Warnings: Misa-being-a-retard-because-she-was-born-that-way themes. Yaoi/Shounen-ai/Slashable characters: L and Light. Rated M for smut, language and boy kissing.

Summary: Kira brought Raito to L, the one person he could love. But, is love enough to concur the evil that is Kira? Or, is that love itself the true evil? L's life is at stake, and Raito is the only one who can save it, but will he? L/Light, Mello/Near. Yaoi.

Disclaimer: Owns a box, and a Chibi L.

Chibi L: Excuse me?

Me: You are excused.

Chibi Raito: Oh, the competition.

Chibi Mikami: Ooh, God...

Me: Why do you call him God?

Chibi Misa: He's in love.

Chibi L: You're kidding.

Chibi Mello: Speakin' of love, where's my fuck buddy at?

Me: ...In Japanese, please?

Chibi Mello: Where's Near?

Chibi Sayu: Good point.

Me: You'd better stay tuned and find out.

Chibi Watari: Read! Review!

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So, let go, jump in
Oh, well, what you waiting for?
It's alright
'Cause there's beauty in the breakdown

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Death Note:
Redemption

By NinjaKittyx3

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"Raaaiiiittoooooo…" the horrible monster bellowed at him. "Hurry up. I'm bored."

Raito sighed. "Patience, I'll get it done once I've thought of a plan."

The monster circled him, gliding across the floor, with its un-needed legs at its sides. It had a horrible slouch, a bit like L's, only a lot worse. It's arms hung loosely in front of it, just dangling there as if they never got used. A horrible greyish-black colour clouded Raito's vision as the thing approached him.

It looked as though it was going to eat him, until it turned all puppy-dog on him and moaned, "Gimme an apple!"

Raito sighed and opened his top drawer, where a small black book was placed, and on top of it was a shiny, red apple. Raito picked it up and threw it in the direction of the monster, who wailed happily. He admired the apple for a split second before biting off half of it – something no human with a normal sized mouth could do.

"Satisfied?" Raito asked, turning around in his chair to face the window. "That's the last apple. I'll need to go out to the store if you need another."

"Hyuk, hyuk, hyuk." The monster laughed cold-heartedly, consuming the remains of the apple in its hand. Oh, so it did use its arms. "You're in deep shit, Raito."

Raito inwardly glared at the way it said his name, it made him feel less important, and godly. "You said if I forfeited ownership that I'd lose all my memories, right?"

"So what if I did?" It 'hyuk-ed'.

Raito grinned evilly at it. "And my memories will return if I only touch it?"

"What're you planning, Raito?"

Raito smiled and fished into his drawer, before pulling out that little black book, holding it as though it was his only reason for survival. "You're a hopeless Shinigami, Ryuk."

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Raito jolted awake in bed, handcuffs jingling, but otherwise, into a quiet room. Next to him, L slept soundly, his face peaceful, and the bags under his eyes slowly fading away.

Wow, he actually sleeps.

Raito lay back down, recovering from his nightmare.

What was that all about? It didn't feel like a normal nightmare.

It felt like… it felt like he'd been there before, and was only reliving forgotten memories.

No, surely Raito would have remembered that… that thing.

The one he – himself – called a Shinigami.

Ryuk.

Ryuk?

The name didn't ring any bells at all, and Raito had an excellent memory.

Shinigami, huh?

Roughly translated, a God of Death.

I think not. Such things do not exist. Shut up, Raito.

And what was the black book? What relevance did that hold? If any at all?

Honestly, Raito's dreams were getting stranger every night.

Why did he look so evil?

Why was he in deep shit?

And why, oh why, was he not running from the monster who dared call to itself Shinigami?!

Just… what exactly was I planning…?

Glancing at the clock on his bedside table, unconsciously realising he was still in his own house, his own room, and his own bed; he saw it was into the early hours of the morning.

Good, he'd still get at least twenty minutes more to sleep before he woke up at his normal six am.

Rolling over and sighing, he bumped into someone, who sniffed and groaned quietly. Briefly realising it was L, who was apparently sharing his bed, even though there was a spare, he gazed at his somewhat sleeping face. The man looked so peaceful while sleeping, it was calming even to himself. To see L's face without all the worry and stress of the case.

Slowly, Raito brushed back some hairs from L's face to see his full face. L's nose wrinkled for a moment, sensing disturbance even in sleep, but then went back to normal again as he continued his quiet and rare sleep.

Raito smiled at that. He drew his hand away and settled for just gazing at the man.

It must have been at least ten minutes until Raito moved, having been staring at L the whole time. He shifted slightly, turning onto his back and tilting his head towards L to gaze at him still.

