Two weeks later I was still taking pretty hard so was matt.
We had a meeting with Trish and Jeff's lawyer about their will.
Matt was left with the bikes and cars and the house went to their dad, Trish's will stated that all her belongings went to her mum and dad but her animals and car went to me, Both of their money went to a trust fund for Wyatt until he turned 18.
Then came the argument of what would happen to Wyatt now
"as Wyatt's godmother you are now the legal guardian of Wyatt Mathew Hardy" The lawyer announced handing me the documents to sign I then signed them and handed them back I didn't know what to do anymore this meant they were really gone and I had responsibility for Wyatt and I didn't know if I was ready.
Once we got home matt took Wyatt straight upstairs to his new room to get settled,
I went to my bedroom and went straight to the bathroom cupboard and pulled out anti-depressants I grabbed two after I swallowed them down I put the rest back.
Then Matt walked in
"Wyatt's asleep he was really tired he said as we both headed to the lounge room I then turned on the T.V, It was all over the news every channel about Trish and Jeff I turned the T.V off and threw the remote at the lounge and headed upstairs
"I'm going to take a shower" I yelled
I just stood there under the hot water against my skin I was crying my tears mixing with the shower water I couldn't do it anymore all the stress was getting to me.
20 minutes later I got out and got dressed I changed into a simple white tank top with a pair of Matts old pants I then walked down stairs Shannon and Lori were sitting at the kitchen table talking to Matt.
"Hey Li how are you holding up?" asked a very concerned Lori
"Fine thanks" I lied as I walked into the kitchen two hours later they left
"Red are you sure your ok?" Matt asked
"I'm fine would you stop asking me" I yelled angrily
"Look I lost my brother to your not in this alone" He reassured
"Yes I know matt u seem to be so upset about this" I snapped coldly
"What's that supposed to mean?" He asked harshly
"Nothing" I replied turning away but he turned me to look at him
"You're not the only one grieving here Lita ok so stop playing the fucking victim" He yelled as the tears welled up in my eyes but I refused to let them fall I wouldn't let him see me cry
"The victim? Whatever shows how much you know im not upset matt im not even angry im Fucking pist off" I screamed he looked at me confused and hurt
"well don't take it out on me ok where in the same situation where in this together" he said lightly his voice changing from angry to concerned
"I don't care I want to be alone everyone I get close to leaves or die so no Matt where not in this together" I said it came out more harsh and cold then I intended but it was true and I was hurting
"That's it lita look we both lost someone that day not just you and its not your fault so don't blame yourself or anyone ok" he said grabbing my arm trying to pull me in to a hug but I jerked away
"DON'T TOUCH ME!!" I screamed
"Look Matt you seem to be coping pretty well well im not ok im not im falling apart I can't do this what do I do I have no time to grieve There's you and…and…paparazzi wont leave me alone………now…now there's Wyatt…and I cant do it matt I cant…so please matt if you have someway to bring Trish back please tell me cause im going crazy" I sobbed at this point I couldn't stop the tears they flew freely down my cheeks I did the only thing I could do and walked out
"Lita wait!" He called after me trying to grab me but again I pulled away
"Don't, Don't touch me…just leave me…alone…please" I begged walking upstairs and slamming the door behind me.
Matt stood there nearly in tears he didn't know what to do he lost his brother, His best friend and now was what felt like the verge of losing the women he was in love with and truthfully he was scared I was right everything was falling apart and all we could do was watch.