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Three months later and Third letter

It's been three months since Edward left me I can now think his name without it hurting I still can't say it out loud but it is getting easier and my heart is partly mended, I don't feel the hole as much as I used to so I know I am getting there.

I am still waiting for Victoria to attack me, the day after I saw Laurent in the meadow Sam came to see me and revealed the tribes secret that he can turn into a wolf along with Jared Paul Embry and Jacob. Sam is Alpha to the pack I did ask Sam why he only introduced me to Jared and he explained that Paul is not happy with my association with the Cullen's, Embry and Jacob had not long phased and he didn't want me around them yet.

The wolves caught Laurent and destroyed him Sam promised me that Victoria would never get near me, because of the threat I now spend my weekends in La Push staying at Sam's it is easier for them to protect me on the reservation I have also got to know the other wolves and Kim better.

"Food is ready" I yelled out the back door of Sam's.

"Thanks Bella" they all called back as the wolves ran through the door making their way to the table.

"Just because you stay here it does not mean you have to feed us" Sam said leaning against the door frame.

"I know that but I like doing it, it gives me something to do."

"If it gets too much please say" he replied back coming into the kitchen fully.

"Ok I will stop cooking my muffins then" I told him as he helped himself to one off of the kitchen counter.

"Anything but them, please don't stop cooking them they are the best" he laughed taking another one before walking towards the table I stood and watched as the wolves demolished all the food I had cooked.

"Bella come sit down" Sam said starting to get up from where he sat.

"No its ok I'm good stood here."

All of a sudden all the wolves froze and stopped talking, I could feel my heartbeat rise in panic thinking that Victoria was here. Sam was the first one to move from the table, making his way to me.

"Bella don't panic it's not the red head it sounds like we have a new wolf" once Sam said that I started to calm down.

"Jared take Bella home Paul run patrol, Jake and Embry come with me I have a feeling its Quil" Sam turned around looking at the table giving out orders.

"Bella I will try to by this evening."

"Ok don't worry if you get a chance" I replied

"Jared will be in the forest by your house shout if you need him" Sam said giving me a light kiss on my forehead and followed the other wolves out the back door.

Twenty minutes later Jared had dropped me off and gone into the forest, I knew Charlie was out fishing with Billy and Harry so decided to catch up with some chores prepare dinner and do some homework, I hate being alone now it makes me think things I try to forget about.

A few hours later with everything done I took my homework back to my bedroom from the kitchen table and thought that I should email Renee, I stopped in the entrance to my room when I noticed another envelope on my bedside table. I grabbed it and walked downstairs to sit on the couch, I wondered how it got here I know Edward must be coming back to leave these letters.

Dear Bella

Please stop thinking about me I know it's hard but you need to live your life and forget about me, you used to like being alone in the silence. Read your favourite books again or maybe buy yourself some new ones, enjoy being alone again it really is not that bad.

From Edward

PS I LOVE YOU

I stuff the letter down the side of the couch, how can I not think of Edward my heart hurts because of him I can feel the hole opening up and wrap my arms around myself to try to stop the pain. I can't stop the loud sobs coming out of my mouth; I'm not even able to stop when I hear Jared coming through the back door.

"Bella are you ok?" Jared asked coming to a stop in front of me, I can't speak so instead all I can do is shake my head.

"Do you want me to get Sam?" He then asked kneeling down so he could look at my face, I try to speak but the sobs won't stop so instead I nod before Jared runs out the back door. I start crying even harder when I begin to feel guilty for taking Sam from his job as Alpha especially with there being a new wolf.

"Bella shh it's ok I'm here calm down" Sam says as he walks into the room and picks me up placing me on his lap, I cuddle into his chest while he removes my arms from around me and replaces them with his. I don't know why but Sam is the only who knows how to calm me down, he doesn't have to say anything and he understands that just being here and holding me is enough.

"Now what was all this about? I though you told me it doesn't hurt as much anymore" Sam asked once I had stopped crying.

"I was just sat here thinking about things" I replied, I can't tell him about the letters I know how much he hates the Cullen's it's not fair to bring them up.

"So who phased?" I asked changing the subject

"Quil"

"Shouldn't you go back out and help him?"

"No he is ok he is happy and thinks it is cool plus Jake and Embry are with him" he replied

"I'm sorry for making you leave them" I told him still feeling guilty.

"You didn't make me Bella, if I couldn't come then Jared would be sat in here with you now" he replied in a stern voice before adding

"Grab your stuff they should be coming to mine soon and I don't want to leave you on your own" I got off his lap and put my shoes on as he quickly locked the back door and made his way to the front door to wait for me.