"While I can't promise you a trouble free journey, I can tell you that strength is born amidst the struggles and disappointments."- Dear Daughter by Marianne Richmond
All is fair in love and war. I want to meet the person who said this and blow their head off. The only fair element of war and love is pain. That's all this war has caused, and not even the pain of the Cruciatus Curse compares to the pain of knowing someone you held dear in the world is never coming back. Maybe these are just the wrathful thoughts of a disturbed teen. Who knows? I never did.
Dessa D. Odd Ball
Most people wake up and greet the day with smile as the sun paints beautiful colors on the bedroom walls. Most people see a new day as a fresh start. I however look out my window scowling at the sky wish I could go back in time and stop this cursed morning from dawning on the earth. I have cried all my tears, and mumbled all the what ifs I could think of, and nothing will ever change.
"Dessie!" Max cried from the other room. Poor boy he still doesn't understand fully what has happened. I gave a soft smile when I looked at him. He had tried to dress him self in the black flannel shirt, and pants I had picked out for him. The shirt was button with the bottom fasten to the top, but amazingly he got his pants on.
"Come here." I sighed dropping to my knees in front of him to fix the shirt. At nine years old you think he could dress himself.
"You look pretty." Max commented as I put the last button in place, and kissed his forehead. This time he didn't squeal and wipe it off.
"You look pretty handsome yourself once you're done eating your way out of your shirt." He smiled. What I was wearing was a simple black dress that Mum had actually picked out for me for a black tie affair. I wiped Max's blonde hair into place and took his hand. "Come on let's get something to eat." The thought of eating actually disgusted me at the moment. Max pulled my hand back after I started walking.
"Dessie is Mummy is heaven now?" I had to choke back some tears as I pulled him on the bed next to me.
"Yes, Mum is a beautiful angel looking down on all of us." The boy nestled his head into my side, and tears were ribbons down my face.
"Don't cry Dessie Mummy hated it when we cried." I sniffled a few times, and wiped my eyes.
"Maximus you need to promise me you won't mention anything about heaven to Dad." Max looked up with his bright blue eyes sparkling with confusion.
"Why?" Because our Dad is a jerk who would yell like a mad man at the muggle idea of an after life.
"Because it will make him sad." Max nodded. I stood to leave I needed to be alone with my thoughts.
"I love you, Dessie." I smiled at him.
"Love you too." I walked out the door and down the hall to my bed room. I needed to be strong in front of Max, but I could fall to pieces by myself. The service was short, but beautiful, and I think it would have been everything Mum would have wanted. Flowers engulfed the house in fragrances, and colors. As everyone gathered at my house after words I sat on the sofa only to make an appearance. I have no desire to talk to anyone I just wanted to sit here, but of course such a request could not be upheld.
"Odessa, I want you to meet a friend of mine Abraxas Malfoy, and his son Lucius."My father called to me, and begrudgingly I took Abraxas hand and shook it.
"Nice to meet you, though I already know Lucius." Sadly…..
"Ah yes I forgot you attended Hogwarts. Well I'm sorry to be meeting on these circumstances Odessa, but if you would excuse me I need to take my leave." In other words sit there and talk to my son while we plot. So as soon as they were out of ear shot Malfoy grumbled and sat down.
"Still hanging out with the Mudblood?" Malfoy was five years older then I was so was only at Hogwarts up until my third year.
"Yes!" I spat. "Still snogging with Black cousin?" His eyes narrowed at the comment.
"Yes, and I'm surprised you're not snogging with a Black of your own." Sirius! He has to be kidding!
"Uh No way in hell." Malfoy laughed like he knew something I didn't.
"I'm taking it you don't know he's here then." I had to stop as my mouth dropped open. I had forgotten the relationship between my family, and the Blacks.
"Do you know where he is then?"
"Going to make my prediction come true?" I want to kill him, and for once the him wasn't referring to Black.
"Actually as much as I despise both of you I would prefer to talk to Black instead of the worm that sits in front of me." Malfoy waved his hand as he picked up a glass of wine from a house elf that walked by.
