Seven: Frustration

"Give your immortality to me, I'll set you up against the stars."
The Hush Sound

All there was... was fire.

Burning, murdering fire. No matter how hard I screamed, how hard I pled, it wouldn't stop.

The scorching pain burned my insides, clawing its way through my veins and incinerating everything in its path. When would it stop? I sobbed and grabbed at my body, wishing I could pull the pain out.

"EDWARD!" I barely registered screaming his name, but it reverberated off the walls and echoed in my ringing ears.

The pain was overwhelming.

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How much longer could this last?

I wanted to die. I wanted to end this misery. Someone... anyone... help me...

My body convulsed as I rolled onto my sides and vomited, heaving in agony and sobbing in discomfort. My clothes were soiled, the room's stench was unbelieveably disgusting, and the fire running through my veins was worse than ever.

My sobs were tearless now, but my screams did not become quieter.

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"Bella."

That voice. His voice. The one who did this to me.

Through the pain, there was anger, hurt, humiliation. I screamed and thrashed about on the cool, yet becoming slightly warmer floor before several hands restrained me to become still.

My vision was clear, though I did not wish to see. Aro, the evil one, was at my head, his smile plastered on his face. He brushed my hair and patted my cheek.

"It's almost complete." His whisper was barely heard above my screams.

I closed my eyes, and Edward's face flashed to my half-conscious mind. His name bounced off the walls as it left my lips, and suddenly I was alone in my cell.

My breathing became erratic as the fire spread to my chest. My heart began to beat its last beats as the venom spread into the pulsing cavity.

Everything became black.

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As the darkness faded, I felt strange. That was the only word that could describe how I felt. There was no thudding of my heart, no flow of blood through my veins. My eyes felt dry, yet they didn't ache, and my nerves felt like they were numb.

My legs and arms and torso felt different, strange, also. They felt lighter, yet compressed, as if they were flexing to show off the muscles they didn't own.

And then there was my throat, and the burning thirst that erupted there. It was painful. It needed to be satiated.

My eyes flew open, and I gasped. My sight was heightened, and I saw every speck of dust, every crack in the wall in the dark room. The fire was still glowing dimly, and the light reflected off of the skin of my arms, casting dull sparkles around the cell.

I sat up and looked at myself. My clothes were off; I must have ripped them off during my transformation. My body shape was the same, thin and shapeless, but my skin was snow white and hairless. I brushed a hand over my leg, expecting to feel cold but instead feeling warm and soft. I ran a hand through my hair, and was shocked at feeling the same, semi-soft waves frizz about.

Wasn't I supposed to be beautiful? Wasn't I supposed to change into a goddess, a curvy, perfect being? Instead I was still short, curveless, and average. I was still Bella Swan.

I wanted to be Bella Cullen.

I stood up, smooth and lithe like a cat, and was thrown off by the unexpected balance that I now possessed. I swiftly walked to the door and grabbed the handle; it crushed in my hand and fell to the floor. Smiling, I pushed the door.

Suddenly, it swung back and hit my face, making me fly into the wall six feet behind me. I glanced at the doorway to see Felix standing there, a victorious smirk on his face as he gazed at me.

"Bella," he greeted, and threw something into my cell. Behind him, various screams echoed throughout the hallway, and I clenched my fists to my ears. They were too loud, too pained to bear...

I sucked in a breath to try and calm myself, and that was when I smelled it.

The rich, metallic scent of thick, flowing blood filled my mind, clouded my senses, and sent a wild frenzy throughout me. I turned to look at the thing Felix had thrown in the cell and my eyes zoned in on the fragile human man, old enough to be my father, cowering at the wall.

His blood was calling to me. And I couldn't resist.

I lunged at him, my fingers clawing at his face, his chest, ripping his skin away and revealing the beautiful red blood that had once seemed so nauseating, but was now appetizing.

I placed my mouth on his limp shoulder and bit down into the flesh. The blood filled my mouth and satiated the burning thrist in the back of my throat. I sucked and pulled more into my mouth, draining the man's body of his liquids to fill me up.

Panting, I tore my teeth out of his skin and swallowed my last drops lingering on my lips. There was a chuckle behind me, and I turned to watch Felix walk towards me. He knelt besides me and brushed his hand on my arm.

"Beautiful," he murmured, playing with my hair. I looked down at the dead, innocent man in my arms, his blood coating my face, neck, and front, and then back to Felix with horror in my eyes.

What have I done?

I tore away from the vampire and dropped the man, backing up into the wall and pulling my knees to my chest. Felix watched me with confusion in his eyes, then shrugged and got up. Before he left, he turned to me and spoke,

"I'll tell Aro your transformation is complete."

Then I was alone.

I dared to look at the man again, guilt and terror rising in me. I just killed a man, an innocent, defenseless man! He probably had a family at home, a job to work at, and a life to live, and I took it all away.

But it tasted so good...

I closed my eyes and burried my head in my arms, resting them on my raised knees. The room was completely quiet, and I wished now that I could hear Edward's musical laugh, or even the beating of my heart.

I wanted to be human.

I let out a wail of frustration.

Dun, dun, dunnnnn! Well, she's a vampire. I know that this is supposed to take three days, and it did for her. And in the next chapter the Cullens will just be getting to Italy.

It didn't take them three days to get there, I'll be going back in time to live through the three days in his perspective, don't worry.

Anyway, review please! :)

Oh, and btw... thanks for all of those who reviewed the other chapters! It means so much to me, and I am so grateful. And I'm glad you like the story.