Chapter 5

This is How I Disappear

A/N: Okay so I am a tad bit sad that I only got two reviews. It isn't my proudest moments but I am glad that those two people did review and I love you Jen your review was soo nice it put a smile on my face and surfprincess982 I decided to do in a different way because didn't want it to be Haley caught because I was guessing that was how people predicted me to do and thanks for your review it was v.nice too.

Well this chapter well hopefully will be better!! I hope. So please please please please please please reviewing it inspires me to write more. D Please and thank you.

Note that I don't own anything of One Tree Hill!! And the title of the chapter is a song by My Chemical Romance.

Peyton blinked a few times to make sure she wasn't imaging things she looked at Haley for a few seconds as she felt her stomach churn of disgust. She couldn't stand there any longer watching the two lie there with innocent pleading faces. It made her want to punch both of them. She clenched her teeth as she turned on her heel storming off. She laughed bitterly to herself as she walked down the stairs as she tried to process the situation. 'Her sister and her boyfriend' she thought to herself before letting out another chuckle while bouncing down the stairs.

Haley stood there only for a few seconds later in disbelief. After she told Brooke everything the fact that she loved Nathan and Brooke went and slept with him she almost felt betrayed herself but she wasn't naïve. Being angry at Brooke was just another way of being angry at herself the fact she was doing the same thing to her sister she would be more then hypocritical if she shouted or screamed. She stared at Nathan for a few seconds he almost seemed genially sorry towards her but it was just another way to play her, to trap her into loving him and so he could use her while laughing with his friends and having sex with other girls. She was stupid for falling for his little game. She should have known it would have ended in tears. She was meant to be the smart child and yet once again she was stupid enough to fall for him. The worst thing off all was that she still wanted him. She bit her lip for a second as she gave a disappointed look to both of the people caught in the bed before following Peyton.

Brooke looked at Nathan it was like she fell back into reality and only realised what was really happening. "Oh god!" she muttered as she closed her eyes hoping she would wake up any seconds and this nightmare would be over. She looked over at Nathan who looked disappointed in himself as he stared at were Haley had once stood. "I can't believe I did this/" she muttered with a tone of disgust as she squinted her eyes at him before wrapping the linen sheet around her naked skin and grabbed her clothes and walked out of the rooms and down the stairs to apologies to both her sisters.

Nathan grunted frustrated. He didn't want to hurt Haley or Peyton for that matter. He actually did love Haley he actually wanted to protect her from himself but he was too selfish and wasn't ready to give her up. When he was around her he was a man and when he wasn't he was an ass little boy who just wanted to impress his friends. He found himself laughing. Who did he want to impress any ways? Tim? He snarled at himself he was pathetic and he deserved what ever came to him. And know he knew what he had to do leaving Haley from his messed up life before he hurt her even more. He got changed as he made his way down stairs.

"I can't believe you!" Peyton screamed as her eyes turned to Nathan who had now joined them. "Oh so glad you could join us. Here look you haven't screwed Haley yet let me guess is she next on your list." She snarled.

"I should have seen it coming. I mean you are Brooke Davis the slutest person in school and sadly my sister! Why couldn't you be like Haley!" she muttered.

"Oh please like she's the perfect sister." Brooke bit back and before she knew it she was blurting out Haley's secret. "At least I didn't have a constant affair with your boyfriend un like Miss Perfect sister over there." She bit her lip realising what she had just said not to mention she made Peyton more pissed and that was scary thought but know she had broken a promise to her sister.

Haley lowered her head sheepishly she knew nothing she could say would make the situation better.

"Look Peyton it was neither of their faults. Brooke was drunk and I took advantage of her."

"And Haley?" Peyton interrupted. "Actually I don't want to hear your excuses anymore Nathan. I'm just done!" she said the last part a lot calmer adding a sigh.

"Done with us?" He didn't know why that statement sounded so shock. He was expecting her to break up with him sooner or later especially with all the stunts he pulled while in a relationship with Peyton. He knew it wasn't fair to drag her through a relationship were she wasn't loved enough.

"Done with everything." She paused for a second or two. "Just leave Nathan!" She demanded and from a simple nod Nathan exited the house. He didn't want to exactly leave things like that but it was for the best he needed to wait for all three girls to cool off before approaching them again especially Haley.

"I'm going to bed!" Peyton muttered as she walked up the stairs again.

"Well that wasn't as bad as I thought it would be?" Brooke said almost confused to why. Peyton wasn't exactly the most subtle person when it came to expressing her anger.

