A/N: There's one advantage to having no one that you know in any of your classes; it means that you get more writing done. I managed to finish three more of my challenges for 30kisses. This is the first; I'll have the second up soon.
Title: Selfish Wish
Prompt: #1 - look over here
Author: Kat Loussier (mystearicabloom/soulsymphonia)
Fandom: Tales of the Abyss
Pairing: Jade Curtiss x Guy Cecil
Summary: Was it really selfish for them to want this?
Disclaimer: Tales of the Abyss and its characters belong to Namco, not me.

Selfish Wish

Jade had never liked to play tourist. Sight-seeing was never something that he enjoyed or looked forward too. He found it incredibly dull, and hardly bothered to even pretend he was paying attention.

"Says here that this is the tomb of one of Yulia's guardians," Guy told him as he scanned the newly erected plaque. "Alyssa Merai." He looked over his shoulder to Jade, "You're not even paying attention, are you?"

"I wouldn't say that I am."

Guy sighed and shook his head in disbelief, "You're impossible."

"I'm glad that you think that way," Jade smiled that mysterious smile of his. Guy crossed his arms.

"Sometimes I wonder what it is I see in you..."

"Ah, well than I suppose we agree on something."

"Lighten up Jade," Guy frowned. "I honestly sometimes can't see the difference between you and Luke; you both don't seem to believe that it's okay for someone to love you. I think Asch would say he doesn't either."

"There's a significant difference between myself and Luke," his voice had turned cold. "Luke feels guilt over what he's done and tries to make up for this. I, on the other hand, feel no guilt; nor do I even attempt to repent for what I have done. Instead, I continue on with my life as though I never took anyone's life.

"I'm terribly selfish."

Silence hung between the two for several long moments. Guy looked as though he was trying to put together an argument; Jade prepared to rebuke it.

"Look over here Jade." Turning, Jade saw that the sun had begun to slip below the horizon. It would be dark soon. Guy sat down on the grass, gesturing for Jade to do the same. He did. Again, a smothering silence fell.

"I know you want to argue with me; but you missed a few things..." Guy let the thought hang for a few moments. "You're not the only one who's killed. I'm not a soldier, but I've probably taken the lives as many people as you have.

"And I've accepted it. I don't dwell on it; or think of those who just lost a loved one. I've just gone on with my life as if none of it has happened.

"If anyone is the selfish one, it's me."

It was Jade's turn to sigh; perhaps they were both selfish. Or maybe, maybe they were afraid. Afriad that, if they lost the other, they would lose what little they had left to live for. They had each other, and that was all that they had.

"Perhaps we both are. Perhaps we are too selfish to let go of the one thing we don't deserve."

"Yes... maybe we are." The sun sunk lower; its gradually dimming rays spreading a warm golden glow across the area and sky. "But, I think everyone is a little selfish; in some way. So I don't think it's wrong.. for you, me; for us to be happy."

Jade stayed silent; mulling over everything. He tried to keep his emotions from affecting his judgment, something he was quite good at; but the blond sitting beside him always seemed to turn that upside down. He'd heard the phrase 'listen to your heart' many times before, but always thought of it as a foolish idea. Now, however, he realized that with Guy, that was exactly what he'd been doing. And he'd found that he'd never been happier. Closing his eyes, Jade tried to let that long suppressed voice surface. After a few moments, his eyes snapped open.

"Guy, look over here."

"What - mmpf!" Jade's lips crashed down onto Guy's, his mouth sealing over the younger one's. Eventually, Guy's shock wore off and he began to respond.

They broke away from each other. Guy's cheeks had the lightest tinge of pink and his eyes were a little glazed, "Jade...?"

"This once, let's be selfish."

FIN.

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Kat.