Clumsy (Damn!)

Summary:To him, I'm invisible like hollow man. I come and go then forgotten. He never looks at me twice. Boom! Splash! Bang! I'm the clumsiest person you'll ever meet. And I want something that I can't have. Damn it!

DISCLAIMER: I don't own Twilight. ;)

Prologue: Damn!

I wanted something but I can't have it. Damn it! Actually, it's more of I like someone but I can't have him! Yup this is one of them love stories where I can't get the guy I want. Totally usual, I know. So, damn him for not wanting me!

Yeah. Yeah. I don't really mean that. Sometimes my situation is just so frustrating that I get crazy. I wouldn't want to force him to feel what I feel. After all, love happens right? I know its crazy to say that but that's how I feel. And I know that I am not mistaken. I am not turning this into some hopeless romantic tale. I know I'm not making my situation worse for thinking that its love when it's not because I believe only I know how I feel. Only I know that this is Love. Would I feel this heart breaking longing when he's not around if it's not? Would I even though he doesn't even know me? If I'm wrong, tell me what this is then? Because this definitely drives me insane.

I accepted the fact that he won't like me long before I realized I already love him. It helps because now I've come to terms of reality. Nobody knows how pathetic I am and I live life the way I'm supposed to. I have fun at school with my friends and laugh and have school as my priority. Yet at the end of everyday, I just can't help wishing.

But no, I'm sure he'd rather have somebody who's not pathetic.

You know what's the most damn thing about it, though? I didn't really like him like that before. I wanted twenty five. He was my seatmate in History and he asked me the answer for number 25 on the test and I never really figured out but he just got my attention. He was a heartthrob so it's not a total shock. Ever since then, me and my best friend Kate called him twenty five. The others don't know about him. He's out of my league and I figured it's just a fantasy – crush. He doesn't really talk to me anyway. Unless, he needs answers. I don't care. Or more like I didn't care. Who is he? His name is Paul Walker. And he has a best friend. They're both tall and built and loved by many. Partners in crime, always together – like brothers. To me though, one is above the other.

Paul's confidant is none other than Jared Thail. Jared Thail whom I unconditionally love. Most excruciating fact of all, Jared Thail doesn't know me.

To him, I'm invisible like hollow man. I come and go then forgotten. He never looks at me twice. I don't think he ever spends time trying to remember who I am when he sees me. Worse, he may not see me at all. Like I said, invisible.

But now, he knows me and he say he loves me. But guess what? He says he's a werewolf too. "The already complicated story was made even more complicated with my family, then ex-girlfriends that I like to call bitches.

To Summarize, I liked Paul before but I love his best friend now – Jared.

Jared Thail. The one guy that seems to think I'm a part of nature camouflaged somewhere in between the trees.

How does that end? When I say it like that…

I think I just declared some serious heartbreak! DAMN!

I really don't think I'm as good as anybody out there. Actually, I think I just suck but I still love doing this so I post but I really would like to know what others think. So, please, review. Even just a smiley face or sad face would do. A check or a cross. just so I know what you think. Thanks! :)