-1A/N: I almost cried writing this chapter. Lol!
Chapter 7:
(Andy's POV):
Say yes. Say yes. Say yes! I willed myself to smile and scream yes! But I found myself in a stunned silence. I don't what to lose her. I didn't want her to go. And I didn't want her to stay. And I wanted to go with her. And I didn't want to go with her.
'Andy?' Donne was trying to read my expression, which was completely blank.
'I…I can't' I said.
'Why don't?' Donna asked. I was wondering the same thing myself. Why couldn't I? What was keeping my here? Nothing.
'I just can't' I repeated.
'Andrew Tobias Castle, you can't tell me to go and not even give me one good reason why you wont with me?'
'I can't because…' Because Donnie, I don't belong out there like you do.
'Because…?' She asked.
'You are annoyingly impatient' I said.
'Because…?' Donna repeated completely ignoring me.
'Because I'm scared' I admitted.
Donnie stared at me wide eyed. 'Scared of what?' She asked gently.
'Travelling' I answered. 'Donnie, I don't belong out there like you do'
'You'd be great' Donna insisted. 'Who will I turn to to tell me what I'm thinking when I don't know myself, if you're not there?'
'Donnie, please don't try and make this difficult' I probably sounded like I was pleading but I didn't care. 'it's hard enough knowing I've got to let you go alone, without you trying to convince me otherwise' I knew I was being cowardly but I couldn't look Donna in the eyes.
'But I don't want to lose you' Donna was in tears now.
'I don't want to lose you either Donnie' I insisted. 'Believe me I don't but you need to do this'
'No' Donna try to insist but her voice was weak through tears.
'Go Donna' I told her. 'Go to your Mum, and the Doctor, tell them you've made up your mind'
'No'
'It's your turn to be like all the people in your name' I continued. 'Don't worry about me. After a while, you probably wont even remember me'
'No, Andy, no. I'd never forget you' Donna said.
'I'll never forget you either' I agreed. I hugged her, then looked her right her directly in the eyes. 'Go and don't look back. Go and be a Time Traveller, Donna Martha Sarah Jane Tyler-Smith'
I didn't want her to walk away and not look back but I knew it was the only way I'd be able to cope with her leaving.
'You'll always be my best friend' Donna said, still in tears, then ran home.
Although I told myself I wasn't going to cry, I couldn't stop the tears from running down my face as I watched her running away from me. She was my best friend and I was letting her run away. I told her to run away. And I never told her the truth. She was so much more than my best friend. Now I could never tell her. I couldn't go after her, not now. That would be too painful for her. And for me. I just had to let her go. And I know I would never see her again.
Goodbye, Donnie Tyler-Smith. I love you