Torn Apart Chapter 5, a sailor moon fanfic

Authors note:

Contains some spoilers!

If you don't want to know what will happen at the end, don't read and jump to the fanfic.

Okay, you're warned.

I'm the big fan of Usagi/Seiya pairing, so they end up together. Taiki and Ami as well. Everyone else is more or less hurt in the story. That's all.

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Usagi rolled over on her bed and sighed.

I don't know what to do. I have to do something, but what? I don't know what to tell him. Girls are worrying, you know. They told me you have a problem. Why did I get to know from them? Why didn't you tell me anything? We were together through such troubles, such horrors, and we survived, we saved our love to fulfil our destinies. You were always the one, but now... What's wrong with you? What's wrong with me?

I love you. And you love me. So why is there a wall between us?

Her imagined conversation with Mamoru didn't solve their problems, only made her head ache. She threw aside the coverlet and rubbed her bare feet against the floor. She reached the window and clasped her cheek to the cold glass, closing her eyes. It was full moon but it didn't alleviate her as usual. On the contrary it irked and distressed her. She was about to go back to bed when she noticed something from the corner of her eye. The flash, the gleam. Her head snapped at the phenomenon and she held her breath.

It was golden shooting star, bright and shimmering. Usagi had never seen such a bright shooting star before. She didn't know why but her heart was racing faster and faster until blush coloured her cheeks and she grew hot.

Somewhere in the city Mizuno Ami woke up in her bedroom, squeezing her pillow with sweaty hands. What was that? What had disturbed my slumber? I just felt like... of course that's impossible... I felt as if HE was here.

Ami's body quivered and she grabbed the pillow tighter. Calm down, she said to herself and started inhale slowly, just calm down.

The loneliness which she managed to ignore during the hours of day had come and demanded to be heard out. Ami closed her eyes, aware of oncoming disaster, trying to gulp her tears. Her heart was hammering painfully against her ribs and she hid her face in the soft pillow. Taiki, she wept, I want to see you again! Why did I pretend to be so strong, to have no feelings for you except mere friendship? That was one chance, only one for ever, and I lost it. I let it go! I know the time will mend everything, but how to last until it stops hurting me? Having that in mind, I believe there was a small spark of hope of you having some feelings for me also. It hurts me even more!

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"They are gone! Fighter and Maker are gone!" Kakyuu's arms shuddered. She pressed her lips with her hand to suppress the utmost cry of despair urging to come out. She was walking there and back again in her chamber, almost running, with no chance to do anything. Her guardians deserted her cowardly under the cover of thenight, with no excuses. The entire court was enraged like a swarm of honeybees, bashing at two deserters.

Healer was silent. She only observed her Princess rushing like a wild animal closed in the cage. Her cheeks were so pale as all the blood had trickled out from her veins. The shock hit upon her even if she had a premonition earlier. It was obvious Fighter embarked upon Moon Princess' charm, but Maker...? That haunted Healer's mind the most. She had to have very serious reason to do what she did. Or maybe she hurried to hinder an accomplishment of Fighter's crazy plan?

At the bottom of her heart Healer knew that Maker follow Fighter not to stop her. She went there because something was luring her, or rather someone.

"What should we do now, Healer?" Kakyuu's teary eyes looked into Healer's face, asking for help to save their world from falling apart. Within them fires were burning, fires of love, passion and anger, mixed together. Healer had never seen her Princess looking like that.

"I will bring them back," she answered, surprised by her own cold, steady voice, "They surely know it is madness. When they reach Earth and Fighter realizes she can't have Moon Princess' heart, she will come back."

"But why did Maker escape too? I don't understand it!"

Healer cleared her throat and sighed.

"My Princess, I suppose you remember Sailor Mercury..."

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Usagi's ear was throbbing from being pressed against the receiver. Beep... beep... beep... She dialled Mamoru's number once again.

Damn it. Where is he at this hour? At this moment, when I have to talk to him? Why isn't he home?

She put the phone aside, watching the hand of the clock. It was almost midnight. She sighed heavily and glanced at he phone with disapproval. And it rang.

Usagi jumped ten feet high and caught ringing phone quickly.

"Moshimoshi?"

If it's him I'll rebuke him until he understands!

"Usagi-chan? This is Minako!"

"Eee? Minako-chan? You surprised me."

"You'll be surprised even more!" Minako was excited and proud to be the first person to bring unbelievable news to her friend, "Turn the radio on! Tokyo Pop Station."

"What are you saying? Minako-chan, you're acting strange..." Usagi minced towards her desk, "Wait a second..." she yawned. On the other side of the line Minako was breathing impatiently.

"And...?"

"Just a sec... I can't catch it..." Usagi moved the tuning knob. And then she heard it.

A voice. A voice which dripped into her ears and enslaved her mind. Minako was still babbling... but her voice disappeared behind the veil... Everything disappeared when Usagi was listening to that captivating voice, bringing out so many memories...

"Usagi-chan? Do you hear me?" Minako almost got hoarse from yelling, "They went back! They're back!"

The hot ray penetrated Usagi's being to its deepest bottom, melting her inside. Her knees weakened and she found herself kneeling down in front of the radio. Then the velvety voice finished talking and the disc-jockey burst out with his chattering, making Usagi wince.

"I bet Yaten came back as well! Oh Usagi, I'm so excited I can't stand it! I never thought they will come back! He is here, oh my, do you hear me? This time I have to..." Minako stopped suddenly and laughed nervously. Usagi uttered the encouraging murmur, guessing Minako's secret, but the girl remained silent.

Minako-chan and Yaten-kun... Who would thought? Not me. I had sense of that, but I thought it was only fascination, after all she had been chasing after Yaten, Seiya and Taiki equally.

