Clumsy (Damn!)

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Chapter 3: I wish

"Hey. Kim. Earth to Kim?"

"Huh?" I said. Then I turned my head and looked for the owner of the voice. It was Kate.

"You okay?" She said.

We were walking on the dark streets of Forks towards the diner where Joy and her 'crew' expect us. And there I was, staring straight but not seeing. Like going through with everything and not knowing exactly where I was going. Lost in my head filled with unwanted thoughts. If not for my friends, I bet my head is not the only place I'd be lost in.

"Yep." Single syllables means 'I don't wanna talk'.

"Okay" Translation, Later.

I wasn't in the mood to talk. I'm not sure if I would be later, but if she really is my best friend I guess she could wait when the momentum strikes, right? I know I don't really have this right or freaking whatever to be this sulky in this situation. I didn't lose anything, everything was the same. I like Jared, he doesn't like me. Nothing new or different there. But I can't help going through the events in my head. It all happened so fast it didn't exactly register in my mind.

When I was there at the party, I kept thinking about how Jared would think of me after what happened that I didn't register the strange way he was looking at me. Somehow, that look says something about what he thinks of me now. He didn't look hurt when the bottle hit him. He sure didn't even look lik he noticed. And then, when he came over and ask who threw the bottle at him he looked genuinely concern. And then when he smiled, it lit up his face. His eyes changed too. It held so much emotion it's hard to explain.

That's what I've been thinking for so long now. His eyes, it looked like he was seeing me and only me-like I'm the only girl in the world. And even if I'm not, which is true, he'd still see me-find me, feel me, know me-wherever the hell I may be. It was unbelievable but it was the only thing I could come up with. Somehow it makes me happy and if not for the confusion and doubt in my mind, I would be ecstatic.

"Ow!" I and focused my eyes on my friends.

Kamille was sitting by the road a pout fixed on her face. Kate kneeled down in front of her and asked her what's wrong. And of course, being the total best actress and total diva of us all, Kams replied,

"I hate this shoes. I so don't know why we have to wear these kind of ugly black shoes just because we're serving rich people. That is like totally not cool. I mean seriously what did they think of our feet? Rocks? Oh no! Maybe my feet will turn to rocks! I'd go paralyzed first, then, then …Oh God! My feet might decay! And, And…" She babbled and continued on with her dramatic (over-reacting?) speech but Kate stopped her mid… mid-well-paragraph.

"Kams. No feet turn into rocks. Human feet, though of course this is scientifically and not religiously but you know I don't think whichever views says that feet turns into rock. Anyways, scientifically, feet and rock are …" Before can start on her genius/nerd script, I went ahead and stopped her.

"Look. No feet turn to rock. Period." I started.

"I see the diner from here. Like two blocks away. I can go borrow you some flip flops from Joy. You guys can stay here. If you're feet doesn't hurt too much, wait, that is your problem right?" She didn't even explain why she was being dramatic. Celebrities.

"Well, we could continue and have dinner. Which one ladies?" And I finished my own speech. Thank you very much.

"Uhm, not to be a pain but can I have the slippers option?" That's Kams-making her life easy and yours… well, harder than it's supposed to be.

"Sure," That's me. "Wait here." Overly-not-caring.

I started walking across the street as I started thinking about Jared again. The weird feeling of knowing where he was. And by the way he acted it seems he has the same feeling. I wonder if finally, he'll notice me and never look aw-

SCREEEEEEEEECH!

The sound of a car trying to stop pulled me out of my wishful thinking but when I turned, bright lights blinded me. I crossed my arms in front of my face shielding my eyes from the lights of the car. I tried to move. But guess what?

Yep. Tripped over my own foot. The clumsiest person in the world dies in the hands – or wheels – of a black shiny truck which according to my very untrustworthy eyesight has an incredibly hot driver.

Way to be thinking about Jared replacements at this time.

I fell, of course, on my butt and it hurt – but not so much any more, of course (years of practice?). But my head hurts too. So, I tried to feel the part where it hurts most. I guess I hit that part too. And then my eyesight got fuzzy but I feel the car come to an abrupt halt. Everything happened so fast and the next thing I knew Mr. Incredibly Hot Driver came barreling out of his car leaned over me and opens his mouth. I didn't hear a single thing. I closed my eyes to try and push away the creeping numbness.

Am I dead?

