeks, my mind was gone and I felt like the world had just fallen out of the universe. Edward opened his mouth to say something but stumbled to grip any words and then he blushed a little. I was dying of humiliation. He must think I'm some sort of nymphomaniac now.

"These for us?" He questioned wearily.

"Apparently." I croaked.

"Well let's put them to good use." He grabbed my hand and pulled me up the stairs as Alice laughed hysterically at the bottom of the stairs.

Once inside his bedroom Edward threw the bag to the other side of the room and kissed me softly as he wrapped me in his arms.

"I missed you." He confessed. The light topaz of his eyes was getting brighter and it was amazing to watch.

"I missed you too." He kissed me again then opened his mouth to say something but the words never came.

"My sister bought the contents in that bag, didn't she?"

"Yeah."

"Interfering Pixie." He muttered under his breath. "I want you to know I'm not expecting that from you."

"I know." I did know, the only time our lust and passion took over was this morning.

"I…I...l…I like you Bella." He said quietly, as though he was saddened whilst he said it.

"I like you too Edward." He smiled and kissed me again.

"Come on I want to take you riding."

I don't know what it was about him that was different but there was certainly something. He seemed changed and was acting a little weird. But either way he was still the perfect gentleman I knew him to be.

We agreed emotions wouldn't get involved in this relationship but I can't help think I'm falling harder for him every day.