"As I've pointed out before…" L spoke, but kept his eyes close, startling Raito "It is very hard to do something while someone is staring at you, Raito-kun." As he said Raito's name, his eyes opened wide like normal and looked at him.

"A-ah, I didn't mean to wake you." Raito stuttered quietly, looking at the ceiling. "I wasn't even looking at you…"

L smiled slightly. "Yes, I believe Raito-kun was watching me sleep."

"Hmph." Raito puffed moodily and stared at the ceiling while L enjoyed himself.

"Does my sleeping interest you, Raito-kun?"

"…"

"…"

"…Sort of."

Raito sighed, giving in and satisfying L. "You're always worrying or working when you're awake… but when you sleep… all the worry and stress… leaves your face…"

By this time, L had snuggled closed to Raito and wrapped an arm around his waist, his finger drawing circles around Raito's bare belly-button.

He gazed up at Raito, who still had his eyes fixated on the ceiling.

"You look… more peaceful and well…" Raito started to blush, but kept going anyway, knowing he'd never hear the end of it if he didn't finish. "It's a nice thing to see. How someone can look so beautiful…" Raito trailed off, eyes widening as he realised he said something that was not intended.

L's finger stopped drawing circles around Raito's belly-button. He leaned on his elbow and gazed at Raito. "Raito-kun… thinks I am… beautiful…?"

"…" Raito blushed hard and turned his head the other way, facing out his window and towards where he had been sitting in his nightmare. His eyes ran over the drawer that held the black notebook.

He'd have to check later…

L touched Raito's cheek with his right hand and turned his face back around, but Raito refused to look at him. "Raito-kun, look at me, please."

Slowly, Raito's eyes met L's, who seemed to be searching his for something. After a few moment's, L stopped looking and slowly smiled.

"I think Raito-kun is beautiful…" he whispered, and leaned in towards Raito. Their lips met in bliss, and slowly melted together. Raito leaned into the kiss, the blush apparent on his cheeks from the comment from L, and his own confession. L kissed back softly, asking for entrance, which was quickly granted, and it was becoming a bit of a routine. L explored Raito's mouth thoroughly, excavating every little crevice and playing happily with the other's tongue.

Shyly, yes shyly, L crawled on top of Raito, whose eyes fluttered in surprise, but quickly closed again. L kissed harder, holding Raito's face, as Raito's own arms rested at L's hips.

Raito suddenly felt heated again.

His body and L were hot.

To him, anyway, he didn't know if L felt the same.

This was becoming too much, they'd have to stop before Raito lost his self-control. And since when did L get to be on top anyway?

Had he missed that or something?

Raito broke away, gasping for air and L gazed quietly at him.

"Are you alright?" L whispered, rubbing Raito's cheek.

"I'm fine. Sorry." Raito whispered back, eyes closing as he leaned his head against the pillow. "I'm losing my self-control with you."

L nodded quietly in understanding, but still gazed at those closed eyes. "I should apologise?" It was said like a question.

"Of course not."

"Raito-kun…" L started but trailed off, biting his lip.

Raito opened one eye. "Hmm?"

"…" L stopped chewing his lip and looked dead into Raito's eyes. "I think I lo-"

The alarm went off.

"Raito! Wake up! Misa is here to see you!"

… Oh. Joy.

Breakfast was a quiet event, to say the least – even though Misa was present.

But the glare that L was giving her made everyone at the table keep quiet – even her. She cowered into Sayu, who uncomfortably eased away slightly from both her and L at the same time. Soichiro was not present; he was at work already, so Sachiko was somewhat alone when it came to adults. Never would she fully understand the minds of teenagers – ever. And she didn't think she even wanted to either.

Not that it mattered much anyway.

Slowly, Sayu rose from the table, grabbing her bowl whilst doing so. Misa rose with her, looking down and facing anywhere but L. Sayu smiled slightly at Raito, who did the same. She walked to the kitchen, followed by Misa – as if they had handcuffs too – and placed her bowl into the sink. Misa imitated her.

"Let's get out of here." Sayu whispered. Misa nodded and Sayu approached the table once again, but Misa hung back. "Oka-san, Misa and I are going out for a little while."

Sachiko turned and stood, taking her bowl with her and summoning Sayu into the kitchen with Misa. She gave Sayu a look that simply said; 'You're going to leave me alone with those two?'.

Sayu shook her head. "They'll be leaving shortly – dad has even left."

Sachiko hummed and went about the task of washing the bowls. Misa took a towel and began to help her dry. Sayu watched the scene for a minute, and then silently strolled back into the main room.