So, they went back... After nine months... What brings them here? Does the world stand upon the edge of destruction again? Or maybe they couldn't rebuild their planet? No, that's impossible.

Usagi chewed on her lower lip. I'll see HIM again. Probably. Or maybe they won't ask us to meet? She scratched the back of her head, pushing the flashback of Seiya's voice down her mind. Come on, Usagi. This madness is ended once and for all.

She dialled her boyfriend's number once again.

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Michiru answered the phone and after short talking she hung it up, facing her girlfriend. Haruka furrowed.

"What is it? You look strange."

"You won't believe it," Michiru rubbed her forehead, her mouth opened, "My manager called to ask me if I would give a joint concert with Three Lights."

Haruka stepped back, laughing at Michiru's face.

"What are you saying? Three Lights?"

"Yes. Precisely Two Lights, because Kou Yaten doesn't take the part in the story."

They watched each other in silence, Haruka still disbelieving, sneering lightly.

"THE Three Lights?"

"Yes," Michiru nodded, "Exactly. Looks like they're back."

"Back?!" Haruka exclaimed, "Why? What for?"

Michiru shrugged her arms. Haruka continued.

"I have to know what they are plotting this time. I don't sense any threat so there has to be another reason for them to come here."

Michiru glanced at her companion from under her brow.

"I'm going to meet them tomorrow. You can go with me and ask them themselves."

In the meantime, Minako was spreading the news amongst her friends. Everybody was stunned. Ami dropped the receiver. So what I had sensed was right, she thought, I'll meet him once again, thanks heavens for that chance, but I don't think I have enough courage to look into his eyes... It's easy to daydream about someone, but telling him your feelings is completely different thing... She picked up the receiver and finished talking, barely aware of what they were discussing. Minako didn't notice her friend's odd behaviour, because she was too busy with chattering about Yaten. Since he had left she never mentioned her feelings towards him but now she was ready to meet him and take her chance.

Makoto and Rei were also glad their old friends came to visit, even if they didn't have any interest in alien guys. Rei mused upon Usagi's reaction when she sees Seiya, and vice versa. She was the only one who suspected that could be very important meeting for those two, the meeting changing their lives. Maybe I'm wrong, but there has to be the reason of Usagi's and Mamoru's problems. What if it turns out that Seiya is the problem? Seems their bond is too strong for anyone to break it, but what if...?

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Rei dialled the number with trembling hand.

Who are you doing that for? she asked herself, Usagi? She will be mad, just like she was after Haruka's warning. Mamoru? It won't help him to know his rival appeared again, probably aiming at his fiancée. At least Haruka thinks so, and I feel she's right. If only Seiya had just one reason to come back, it would be Usagi.

"Hello?" she heard Mamoru's voice and hung up the receiver quickly, still pondering.

For girls? They hope everything will turn the right way after some time and don't want to interfere. Seiya? I'm sure he didn't want anyone to disturb his plans.

She walked out from the shrine and went downstairs. The silence around, usually calming her and letting her run away to her own world, was unbearable at the moment. Rei quickened her pace.

I'm doing this because I can't just sit and watch. The tension inside me grows continuously and I have to use the energy it produces before I lose my mind and do some stupid things. I don't know where I will land at last, especially now, when Seiya's arrival can make things turn on unexpected way.

She mused upon her own action and effects it could make. She wasn't aware that she urged only for seeing Mamoru again. In fact what she wanted to achieve was destruction of Usagi's and Mamoru's relationship. She wouldn't be able to admit that so she was rationalizing, saying to herself she only wanted to help her friends be happy. But the truth was rather different.

When she entered his apartment, he was very surprised. Trying not to remember her last visit there, Rei took the deep breath and shot.

"There is something you must know. Seiya came back to carry Usagi off from you."

What am I saying? I don't even know that! she screamed to herself. The second Rei answered at once. Yes, I know. I bet he prepares to capture her slowly that she won't even notice the web he will weave around her. Mamoru must be warned.

"He chose the right time, didn't he?" Mamoru grimaced, "Anyway, how could you know? Did he declare that to you?"

"That doesn't matter! You must do something before it will be too late!"

Mamoru scanned her face and she reddened.

"Don't look at me like that. I just want to help you."

"Why?"

"You know why."

They looked into each other's eyes and the blush slowly overwhelmed Rei's forehead, ears and neck. Finally she averted her eyes to hide her embarrassment.

"I'm sorry," he uttered compassionately.

"Forget it!" she waved her hand, still looking aside.

Mamoru put his hands into pockets and turned his back to her.

"You know, I really don't know what is going on. We love each other. We want to be with each other forever. But... Gradually the bad feeling arises within me. I begin to see I am only the elder brother for Usagi. Nothing more."

Rei yearned for approaching him and embracing to let him know how the true love feels, but she stopped herself.

"What do you mean?" she asked softly.

"You know, she's still so... immature. Maybe that's the problem. She loves me, of course, but that is not THAT kind of love."

"You mean, between man and woman?"

His only reply was the nod.

"Don't you think it will change some day?"

"Maybe."

"But you think it won't, don't you?"

"I don't know. She is always so distant. I see she forces herself to please me, but I don't want her to force herself to do anything! I want her to yearn for me, to express her passion, but... there is no passion there, that's the problem. And I feel like raping her."

"Oh, Mamoru... that's... that's terrible!" Rei stepped forward a bit, "Did you talk about that with her?"

He snarled.

"Yeah, I did. At least I tried. But she doesn't understand at all. She just thinks I don't love her anymore and she cries. And I feel worse and worse. I told myself I should be patient, I should wait. But we're going to marry the next year! I'm losing her, Rei. I lost her not knowing how and when. And I don't know how to get her back. If it's him... If it's this... Seiya... I won't forgive him. I'll kill him!"