Finally updated. Sorry it's taking me so long, work is a bitch and Brittana canon is so good at the moment that it's hard to find inspiration. As I promised, this chapter is a lot longer than last one.
I don't own glee.
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"Wait, you actually did not spike the punch this time Noah? Because Lauren told you not to? What are you, her fucking lapdog?" Santana looked at him with a horrified expression, Lily gave her a look. After Puck shrugged his shoulders and walked away she quickly grabbed Santana's arm to lead to her to a more quiet spot.
"Hey, chill babe, you don't need the liquor to go for it."
Santana looked like she was about to cry. "Yes I do, I know how that goes. I'm not really a good talker Lily, the first time I actually opened up and told her about my feelings she.. well.. you know how that went."
Lily nodded.
"Well, nobody said is was gonna be easy Santana, and besides, you look gorgeous. She'll probably won't even notice if you stutter because she's gonna be too busy trying to control herself and not immediately jump you."
Santana smiled. "Hm, but I do want her to listen."
"She will."
Santana nodded and scanned the room. First thing she noticed was a wheelchair. 'Great' she thought, 'Wheels is also wearing red". She looked down at her tight red dress but smirked knowing she looked a lot hotter than him. Actually, he looked pretty horrible, she got a strong Austin Powers vibe there.
"Guess he's here." Lily said. "But where's Brittany?"
Santana turned around to meet Brittany's eyes. She was standing a couple of feet away, wearing a lime green dress. A dress that Santana would've thought was horrible on any other person but Brittany somehow managed to pull it off. And not only did she pull it off, she looked stunning in it. Santana eyed her body and when she looked up Brittany was still staring at her, mouth open. The Latina smirked and made her way over to the blonde.
Right before she reached her she stopped again. Both girls stood there, checking each other out, smiling. Brittany eventually broke the silence. "Wow.." she whispered. "Wow to you too" Santana stepped forward and pulled Brittany in for a hug. "Jesus Britt, you look.. Wow.. Beautiful.". Brittany nodded. "So do you Santana, I'm just.. speechless."
Brittany's expression changed as Santana felt someone come up from behind her. "Sweetie, do you mind if I go dance with that guy with the big mouth?" Lily asked. Santana turned around to kiss her "No, go ahead". Lily winked at both girls and quickly made her way back to the dance floor. "So uhm" Brittany started. "Do you wanna dance too?" she nervously asked. "What about Artie?" "He won't mind." Santana could hear that Brittany said that more to convince herself than to convince Santana, she smiled. "Let's go"
Both girls made their way over to the dance floor and started dancing, it had been ages since they had danced together and Santana had almost forgotten how Brittany could totally mesmerize her. When she and Brittany were dancing nothing else mattered. Not all the people dancing around them, not the stupid boy in the wheelchair watching them from a distance, not the sweet British girl who was dancing a couple of feet away with Sam, no. Only Brittany mattered.
She moved a little closer and Brittany seemed to enjoy it, turning around to grind her body against Santana's. They moved like that for a while and Santana pushed Brittany's hair away to rest her face in Brittany's neck. Before she knew what she was doing she kissed the soft skin of the blonde's neck but Brittany didn't seem to mind. She grabbed Santana's hand as a response and put it on her hip to encourage Santana to move in even closer. Just as Santana thought she had to be dreaming someone tapped her arm.
"Mind if I cut in?" Artie looked up at her.
"Yeah, actually I do." Santana responded in her usual bitchy ways. "San" Brittany said. "Don't"
"Don't what? Oh I get it, well I'll just go find Lily then.. Have a good night."
She didn't know why she was pissed off so sudden. It was only normal of the blonde girl to want to dance with her boyfriend. She did choose him, not her. But the sensation of her dance with the blonde just seconds ago made that realization even worse. Brittany tried to stop her, tried to grab her arm but she was gone already.
As Santana tried to exit the gym she passed Lily and Sam. Lily saw her and immediately followed.
"San, you got some sweet moves there baby!" She joked but when Santana turned around she noticed the tears in her eyes.
"Hey, what's up? Ohmygod did she turn you down?" She grabbed Santana and held her close. "I didn't tell her."
"Why not?" Santana sighed as she pulled back from Lily's embrace, tears now streaming down her cheek. "Because the stupid wheelchair boy had to come and ruin it all again, and she didn't even mind."
"What are you talking about?"
