I had spent the rest of the night crying, and I felt as if I wasn't ever going to be able to sleep again. I was afraid to, though. I was afraid that I would replay Jacob's death in my dreams.
I glanced at the clock, and through the blurriness of my tears, I read the time; two AM.
I moaned and rolled up the extra blanket Carlisle had given me up into a ball. I pulled it as tightly as I could towards my chest, and I buried my face in it.
My Jacob was dead.
My Jacob Black.
I sniffled as glimpses of the fight rolled back to me.
How could Edward do this to me?
Didn't he know that I loved Jacob almost as much as I loved him?
I never wanted to see him again.
Ever.
Edward's POV
"Edward Anthony Masen, get into the car." Carlisle demanded as he got into his Mercedes.
I sighed and then opened the door, sitting down in the seat. I closed it and Carlisle took off.
The car ride was silent, and all Carlisle could think of was Bella's face, her beautiful face, when she found out that I had killed Jacob Black. The tears that were streaking down her face, and the heartbreaking eyes that seemed to stare right into my soul.
"Stop it." I commanded him, but he didn't.
"No, Edward. That was uncalled for. You have no idea how much you hurt Bella, do you?"
I had been so selfish, such an idiot! I had wanted Bella all for myself…but that mongrel! He hurt her! She didn't want to be kissed; I just stuck to my promise. I hadn't meant to kill him. I hadn't meant to take his life.
As Carlisle slowed to a stop in front of our house, I got out of the car and started up the stairs towards the house.
Their thoughts were already buzzing.
Where's Edward?
How's Carlisle?
Carlisle did sound upset on the phone when he called saying that we were having a family meeting.
Family meeting? What did SexEd do now?
I growled and opened up the door, revealing the five other Cullens. Esme ran over and hugged Carlisle as soon as she could, Emmett looked rather annoyed, but he still smiled at me. Rosalie hung onto Emmett as if he was going to run away, Jasper stood silently, no expression on his face, next to Alice, and Alice gave me a confused expression.
I didn't see anything Edward…all I saw was a vision of Bella crying. It concerns me. What did you do?
Of course she didn't see anything, Jake was a werewolf.
"Come. Living room," He motioned for us to all sit down, and we rightfully did so. Esme stood next to Carlisle, Emmett plopped down in a large, Emmett sized, chair, Jasper and Alice took places on the couch, and Rosalie cuddled up next to Emmett like he was a teddy bear, "Take a seat, Edward." Carlisle said, pointing towards the open seat next to Alice. I sighed and took a seat at the very edge of the couch, in case I had to run away.
"Today is a day that will live in everyone's memories like a haunting dream. A monster, if you will." He looked at me, just for a mere fraction of a second, before turning back to the rest of the Cullens, "As you all know, Bella Swan is in the hospital right now, and living through injuries. But that's not all she's living through. She's hurt, but she's hurt in a place where she can not be healed. She's had a part of her heart torn out, when Edward came to visit her in the hospital."
Everyone turned and stared at me, waiting for me to continue the story that Carlisle had begun. I didn't want to. The pain that Bella was feeling right now was too much for me to handle. Carlisle kept thinking about Bella's painful face, and I let out a groan, placing my head in my hands and gripping my hair as tightly as I could with my fingers.
"What happened?" Jasper asked, and Carlisle realized that he had to continue.
"Jacob Black was there. He kissed Bella, and he and Edward got into a fight."
"Oh my god." Alice said, realizing. She put a hand to her head and shook it in disbelief, "Edward, how could you?"
I glanced at her, through the corner of my eye, and she was glaring at me. I wanted to just go to the Volturi and die. I was just so selfish! No one on this earth should ever be that selfish. No one who is that selfish, who is as selfish as me, should let them go one living for eternity.
"Bella was in no condition to do anything, but Edward's anger took control of him. So, today, July 16th, Jacob Black's life ended."
Gasps were heard in the room, "Edward, please, no." Esme pleaded, "Edward how could you?"
"She loved him." Emmett growled, "And you killed him?" He scoffed.
"You hurt her so much…Edward. You don't…oh god. I have to go and see her." Alice stood up, and I didn't bother stopping her as she ran out of the house. We heard her yellow Porsche start up as she drove out of the garage and down the road.
"You will be punished, you know that, right, Edward?" Esme asked, and I nodded my head.
"Yes, I do, and I will fully take my punishment."
Carlisle and Esme stared at each other for a moment, and then Esme stared back at me, "Carlisle is not going to allow you to see Bella, except on special requests. You will not be able to leave this house after ten, and you will not be able to contact Bella at any time. I'm sure she doesn't want to talk to you right now anyways."
What if she's scared of me?
I just killed her best friend, the one who saved her life while I had left her.
"Is that it?" I asked.
"No, Rosalie will disable your car as soon as she can, and you will not be able to leave this house without our permission. Alice will be watching you at all times, and you will not be able to have your cell phone on you at anytime."
I nodded my head, "I understand, Carlisle." I said.
"Good." He seemed pleased with himself. Then he thought of Bella's tear-stricken face one more time, to punish me as he pointed towards the stairs.
I will continue this discussion with you upstairs, Edward.
I nodded before I turned around and headed up the stairs.
Bella's POV
"Bella?" I heard a sweet, pixie voice from behind me. I turned and stared at the doorway. Alice stood there, a sad expression painted onto her beautiful, petite face.
"Please no, Alice." I moaned, "Please, go away." She didn't say anything though, and she sat down in the seat next to my bed, wiping the tears away from under my eyes with her cold finger.
"Oh, Bella." She wrapped her arms around me and pulled her towards me, "I'm so sorry. I heard, and don't worry. Carlisle and Esme punished him severely."
"I don't want to see him." I sniffled, and she nodded her head, rubbing my back as she pulled away from me.
"I know, I know. Carlisle and Esme won't let him in here without your special consent."
"They're never going to get my consent." I sniffed again, "How could he act like…like such a monster?" I demanded, "Doesn't he know that I loved Jacob?"
"The anger took control of him, Bella, he couldn't help it." She whispered, and I broke away from her cold touch.
"I don't care! He manages not to drink my blood, how come he can't manage to not kill Jake?"
"Bella, please understand."
"Oh, so you're all right with this?" I spat, crossing my arms.
"No, I'm not, I do admit that it was wrong, but Bella, please." He killed him! He killed Jacob! I don't know how I could live with someone for the rest of eternity if I knew that he had killed the person that took up the rest of my heart. The rest of my stomped on heart.
"Alice, hold out your hand," She furrowed her eyebrows together in confusion, but she didn't do it, "Alice, hold out your hand." I demanded, and she did so, "Give this to Edward. And tell him the date's off." And with that, I slipped off my engagement ring and placed it in Alice's cold palm.