Beep Beep. The alarm clocked buzzed. "Shut up." A groggily voice came from the single bed as an arm stretched out as the hand felt along the bed-side cupboard trying to feel it's way to the alarm clock. Once successfully finding it and banging against it to make it shut up the girl rose from her bed as she rubbed the sleep from her eyes only to smudge old mascara which was probably from last night. She rolled her eyes and let out a groan as she yawned and stretched while blinking till her vision came to proper focus. She rubbed her head as she felt a banging sensation from it. It was official Brooke Davis is hangover which is pretty amazing considering it never happened easily. She must have had a hell of an amount to drink. "God tell me that was just a nightmare!" she said not remembering if the previous events had actually happened.

"It did!" A voice came as she looked over across her room to find a pissed off Haley who looked amazingly sleep deprived.

"Okay not that I don't love you and I'm guessing from your expression you hate me but why are you in my room. You do realise that you have your own and that would mean you wouldn't have to share with the back stabbing sister you probably hate right now, right?"

"I don't hate you. I'm just, I don't know annoyed Disappointed might be the better word." She smiled reassuringly till it quickly turns into a frown. "And I'm sleeping here, and I use the word sleeping loosely, because I don't want to get killed by psycho Peyton. We got off way to easily."

"Don't be silly she wouldn't kill you in your sleep. Maybe when you're awake so you could feel the pain more." She joked trying to lighten the mood but instead she got a death glare. "Okay too soon to joke about!"

"And what do you think she meant by 'I'm done with everything.' I mean I don't it just seems strange." Haley said as she ignored what Brooke has said earlier.

"I don't know. She was just angry and possibly tipsy." Brooke shrugged. "Look we have school and I'm hungry so I guess we are going to have to face her sometime. You coming?"

Haley nodded. "Safety in numbers, right?"

"I think she would still kick both our asses." Brooke joked slightly as she got a small chuckle out of Haley.

Peyton sat on the couch while munching on some coco pops as she sat in a pair of sweats. Her eyes turned quickly to the two girls who were tip-toeing down the stairs and into the room. She rolled her eyes at there pathetic attempt of being subtle.

"Hey Peyt. Don't suppose you feel happy at us? Stupid question!" Brooke cursed herself suddenly after getting a look that could kill from both Haley and Peyton. "Okay I know it was stupid know." She said defensively.

"Look Peyton I think Brooke is trying to say but failing miserably is that we are sorry. I know it means nothing now but we are truly we both some how got sucked up in the Nathan Scott charm so where along the way forgot about you and him dating. I know it's just an excuse to you but I know that is how it was for me." Haley admitted honestly but still all they got was a cold awkward silence. "Well are you at least going to school?" Haley questioned.

"No point. I am moving to New York for a while." Peyton blurted out shrugging as if it was nothing. "I booked the ticket yesterday with the emergency card dad left us." Once seeing Brooke and Haley's confused face she went on to elaborate. "I told you I was done with everything. That included this whole town. I want to just try something maybe some where that I can do art which will be appreciated. I know it sounds crazy but I need to do this I don't want to end up bitter. This might be the best opportunity for me."

"So what you are just going to abandon your family over your boy?" Brooke raised an eyebrow in disbelief. "I know what we did was wrong but is that any reason to leave the country. It is just a tad bit over reacting don't you think?"

"It's not even about that." Peyton snapped harshly. "Yeah I felt hurt what you two did to me it was painful, maybe I didn't love Nathan but it still felt like betrayal nevertheless but it's not about that it is about opportunities. I just feel held back here I am not making anything of my life. So that is why I am leaving tonight."

"How long for and I mean what about school and other stuff. I don't think you have thought this through Peyton. We all make rash decisions in our lives so we feel like we are in control but I think you just need to breath and think about this." Haley said not grasping the situation. She didn't understand hwy Peyton would want to do this she could fall behind in her work and in doing so it will be career suicide.

"I have and I am doing it!" Peyton said with determination. "I don't know how long I will be if my art hits big which probably not I'll just stay there and maybe visit and if it does then I won't need an education but if it doesn't or is New York isn't everything I thought it would be then I'll be back. So I guess it will be a surprise for every one." She smiled a little. "Just trust me okay!" She exclaimed as she walked set the bowl done gently on the coffee table and headed up stairs she had a lot to do in little time.

Brooke studied Haley's expressions she looked weary. "Don't worry Hales she will be fine she'll probably be back in a week once she runs out of money." She sighed.

Haley nodded gratefully but Peyton wasn't the only person on her mind. Nathan Scott of course. The son of the bitch who tricked her into falling in love with him with his sweet talking and what seemed like caring kind personality. She was a fool but the hardest part was the fact that she hated him and loved him at the same time and she hated herself for still loving him even though he had just broke a bound between all of the sisters.