"Artie asked me if he could cut in, I told him no but Brittany wanted him to. Why would I even bother telling her that I would do anything to be with her, if she prefers to dance with him. He's in a wheelchair for fucks sake, he can't even dance."
Lily grabbed both of Santana's hands.
"You still have to tell her San, even if it means getting turned down again. Obviously it's too hard for you to be around her when she's still with him. Maybe you should just tell her that, tell her that she really has to make a decision?"
"I just.. I can't Lily. I just have to be with her, I just have to. I love her so fucking much. I know this is highschool and the chances of meeting your soulmate are like zero, but she is mine, I just know it. And what if I'm not hers? What if he is her soulmate? That would just crush me Lily, I can't bear to hear that."
She started crying even harder.
"I've always had her, she was always with me, mine. Even when she started dating that stupid kid I still had her, not officially but I was still able to hold her whenever I wanted to, to kiss her, to touch her. And then I had to fuck it all up by telling her, and now I can't have her in any way anymore, not even in a non-official way. I can't tell her again, I just can't."
Lily looked at her, then looked past her.
"You just did" she responded.
Santana turned around to meet Brittany's tear filled eyes. She felt like she couldn't breath, like something had just sucked all the air out of her. Before she knew what was happening Brittany grabbed her arm and pulled her with her. They left the big gym, leaving behind a very worried looking Lily, and eventually ended up outside of McKinley. They stood there for a couple of seconds just staring at each other. Santana didn't know what to do, staring awkwardly at her feet. She looked up again to see that Brittany was still staring at her. "Well, are you going to say anything Britt?"
Brittany didn't, instead she walked forward, grabbed Santana's face and kissed her, hard. Santana didn't know what to do first until she gave in, slid her arms around Brittany's waist and kissed her back. The kiss was nothing like they'd ever experienced before, so much passion, so much love yet so much pain. The salty taste of both the girls tears, combined with the bubblegum taste of Brittany's lipgloss. It couldn't have tasted better. Santana tightened her grip on the blonde as she felt Brittany's tongue slide against her own, deepening the kiss. They stayed like that for a long time, both totally lost in the moment. Lost in the kiss.
After what seemed like ages they were interrupted by someone coughing. Both girls immediately pushed each other away, looking to their left to find Quinn standing there.
"Quinn, I.. We.." Santana started.
"I know" the ex-head cheerleader responded. "Believe me, I've always known. But that doesn't mean that I approve of what you're doing here. Lily's in there Santana, and so is Artie."
She pointed at the school.
"He's been looking all over for you Brittany, imagine what would've happened if he found you two here."
"He wouldn't have." Brittany said in a weak voice.
"Oh but I sure did, you two are lucky it's me. Now tell me, was it worth it?"
"Worth what?" Both girls asked in unison.
"Was it worth it to kiss her Britt, even though your boyfriend is in there?"
Brittany looked at her surprised and hesitated for a second.
"It was.." she said after a while. Santana gasped for air and Brittany quickly grabbed her hand.
"So you would actually rather be with Santana than Artie?" Quinn continued.
"Yes." Brittany said, now with a lot more confidence.
"Then I suggest both of you make a deal to meet up tomorrow. Talk about your feelings and whatever you're going to do, I don't even want to know, and get back to prom now."
"Why tomorrow?" Santana finally spoke.
"Because both of your dates are waiting there for you. You two are not going to ruin Artie and Lily's nights just because you were too scared to admit that you actually want to be each other's date."
Santana nodded.
"She has a point Britt."
"Yeah.. I guess she does."
Quinn chuckled. "Well, I'm going back in. I hope to see you two again in a short while." She said as she started walking away. When she'd almost reached the door she turned around again.
"Hey" she called causing Brittany and Santana to look at her again. "I'm glad you two finally figured it out." She said with a wink as she entered the school building again.
When Quinn was gone Santana grabbed Brittany's other hand too and turned towards her again. "We'll go in there, and dance with our dates and have a good time. But I want you to know that you are the only thing I'm gonna be thinking about."
Brittany smiled at her. "Same" she whispered before leaning in to capture Santana's lips with her own again. "I love you S."
"I love you too B."
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"Why won't you tell me anything?" Lily said. Ever since the Latina had come back she had had the biggest smile on her face, but refused to tell her anything. "I'll tell you tomorrow." Santana giggled. "Is it good?" Lily asked.
"It is."
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Thanks for reading. Maybe I should end the story with this chapter, it depends on whether I get some inspiration again. I do feel like I should maybe at least write about the next day and them getting back together. Interested? Let me know!