Last time on worthy of love: "Jacob I swear if you try I will find you and kill you both!" He said with menace and stormed out the front door. I knew he wouldn't go far since he couldn't go outside cause it was sunny. But I knew one thing I had to help Bella I had to get her home. I don't care if I go to prison!
Chapter#18: A helping hand
Bella's pov:
I jumped up and ripped my headphones out as I heard the door slam in the living room. My breathing becoming labored. My bedroom door was slowly opened. "Can I come in?" Jacob whispered. I huffed. "Like its ever mattered what I thought before?" I asked with menace. Jacob walked in slowly and sat beside me on the bed I quickly scooted over to be as far from him as possible without falling off the bed. He sighed and looked down. "Bella I don't blame you for not trusting me" he said sadly I snorted. "That's right I don't trust you" I said looking pist. He sat there as tears began to fall. This pist me off he had no reason to cry. And I told him so. "Why are you crying Jacob?" I snapped "You have nothing to cry about your not the one who has been raped almost every night your not the one who was taken from her family I hate you Jacob so spear yourself the fucking self pity and get to the point or get the fuck out!" Jacob looked at me shocked and I really dint give a shit. "i...i" he started I looked at him "spit it the fuck out already!" I snapped once again.
He looked at me with guilt and remorse written plainly all over his face. He took a deep breath and began. "Bella I am so sorry for what we did to you. I was being selfish I never wanted to hurt you and to see the way Edward treated you just made me snap it made me realize how much we are hurting you and after you have been raped not even what 3 months ago. I will take whatever punishment is given to me I will rot in a prison cell for the rest of my life being made someones bitch I will take death gladly by the hand of your fiancee and your family. I'm getting you out of here tonight." he said looking in my eyes for my reaction. I wanted to do it so badly so very fucking badly but then I thought of what Alice had said that if I went with Jacob tonight I would die and I dint want that I at least wanted to see my loves face one more time. "I cant" I whispered. "What do you mean you cant Bella this is your life we are talking about!" Jacob snapped. But we both stopped abruptly when the door swung open. "Having fun without me?" Edward sneered from the door.
(a/n: ya I know tiny cliff hanger on Bella's pov but don't worry I will get back to it if not in this chapter then the next)
Emmett's pov:
I felt like I was dieing Alice told me if Bella went with Jacob tonight that she would die I couldn't handle that I would surely die myself. All of us sat in the living room watching Alice as she looked through her visions to see what Bella would decide but so far even after the 4 hours we had been sitting here there had been no news. Jasper was still waiting on the I.p address Bella's email had come from. I hated waiting like this it made me crazy. Carlisle had helped charlie post missing posters around Washington. And charlie had sent one out to every police station in the u.s not to mention the news we had done. I just wanted my Bella back and we were doing everything in our power to do it. We had the wolf pack helping us out keeping and eye on Jacobs thoughts if he phased we would know. And Carlisle had contacted Aro who had agreed that he would help us get Bella back if we would change her within the year. We had agreed. None the less here we still were sitting waiting.
Just as I was about to give up and go to my room and do more research on the internet Alice gasped. We all looked at her afraid of what she saw. "She's not gonna go!" She said happily. I breathed a sigh of relief. "Thank you god" I whispered everyone looked at me weirdly for a second but then the chatter began. We were forming a hunting/search party tonight. The wolfs were joining us. Charlie had almost the hole town of forks searching for Bella so we were gonna do our part by putting a supernatural search team together. One way or another my Bella will be found.
Bella's pov:
We both looked at Edward afraid of what might come next but to our surprise he started laughing and rushed to my side kissing my head. "See Jacob she doesn't want to leave" god he was letting his head get big stupid ignorant asshole! Edward put his arm around me as Jake started shaking violently. "She probably has Stockholm syndrome!" Jake snapped. "Ah ah ah" Edward sneered pulling me in front of him. "Wouldn't want to phase and kill our pet would you." I was fuming and wanted to scream and claw his eyes out! I was no fucking pet and I damn well dint belong to these two scum bags. But to hi
s credit as much as I hated Jacob he slowly calmed his shaking. To be totally honest I would have welcomed death with open arms. I hated this being here having to love on two people I absolutely hated but I wanted to see my Emmett one last time. Thoughts went through my head just then I could always wright him a last letter. I still hadn't read his emails I would do that and then maybe slit my wrists when Edward was near I knew he couldn't resist my blood. Not if it was flowing so easily from my veins. That was it that was my plan. I would do it tomorrow evening. I would end all this pain and suffering I would tell my love goodbye and I would see him again cause heaven isn't truly heaven without my love. I turned pressing a kiss to Edward. Internally gagging. "My love I will see you later I am very tired." Jacob looked pist and Edward just looked gleeful as he pressed a chaste kiss to my lips "as you wish my love" he walked to the door not seeing me wipe my lips off disgusted at his taste. He turned towards me "come Jacob!" he ordered. Jacob followed him somewhat reluctantly as I layed down. I began to do something I had not done in ages I began to pray in my head.
Dear lord
I beg of you to take me tonight from this cruel selfish world from the hate
and violence that has been brought onto me. Lord please forgive me for what
I have done and what will be done soon if you do not take me tonight. And please
I beg of you to watch over my love Emmett and the rest of the Cullen's. Because this
world just wouldn't be right without any of them. In Jesus name I pray Amen.
I closed my eyes letting pictures of my Emmett pass through my head praying that on this my last night in this world I would be able to dream of him One last time. Those were my last thought as I drifted off.
IMPORTANT A/N: So what did you think? And I may be able to get chapters up a little faster because my mom moved like 4 doors down from me. So will Bella commit suicide? Don'tt worry weather she does or not Fuckward andJack-offf will pay theconsequences.. You just have to understand Bella has been going through this for weeks after being brutally raped not 3-4 months before. Its taken a tole on not only her physical health but her mental health she has truly finally lost the will to live. And no she is not getting Stockholm syndrome. She is just quitting she refuses to fight a moment longer she has hit her breaking point. Well I hope that helps you understand a little more if you have anymore quistians review or pm me.
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