It was much later that night. Haley and Brooke had of course attended school avoiding Nathan like the plague whilst Peyton had packed and got her money sorted. It was officially time her to leave.

"So this is it. You actually are leaving. I know you are probably still mad at me but can I hug you." A teary eye Haley asked.

Peyton nodded as all three girls embraced in one last hug for a while anyways. "Look I know I'm pissed at the moment this doesn't mean I'm leaving because of you two. I just need it okay." Peyton added after all three of them pried themselves away from the hug.

"We know." Brooke nodded in understanding while Haley cried both Brooke and Peyton rolled her eyes. "Shocker the youngest is the crier in the family." The girls laughed slightly before they felt the tension rise again as an awkward silence broke out.

Peyton laughed. "I need to go." Peyton broke the silence as she looked down and looked up again. "I'll miss you two." She barely whispered. "Bye." She said finally as she made her way to the door jingling her car keys. As she smiled for a second this was going to be a new life where no-one knew her. She could start fresh there and the idea of that was making her start to doubt her promise of returning. She strolled her suitcase behind as well as carrying a duffle bag as she threw them in the boot of her car. She took one final look at her sisters who were still standing with door wide open to wave her off. She simply smiled at the picture she was probably leaving behind for good and with that she slid into the car and drove off.

She found herself driving her car into a familiar drive way. She sat in her silently for a few seconds studying the house. She could hear the rain patter against the windows of her car. She looked out from the window to see the rain bounce against the pavement. She gave a sigh as she slid out of the car. Her body instantly frozen. She didn't feel ready to face him but she knew she needed to do this to get over seeing him before leaving to New York. She clutched onto a clear through package not ready to part with it yet. The pictures, the memories and the presents all in there but now at this moment as she stood in the rain she realised that it meant nothing. It was fake ness and despite the fact they were happy once upon a time that wasn't that any more. And with that thought she made her way to the door and under the porch as knocked on the door. She coughed to clear her throat.

The door opened as the girl faced him. She smiled a little before shoving the package into his arms before he even had the chance to say a 'hello.' It didn't mean shit to her any more. The apologises, the memories it didn't mean nothing! That was what there relationship was nothing. It sure as hell didn't mean anything to him so why should she care.

"What is this?" Nathan managed to mutter out before she had the chance to leave. He studied the pack for a second as he managed to put two and two together. "Peyton these were gifts!"

"I don't them. I don't want anything to do with you any more. Not your shit not anything." She harshly added. "Oh that reminds me stay the hell away from my sisters. Especially Haley. She is under some illusion that you actually love her. Foolish just like I was."

"I am." He quickly added. "I mean in love with her. Look I didn't mean for this to happen. I never even asked to fall in love but I did and I know I screwed it up with her and you and every one. I just it is hard for me I am just use to screwing up I didn't want any one to get hurt." He elaborated.

"Well if you really loved her you would stay the hell away from. Sacrifice your happiness for hers. She deserves better and you know it."

She stood there for a second waiting for him to disagree and argue with her but he stood there pondering over the idea. Maybe he really did love her if he was willingly to do that. Peyton almost felt jealous wanting some one to do that for her. Who knew maybe she would find it in New York. She walked off not exactly expecting a hug or even a goodbye. The she walked out into the rain once again as she jogged to her car. Once seated in the car she paused hesitantly almost scared of what was about to face her but she knew it was right. It was only expected to feel nervous. She turned the radio on as she listened to the music. As she headed towards New York. A new life.

And without you is how I disappear,
And live my life alone forever now.
And without you is how I disappear,
And live my life alone forever now.

A/N: Okay so obviously I started this chapter before I got my third review so I had to mention Always23Forever just in case you thought I didn't care about your review or something but thanks but I don't think you will be saying it is good up to this point because this chapter officially sucks lols! I know I always say that but I really defiantly meaning it more then the other times. I will be shocked if I get one review for this chapter but please do review nevertheless this is what happens when no one does review I suck lol !! By the way I know some people will be like oh gosh what is Peyton like leaving but I only made her leave cause I didn't want the story to be too centric around her and I knew I would do that if she was constantly in the story because she is my favourite character nevertheless she will have some big plot lines as well as the rest of the sisters. Please do review though even if it does suck!! I want to also warn that the upcoming chapters well get a little darker but I don't give to much away. The next chapter isn't though lol! I am also starting the next chapter tonight so you never know maybe to updates in the same week. Who knew I was possible of doing such a thing…