When I opened my eyes again, it was still fuzzy. Everything seems to go on circles except that incredibly hot driver that looks so much like Jared. I didn't know if it was because I was thinking of him just now or maybe because I wanted him so bad or maybe, just a maybe my crush is too much to be an infatuation. But when I closed my eyes, I saw Jared's face with those big brown eyes that held so much emotion in them and that face-splitting grin until blackness took over my mind. I don't remember anything after that.

.

"Oh fuck. She might be dead. Do you think she is? Oh my gosh. I just murdered my im-" Who was that? I know that voice.

"Stop freaking out. Your worst than Drama Mama over there. Is she okay, Kate?" Now, I know that voice too.

"How should I know? I'm not a doctor you know." Kate. I know that anywhere.

"Oh my God! You don't have an answer! She might be dead! Oh no!" Drama mama over there. Kams all the way!

"Look Britney. She's fine. Okay? Right, Einstein?" That's somebody…

"Britney's a bitch!" Kams yelled at the same time Kate said,

"Einstein's a guy!"

"Whatever. Is she okay or what?" Somebody said.

"I'm okay! Shout some more I might not be!" I half said half groaned. My voice sounded harsh and dry but I so wanted to know who's somebody and the one with him – the first one I heard. That voice was a little more familiar. More so, it makes me feel safer?

I opened my eyes and saw two pairs of eyes staring back at me. They both looked worried. One more concerned than the other and another more on the verge of panicking.

"Stop staring at me." I commanded without joke or hesitation. Full-on authority.

"Sorry." They, meaning Kate and Kams said at the same time. They smiled sheepishly and exhaled a breath of relief.

My head was lying on Kate's lap and my legs were dangling from Kams' knees so my torso was in an awkward and very uncomfortable bend. I stood up slowly, rubbing my eyes to make sure I am awake now and remove the little bit of blur factor in my eyes.

Then, I realized why I was such in an enclosed space that they had to lay me down that way. I was in a car. A Moving car.

"Kim, are you okay?" I turned my head towards the voice which was also by the driver's seat.

It was Jared.

Why does he have to see me in these shitty situations? Couldn't you have come at the start of the ball and not during Cinderella's trip over a glass slipper? I thought.

Might make the fairy's job easier.

Oh who am I kidding? This is hopeless.

"I don't think she's okay." Jared said. His voice was kinda shaking and it was obvious he was scared for my being. If he was the one who almost killed me, which I think is what happened, he should be. If not, I don't know where the intense concern was coming from. "She's just staring."

Kate giggled. Freaking giggled.

She is so gonna get it.

Now, I said, "Fine. I'm fine." To...well, everybody in the car. I wonder whose this is.

All of them seem to breathe another sigh of relief and then it was silent. No more panicking, no more talking.

Then, the car stopped. Looking around, I recognized my house.

Why are we here?

"Aren't we going to the diner?"

"Took care of that. You have to rest, Kim." Kate said. I took that as an explanation and thought that we'd have enough events for the night so questions would be answered next time. She and Kams started going out on either side of the door so I went out too. Jared did as well.

Kams, wearing her flip flops, asked me if it's okay that she takes a rest now. And I said yes. She went upstairs full dramatics coming out of her mouth. Something about too many stairs before my room and too good of a feet to be a rock.

Jared walked me and Kate at the front of the door when Kate a got a call. She thanked Jared and Paul - he was somebody- before excusing herself.

I looked up and I was lost. Jared had on his big brown eyes on maximum power. We stared at each other for so long it seems that Paul eventually blew the car horn.

Jared sighed.

"Thanks." I said awkwardly even though I don't know exactly what happened.

"No problem." He shifted awkwardly too, but sighed again when Paul blew the horn yet again. He is very impatient. Wonder why Joy liked him. Well, I did too.

"Bye." He said, and then ran up the driver's side of the car.

I was waiting for them to pull away but they didn't. Not until I realized they were waiting for me to get in. So I did and I watched the car pull away from the front of my house through the window.

When the car was nowhere in sight, I went to sit at the living room chair, opened the TV and did what I was doing before all the 'event' happened - watching without seeing, All the while thinking about what ifs.

What if it was my and Jared's date and that was why he walked me to the porch in front of the door? What if the moment we shared was supposed to be anticipation for our first kiss? What if Paul didn't blow his horn, would the previous what if have happened? Most hurtful or joyful, depending on the answer, was what if he likes me now?

I wish.

A/N

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