And, L was playing with one of Raito's hands when he didn't see her some in. Sayu held back the fan girl squeal and hid behind the wall separating the two rooms.

…Sqweeeeaaallsss!

She cleared her throat and shouted; "Raito, are you done with your bowls?!" Then she casually returned to the room to find them sitting the way they were when Misa and Sachiko were still in the room.

"Yeah, I'll do it." Raito said, standing, making L stand up too.

"Oh, that's fine Ryuzaki. You're the guest, I'll get your bowl." Sayu smiled at the man and gently took the bowl from his hands. L blinked, then smiled back. Sayu was definitely not Kira – she's so sweet to everyone. She took Raito's bowl also. "Shouldn't you get going? I'm sure the great and handsome detective is waiting for you, Raito."

Raito blinked.

L blinked.

Sayu grinned.

Oh, the amusement.

Back at headquarters. Soichiro was complaining about the fruit bowl in the kitchen.

"What seems to be the problem, Yagami-san?" L asked, nibbling on his thumb, not taking his eyes of the computer screen.

"Three damn apples have gone missing in the last hour!" Soichiro complained.

Raito snapped to attention.

Apples?

"Apples?" Raito asked, standing up.

"No one has ate them, and I assure you – it was not Matsuda." Soichiro sighed, waving his hand dismissively. "I've been with him all day."

Over the other side of the room, Matsuda blinked. "Hey, wait a minu-"

"The apples are not that big of a deal, I'm sure Yagami-san realises." L sighed, eyeing the computer screen. "But if he is that bothered by the fact that they are 'missing', he may go to Watari and check the security tapes."

"Hmph." Soichiro sighed and collapsed into a chair beside Raito's.

Raito blinked slowly, sitting down.

Apples have gone missing?

…Apples have gone missing.

Apples – they've gone missing.

Apples + missing + nowhere to be found = ?

Raito sighed, and then the thought hit him.

Apples missing?! The dream?! Ryuk?! SHINIGAMI?! GOD OF DEATH?!

Oh, hell no. This was not happening. It was all just a big coincidence, that's all it was.

Don't be an idiot Raito.

Shinigami do not exist.

That's right, forget all-

"It's ironic, isn't it Raito-kun?" L's voice sounded.

Raito's head snapped towards him. "What's ironic?"

"…" L blinked as he realised that the thing he was about to say should not be said in front of Soichiro. "The fact that no one was killed on Sayu's birthday."

L though just about everyone in the room blinked at him after he'd said that.

"Ryuzaki… when we were in my room…"

L turned to Raito's sleeping form on the bed. Raito's eyes slowly met his, the light from the laptop was reflecting on the other's face. "Yes, Raito-kun?"

"I had a dream." Raito said quietly.

"Oh?" L sounded barely interested, but his eyes bore into Raito's slitted ones.

"And…" Raito thought his words carefully.

He didn't want to up his Kira percent any more than it was.

He settled for something that was somewhat the truth.

"About an apple."

L blinked at him a few times, before it set in that Soichiro was complaining of taking the apples. "Did Raito-kun take the three apples?"

"No…" Raito sighed and L put down his laptop.

He slowly wrapped his arms around Raito, and nuzzled into his neck.

"Raito-kun, if you did not take the apples, then there is nothing to worry about. Though, considering the timing, it is merely a coincidence."

Was the last thing Raito head before drifting to sleep in L's warms arms.

Me: Right, so-

Chibi Mello: Oh no you don't. Where is Near?

Me: Near is at Wammy's.

Chibi L: Which is where you should be. –glare of death-

Me: -snicker- Would that be called a Shiniglare?

Chibi Raito: What's the Japanese for 'glare'?

Chibi Sayu: I'm not really sure.

Chibi Misa: Is that even a word?

Chibi Raito: No, Misa, it's not. Hey, look! A pony!

Chibi Misa: WHERE?!

Me: See, Raito, that's why you pissed me off in the anime.

Chibi Mikami: 'Cause he shouted at Misa?

Me: Yes. I like Misa.

Chibi Sayu: Who'd you say was your favourite character?

Me: Mikami. No questions asked.

Chibi Mikami: Really? –sparkly eyes-

Me: Yep! DELETE!

Chibi Mikami: Together we will delete all those who don't deserve to live!

Me: I'm with you!

*In the desert somewhere*

Chibi Matt: We are so screwed.

Chibi BB: How did we even get here?

Chibi Near: Stop talking. The more you talk, the more words Ninja gets.

Chibi Matt: So?

Chibi Near: So, then she can pretend to readers that her actually fan fic is that long.

Chibi Kira: Wanna shut it?

Chibi Matt: Waah! Review!