"My guess is your room, but what do I know. I keep my distance from the blood traitor." He said taking a big gulp of wine. I stood and walked praying to god Malfoy was wrong and Black wasn't sneaking around in my room. I saw him staring at a family portrait that hung on the wall, and I went over and tapped him on the shoulder.
"Hey." Black jumped a bit, and turned around.
"Oh!...Hey Odessa." I cocked my eyebrow at the use of my name. Usually it was Odd Ball or Davidson never Odessa. "Look I'm sorry about…."
"Thanks, really." There was an awkward silence, and he turned back around to look at the picture.
"You look adopted." He commented. "I mean I can see you and your Mum have the same eyes, but otherwise…."
"You have no idea how happy that makes me." I smiled. "Have you had the pleasure of meeting my family?" His eyes widen, and his hands were raised.
"No! Hell no I've been staying out of these pompous purebloods way." I could tell the mischief sparkle that lit in my eyes as I took him by the sleeve.
"Well then let's go create a blood traitor roadblock then." I said pulling him towards the room I new my sister would be in.
"You're going to get me killed aren't you?" He mumbled as I dragged him along.
"No if anyone gets the pleasure of killing you it will be me." He began to mutter something along the lines of 'walked right into the lions den.' I laughed. Wow I didn't expect to be doing that today, and I could feel the guilt rising in my stomach. That is until one of Mum portraits looked right at me, and I swear it winked.
"Anya, Maximus!" Anya was crying on her husband, and Max played silently with a wizards chest set.
"Dessie! Want to play with me?" Max asked.
"Later, right now I want to introduce you to a friend Sirius Black." I can't believe I just said that. Ugh my plan better work.
"Friend? Since when are we friends?" He whispered, and I knew I was the only one that heard him.
"Odessa I wasn't aware you had a boyfriend." Anya gracefully stood, and I think Black and I almost died when she said that. Boyfriend? Ha! Did hell freeze?
"That's not her boyfriend." Max piped up from the floor. "That's the guy she, Lily, and Mary got detention over." I smirked at Sirius he rolled his eyes and held out his hand to Anya.
"Yea that's me. Nice to meet you." Anya shook his hand. I knew she knew all about Sirius's standings, and she wasn't thrilled with them. Anya took her leave with Tristan moments later, and Sirius sat down on the sofa. "So little guy whose winning?"
"I'm not little!" He yelled. "And this game is kicking my butt!" Sirius laughed and leaned over him.
"Here I'll play you." He suggested sitting across from Max. Max eye lit up, and he cheered.
"Yay! Dessie stinks at wizard chest."
"Hey! Don't make me hurt you." Max grin sheepishly as they began to play.
"Don't worry I'll protect you from Odd Ball." Sirius whispered to him. I smacked the back of his head. He rubbed it and scowled.
"Yea, well who's protecting you?" And just like that everything was back to normal. As normal as it gets considering Sirius Black and I were being civil. Well…..as civil as we get. Hours past by more quickly, and I found myself tucking Max into bed. Sirius said he had planned to go back to school in the morning, and offered me a ride. I gladly accepted I hated being home, and with out Mum it was depressing. I mean she died in the house. The only regret I had was leaving Max behind.
"Dessie will Sirius ever come back with you?" I had to chuckle at that. Max and Sirius had gotten along; no wonder the guy at the though process of a nine year old.
"Probably not Max." Max looked out the window, and back at me.
"Why?"
"Sirius and I are just too different we usually don't get along." I tried to explain without going into details I didn't need to.
"Oh." He snuggled into his blankets, and I turned out the light. "Night, Dessie."
"Night Max." I closed the door behind me, and walked slowly down the hall. I didn't know what happened the other night, but all I know is this place now became hell in the dark. I down sprinted down the hall to my room and locked the door behind me as more tears found their way to my eyes.
"Mum if you can hear me, I really need you right now!" I yelled into the silence expecting silence as my answer, but instead I got.
"Embrace wrath dear girl, and all your pain will disappear."
Ok Well sorry for the wait I hoped you liked. Reviews help, and all are welcome. Italian American.