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The Sayjin Inside

Chapter 20: Whole Again

A/N: You all are going to love this chapter I'm sure.

Goku watched, as his ki was just about to break. "I'm sorry I let you down…"

Chi-Chi only gripped his hands. "You didn't let me down. You're willing to give it all for me and our baby…" She spoke softly and closed her eyes, ready to embrace the end with her love…

Just as the barrier ripped and the rush of energy came at them, Goku felt something with Chi-Chi beside him. He knew something inside his head had snapped. Throwing his hands around her, he twisted his back to the onslaught of energy that ripped over him and grit his teeth.

"Hah! It's all over. Even if she's dead I will just revive her and make sure she's broken for all time once I get my hands on her," Kakarot snickered as he moved to deal with the remaining Z-Senshi, but a flash of ki behind him drew back his attention.

There in a glowing golden, violet orb he saw Goku, his form untouched as he held Chi-Chi. The protective barrier was unfamiliar to him, but he could feel Goku's power radiating. With another flash, the violet barrier glowed a brighter hue, with Goku's golden aura making it a light violet. Chi-Chi fell to the ground and passed out. Goku turned around with his fists balled.

"What the hell? You should be dead! Just how are you still alive?" Kakarot yelled out as Goku began marching towards him. "I hate it when you refuse to die!" Kakarot aimed his hand at Goku, but he felt nothing. His power… was gone.

"Sorry… Kakarot… but have you forgotten that we are both tied to Chi-Chi? Her will is apart of the real us. She chose me to have the power, to lay it all on the line. So no matter what you try now, it is useless," Goku said, as he continued to walk towards him.

"So what? No power? I still have my fists and you don't have much left either!" Kakarot jumped straight at Goku, swinging for his face but missing. Goku's fist crushed into his gut, knocking Kakarot backwards.

"I was picked over you, your body won't fight it because we're not whole. If she didn't choose me, we would remain strong but with her will done we don't have a choice… Because we are bound to her as she is to us. She gave me her heart, her love, and her desire to have me as her husband, her lover! You don't deserve any part of it," Goku said fiercely. "It's all a matter of who is true, who is good. You might be inside me; you might control my subconscious mind. But who is in charge… who is strong, is me not you!"

"You think that matters? Deep inside you've always liked having that hidden motive and strength. I give you confidence to fight, your drive to become greater," Kakarot snickered as he righted himself.

"Maybe you did but look at me now? Does it look like I need you?" Goku said as he charged his hand with ki.

"So what do you think will happen? I'll just come back over and over again. Besides with me inside you, you'll never be comfortable around her. You won't be able to forgive yourself for what you let me do," Kakarot laughed. Goku snarled.

"I'm tired of looking at you… and listening to you. Kakarot, it's time you go back to where you belong!" With a bright flash of light Goku's hand released a ball of ki. Kakarot could have moved but he knew his chances then. He couldn't win.

The explosion engulfed Kakarot. Goku approached before the dust even began to settle. Standing tall, he looked down at Kakarot with a smirk on his face. "I'll be let loose in the future Goku and I will be in charge." He chuckled before closing his eyes and letting himself dissipate.

His body became a cloud of red mist then floated up into the air. Goku closed his eyes as it sunk into his skin and filled his body. The mist filling him again made him feel whole once more. Goku waited as Kakarot went back into the deep recesses of his mind; forever they were apart of each other. He listened as a haunting laughter faded away deep in his mind.

"I'm never going to go, I'm going to stay, and I'm going to haunt you so long as you live!"

He felt himself falling, his body becoming weightless. His power faded too; he felt himself become normal … for the first time in a very, very long time.

Slowly after he had fallen, he awoke, his eyes cracking open as he found himself in a comfortable bed. His surroundings were all white, his room decorated with silken drapes. There was sunshine, and food… Wait where am I? Goku looked around frantically, as uncertainty rushed through him. He fell off the bed in his rush. Groaning, he felt himself go lightheaded; he noticed forbidden fruit lying next to him. She looked peaceful and undisturbed, her form still asleep. Her arm was draped across his stomach, her gentle breathing gracing his ears. He calmed down, realizing she was alive and well. Lying back down, he recognized where he was… their home. It had been so long… so very long, living trapped inside his own mind, prey to his other side, which took advantage of the one weakness he held. Hurting the most treasured person he ever had, killing people, and nearly killing them both.

Just what am I? I can't possibly be human… Am I like Kami? I have a second half that lives inside me? I am the being of lightness and Kakarot the being of darkness? Do I have any strength to control him later? Sure, I have beat him, saved the world, saved my wife, and restored myself to normalcy… for the time being. But could he really endanger everyone again? Could he hope that things might work out for his benefit again?

Looking to his side at his wife, he wondered if he could dare to put her through anything like that again. "No, I never could; she has suffered enough. She was put through all that because of me." He sighed heavily, looking to the door. He knew what was best for her…

He understood that the monster could always come back and ruin his future along with the entire planet. He made too many people suffer at the expense of Kakarot's wrath. He had already let Kakarot kill plenty, and it was enough for Goku to suffer for the rest of his life.

"I'm sorry Chi-Chi. We found each other again, and I'm happy that we did… but I," Goku's eyes tearing, "but I'm not going to stay to let you ever get hurt again." He muttered, looking away in shame Even while she slept he couldn't look at her without being pained by guilt.

He knew what had to be done to make sure that no one else would suffer because of the darkness inside him. Slowly and carefully, he removed Chi-Chi's hand from his stomach and placed it on the sheets. "Please forgive, me but for the safety of all creation, I have to go…" He leaned and brushed his lips against her forehead and pulled himself away from her warmth and comfort.

He walked out of the room, heading into the kitchen, which he noted had been thoroughly cleaned. He reached over, let his hand grasp a handle, and drew out a large cutting knife. He looked around and knew it would be worse for anyone to have to clean the kitchen over again and scrubbing off his splattered blood would only make it harder.

Walking outside, his hand loosely holding the knife, he closed the door behind him, and walked up to the small ledge behind his grandfather's house. It was a shallow valley but it would do.

Pointing the knife upwards he closed his eyes, drawing it up just below his throat. His hands were shaking, his eyes felt like burning, and he bit his lip as he felt himself quiver. It's all for the best, everyone will understand… They know… I…hope… He closed his eyes tighter as he felt his tears sliding down the sides of his face.

"GOKU! No stop!" He heard someone scream but he focused straight ahead.

Chi-Chi came rushing from the house as she saw Goku pointing the knife at his throat. She was an arm's length away from Gohan's old house when she saw Goku fall to his knees, the knife bouncing off the ground and over the ledge…

MajinBroli R&R you gotta love cliffies?