Chapter 7; Untitled Document

Chapter 7; Losing It

My entire thoughts were on Draco Malfoy in this potions class. Maybe I could give him a chance, I thought to myself. I'll be ready when, if, he hurts me again. I've proved to myself and everyone else that I can be tough. I guess I was thinking so much I didn't hear Snape dismissing our class. I was still in deep thought when I looked up and saw Malfoy standing over me, with a newfound smile on his face.

"Hope I'm not interrupting thoughts," he started, "but I was wondering if you'd fancy a walk outside with me. I'm hoping to carry out our conversation again."

"Well Draco, it's your lucky day, because I would love to walk outside with you," I answered him. Wait, what just came out of my mouth? What am I saying? Maybe I just need some fresh air. Yeah, that's it. Fresh air is good.

Again, all was quiet until he broke the silence. "You know, you were thinking quite hard today in Potions. Anyone particular in your thoughts?"

"I don't know, my thoughts are private," I told him, with a small wink. What's wrong with me? Why am I flirting with him this much?

"You know, with what we talked about earlier, I'm not a bad guy. That's just my reputation. I can't help that," he said. We stopped near the lake. It was a beautiful morning and the Black Lake was shimmering from the sun. I looked around at all the students outside. My eyes stopped on Karly, holding hands with a seventh year Slytherin.

Draco followed my eyes and seemed to read my mind. "Ah, Daylan dumped her. Found an older girl."

"And you're not chasing after her like a sad puppy?" I asked him. I know it was kind of harsh, but I was starting to have thoughts about him, and I knew it was too good to be true.

"Nah, I'm over her. There's this really smart, beautiful, all-around great girl I like now." he said. Wow, he really knew how to charm a girl. Ha, more magic humor.

I was about to respond when Marisa came up to me. "Girl, come on! We've got to get to Charms."

Marisa was pulling me away when I turned around and said, "I'll see you later, okay?"

Looking hurt from me leaving, he brightened up, and nodded his head. "What's going on between you two? Just yesterday you hated the guy's guts!" Marisa said.

"Maybe he's changed," I said. Changing the subject I asked, "So what do you think of the new girl Brooke?"

"Ah, she's just a little over the top. But I heard she's been asking everyone about Malfoy," she told me, searching my face for a reaction.

"Yeah, she asked me earlier in Potions," I replied back.

"And you don't care?" she asked me, like she was reading my mind. How could I let her figure out that I maybe like him? I mean, she's my best friend, but I can't let her get the satisfaction of being right. And what would people say?

"Um, nope. Not at all," I just wanted to end the conversation. I couldn't talk about this right now. Luckily, we got to Charms right in time.

Like Potions, I just couldn't concentrate. Professor Flitwick had us do some Shield Charms against each other just for practice. I almost made Marisa's hair turn purple, and gave Neville a super wedgie. I apologized of course, but that still doesn't mean I quit thinking.

Back in the Defense Against the Dark Arts room, Draco Malfoy was thinking. Yes, actually thinking!He looked up from his book, and gazed around the room. His eyes met with Karly's. He smirked at her, and then dropped his gaze. "I'm supposed to change!" he thought to himself. He didn't want to lose all of his work on something he's wanted.

He turned to face Blaise who sat down next to him. "Draco, we need to talk," Blaise said.

"What, are you breaking up with me?" Draco said sarcastically.

"What the hell were you doing with that mudblood outside on the grounds today?"

"What are you talking about?" Draco asked irritably. Draco knew what he was talking about though.

"What's her name? Erm, Morgan? Maggie? Who cares what the bloody hell her name was? One, she's a mudblood. Two, she's a Gryffindor. And I don't know what three is, but Draco, you know you can do so much better! Karly just gave you a wink!" Blaise said. Draco cringed through the whole thing.

"She's not as bad as you think. And who gives a rat's arse about Karly? She never looked my way before," Draco said, wholeheartedly with truth.

"Whatever man. The only Gryffindor you should ever think about is the new girl Brooke. She's a piece of work that girl, should be in Slytherin. I heard she likes you. But you're losing it man." Blaise said, then got up and walked away.

Not even giving Draco a moment to think, Kylie bound over and sat next to him. "Hi Drakie-Poo!"

"Kylie! Don't ever call me that again!" Draco said over the giggles in the room.

Once again, Kylie ignored him. "You know Draco, Blaise is kind of right. Gryffindors aren't good for us Slytherins. Besides, that girl is a mudblood. I only pretend to like her. You know Drakie, Hogsmeade is coming up this weekend, and you and me should go together…" Kylie ended with a smile.

"Erm, no thanks Kylie. I'm going to stay here this weekend."

"Well okay, but you know where to find me." She winked and walked out of the room as the class was done.

The class was dismissed in the Charms room, and I couldn't be as happy to get out of there. To take my mind off of things, I decided to go see my owl. As I walked up to the owlery, I saw Andrew. God, he was hot. But wait, I haven't thought about him since I got here! Oh great, he was coming up to me.

"Hey Megan, are you going to the owlery too?" He asked me. I felt I couldn't speak, but I finally got out a yeah. "Care if I join you?"

"Not at all," I told him. This wasn't a total lie. I did want to talk to him, but I think my feelings have changed. Ugh, I'm losing it. God damn it Malfoy!

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