He sat there for a while he wouldn't leave my side.
My eyes slowly started to open, my eyes kept shutting due to the light that was now shinning in my eyes, my wrist's were all bandaged up, my eyes finally fully opened I looked around I was all alone matt wasn't in here I was guessing the nurses made him go for a walk,
"matt" I said with no reply I don't know why I called for matt knowing he wasn't in here I think it was just instinct I slowly tried to sit up but quickly I noticed I couldn't my wrist's hurt to much I looked at all the cords around me and found a red button
'it looks cool ill just guess this means I want help' I shrugged as I started pressing it over and over again finally doctors rushed in they all were shocked to see me alive.
They all kept looking at each other until they all busted out asking me a bunch of questions
"Im fine" I kept saying over and over as they kept checking all the machines.
Matt was walking down the hall way when he noticed doctors walking out of my hospital room,
He rushed to one of the doctors
"What's going on is lita alright?" He asked the doctor
"Why don't you just ask her" the doctor responded with a smile on his face matt returned the smile and walked into my room as the nurse checked my monitor,
"Well that's everything you know where the buzzer is so if you need anything just buzz" she said smiling
"Thanks" I said gratefully as she left the room I then noticed matt standing there in the door way,
"I guess you want to know why" I commented putting my head down,
"I think I know but Li is it really that bad?" he asked
"Matt I wasn't coping Trish was my sister no matter what anyone said and Jeff well Jeff's….Jeff" I said chuckling
"The point is I wasn't coping and it got to me but I know now that there in a better place and lets just say ive accepted that with a little help" I said smiling matt then walked over to me
"I was so scared I almost lost you" he said tearfully
"I know it's hard but I want to do what Jeff said-"
"Move on but don't forget" I cut him off
"Yeh" he said holding my hand I smiled at him than frowned
"Im sorry" I apologised matt looked at me confused
"What for?" he asked intrigued
"Trying to kill myself, not talking to you about it and most of all not letting you grieve" I said plainly going through the list of things I was truly sorry for he just smiled at me
"Baby it ok I love you and that will never change I promise" he said leaning down and went to kiss me but I moved and looked at him seriously
"You really promise?" I asked he smiled at me
"I promise" he said kissing me
"But you did scare me I knew you were hurting but I didn't think you would really try it" he said staring down at me
"Im sorry for trying it" we went to kiss again when we heard a little voice
"LITA!" I looked over at the door and sure enough stood Wyatt with Shannon standing behind him he ran over, jumped on the bed and lied next to me
"He wanted to see you" Shannon said
"Are you going to be alright?" Wyatt asked I smiled at him
"Yes im going to be fine" I answered he then whispered in my ear
"Did you see mummy and daddy?" he asked quietly
"What?" I asked looking at him
"They came to me" he answered quietly
"Wyatt I do believe you" I told him
"I miss them but there in heaven" he said in my ear I just hugged him tightly there where tears in his little emerald green eyes
" I drew a picture today at school see this is me, mummy and daddy holding hands at a park" he said pointing there was Trish in a pink dress Wyatt in just a shirt and pants the same with Jeff except he had all different colours in his hair.
"Its pretty I can see daddy with all the pretty colours in his hair" I laughed as I looked at the drawing then matt looked
"That's good Wyatt you're a great drawer" matt said smiling at him Wyatt then pulled another drawing out of his pocket
"here I drew this for you and lita look both of you holding hands and on top it says forever" Wyatt says handing it to matt he smiled than showed me I smiled with tears in my eyes I looked at the ceiling
"thankyou" I said hoping Trish and Jeff could hear me I understood now it wasn't my time I had Wyatt to look after and to guide then I had matt he meant the world to me I didn't want to put him in anymore pain than he is already in.
I made a choice I was going to move on but I wasn't going to forget especially the memories,
I was going to make a new start to my life.