Author's note

Well my very first contribution from my own home. I am in the air so to speak, I am finaly subscribed to Internet. Hope you love it. This is a between chapter, a build up to what is to come. Tiva is getting more and more in site.

Just be there

Chapter 4

Ziva sat at her desk for a long time, she felt empty and tired, and the day hadn´t even started yet. My god, she was exhausted, if only she could sleep for a little while.

Gibbs entered the office only to find Ziva fast a sleep with her head on the desk, she was snoring like nothing he heard before, well it turned out Tony was right, she was making a awful loud sound. He figured she must have been real tired for her to come to work and fall asleep even before the day started, he would have to send her home if this was going to continue. Meanwhile Tony had entered the bullpen and was looking at Ziva with wide open eyes.

"ahum, boss, what about that" he pointed at Ziva who was oblivious to it all. "do you think she would take it as well as McGee did when I glued his face to the keyboard" Tony saw a opportunity to finally get Ziva once and for all.

"I wouldn't try it if I was you" Gibbs shook his head and looked on in amazement, would Tony Dinozzo be such a idiot, yep the idiot didn't let Gibbs down.

Tony walked over, not being able to resist such a opportunity when he saw one, he started to tie Ziva's hair in a knot but before he could proceed he felt a knife at his throat. He froze, at specially since he felt Ziva wasn't playing this time around.

Gibbs stood up, rather surprised at Ziva's violent reaction. "David, let go…..that's a order" Ziva looked at him and Gibbs noticed she wasn't really seeing him, she just wasn't there. "let go…I am giving you a direct order, David" Gibbs was getting worried, she didn't show any signs of a reaction what so ever.

"ma-oegar laleget , officer David" Jenny stood at top of the stairs. Ziva reacted, it was like all of a sudden she returned. She looked at Tony, Gibbs and at Jenny, "see what you made me do, you should have left it alone, the wall I build so carefully is gone and now I don't know what to do" Ziva turned to Tony."I am so sorry, I never meant for this to happen, I am sorry for all of this". She touched his face, tears welled up in her eyes and with that she left, she fled to the elevator before anyone could stop her.

Tony ran to his desk, "I'll call the guys at the gate" Gibbs put his hand on Tony's hand and phone "No, you won't" Gibbs looked at Jenny, "you two talked" Jenny nodded "this morning, she was in my office when I walked in, I couldn't have stopped her from talking even if I wanted to" Gibbs turned to face Tony "go after her" Tony was rubbing the place on his neck where Ziva placed the knife on.

"Boss, I am the last person she wants to see right now, she pulled a knife on me, oke granted I tried to glue her face to the desk but the knife was uncalled for, that was so over the top"

Gibbs didn´t know what to do, he could deal with a lot but what he didn´t bargain with was Ziva losing it, post-traumatic-stress-syndrome wasn´t something he had dealings with on a daily basis at specially not with the agent that was the most consistent factor of the team. He had never seen her like that, the talk with Jenny must have triggered something that had she had put behind a carefully build wall but not that wall was no longer around. He could deal with McGee's innocent look at the world or Tony's obsession with woman, jokes and TV or Abby's gothic looks and Caf-Pow addiction but Ziva's world was one he never fully understood. She would allow only a view people in to her heart, but even less into her mind.

McGee entered the bullpen. "Have you seen Ziva" barked Gibbs at him. "No, Boss I haven't".

"So you didn't pass her on your way up here "

"No, should I have" McGee didn't understand any of what was going on, but knew enough that when the Boss asked you something you just went along with whatever he did or asked.

All of sudden Tony looked up, "I've got a idea where she could be, I'll go and see if I am right"

Tony knew that Ziva sometimes went up on the roof of the NCIS building for reasons he never understood, it was a something that belonged to her, just like Gibbs had his elevator Ziva had her roof.Tony knew she didn't pass McGee so she must have taken the stairs instead of the elevator like they all thought. While he was climbing the stairs he had no idea how to approach his partner, he knew enough from his little encounter with Hamza that it had to be something awful for Ziva to react the way that she had. He opened the door which gave access to the roof and after his eyes adjusted to the bright sunlight, he saw her, she was sitting on what appeared to be an old closed down ventilation shaft whit tears streaming down her face.

Tony thought about the best way of how to go about it, he would have to make his presence known or else she might react the way she did when he touched her hair. "not a particular nice view, but I don't think you came up here for that, did you" She turned around "go away" while trying desperately to remove any evidence of the tears on her face. Tony moved to a spot right behind her and before he or she even realized his arms were locked around her and just held her. "I'm here, just let it go" Feeling his love for her she broke down. "I don't know what to do anymore Tony" He felt his heart break for her, this wasn't the Ziva he knew, his little ninja woman, the one that would defuse bombs like she was reading the paper on a quiet Sunday morning.

TBC………….