Her True Demon

Summary: When Raven loses control of her hatred everything will change. Her memories get destroyed by her rage and she loses her humanity, revealing her true demon side. Will the Raven the titans all know and one even loves be lost forever?

Chapter 1

Out of Control

When Star and Rob were conscious again, they told them what happened.

Robin frowned, "Are you sure it was Raven?"

"Yes, I mean she did not even seem to know you and as you described her she does not look like our friend." Starfire added, with worried and concerned eyes.

BB walked toward them, "Dude that was definitely her! Who else has four red eyes?"

Cyborg agreed, "I scanned her and confirmed it. It's Raven, but we need to find out what happened to her to make her…lose control."

"If it is her, I think she's done more than lost control since she doesn't even know who we are. Let's go back to the tower and see if we can find any clues." The Boy wonder suggested.

Once they arrived at the tower, they found all the windows were shattered and so was practically everything inside.

"It's like a tornado went through here," Cy said, looking grimly at his garage.

"Well, spread out team," Robin ordered, "there has to be some clues around here."

Beast Boy wasted no time and ran straight to Raven's room. He stopped at the door and nervously opened the door to find her room in a bigger mess than the rest of the tower. Every book was ripped, every statue and glass or fragile thing was shattered, her bed and pillows were torn and feathers littered the room, and the furniture was all slashed to peaces and scattered throughout the room. BB noticed that the mess surrounded one small part of the rug that had not been covered with things but was still ripped. Changing into a dog he sniffed the area and smelled Raven. It held both her old scent and the new scent of the Raven they had met at the park. He then thought of her mirror and looked around to see it on the floor by the place where her bed used to be. The glass was shattered. The green titan put it down and sighed sadly, his ears drooping "Raven." The wind blew through the windows and his ears twitched, hearing something bang against the wall. "Huh?" He followed it to the wall and when he touched it he felt a door knob. Curious, he turned it and opened it to see a closet full of things that had not been harmed in the slightest….and all of them were things he had given Raven that she had said she didn't like or want. At the top were all the stuffed animals he had won her at the carnival and below those were birthday gifts. He reached for the black diary he had given her (almost a year ago) with the dark blue raven on the cover. Her scent lingered on it that showed she had handled it recently. Opening the book he found she had actually started writing a diary in it. He read the first entry.

June 6

I've never kept a diary before but as long as I have one now, I might as well start. I wouldn't even have this thing if Beast Boy didn't give it to me today as a birthday present. I told him I didn't keep a diary and would never use it and he looked so sad as he walked away. I felt guilty and I guess that's the reason why I'm writing in this thing. I don't know what to write in here so I guess I'll just write if I feel strong emotions or something.

A smile formed on the green titan's lips. She had used the diary. He flipped forward to see if she had written anything today so far.

January 15

I don't know what to do. Everything's getting worse. My friends asked me to go to the park with them but I couldn't chance it. Rage keeps growing stronger with each passing second. Her roaring voice is giving me a migraine and I can't sense my other emotions anymore. My memory seems to be fogging up because I'm having trouble remembering everything. It's like they're disappearing.

The page was ripped and he assumed that was when she had put the diary back in its proper place. So that's why she's been so angry and frustrated lately. He thought as he turned back the pages until he found what sounded like when it had all started.

September 23

For some reason Rage is getting stronger. Knowledge told me that she's feeding off something but neither her or the other emotions can figure out what. Aside from that, Beast Boy keeps insisting he saw Terra and that she doesn't remember us and is now going to high school. He's getting depressed again and Robin said we should just leave him alone for a while. I don't think that's what he needs though so I'm going to try to help, even though I have no idea what to do. Besides, he did the same for me when I was hurt.

September 24

I talked to him and he at least comes out of his room but doesn't seem as cheerful as he usually is. He smiled and hugged me when I said I wasn't any good at comforting but I'd try. I hugged him back this time and let him cry. I felt angry at Terra for doing this to him again but I also felt like crying with him. I held back on both emotions, knowing it was dangerous. I don't know how long we stayed like that and for some reason I don't at all mind him hugging me. He hasn't told me any jokes today but he says he'd like to talk again.

Rage is still growing.

Beast Boy would've read more because he wanted to see if Raven felt the same way he did but helping her was more important. He turned forward a bunch of pages until he reached the beginning of January. Then he went to the day when Raven had started acting more distant and angry.

January 10

I'm not sure how long I can hold Rage back. She's broken free of her realm already and is still growing stronger. My other emotions are trying to fight her but they can only fight so much when Rage is so powerful. Knowledge said it isn't Trigon giving her the energy and that my connection to him is still non existent since I stoped him from taking over Earth. I'm going to have to spend a lot more time meditating and alone if I'm going to hold Rage back. Her influence is so strong that I get angry at all my friends for just worrying about me and asking what's wrong. Luckily, I haven't blown anything up yet.

He closed the book and went to the main room, calling his friends to meet him there.

"What did you find Beast Boy?" Robin asked.

"I think you're right Rob. Raven did more than lose control. She never figured out how but Rage was growing off of something and becoming stronger until she had full control of Rae, I guess." The changeling explained.

"How do you know," Cyborg asked. "And what's that," he pointed to the diary in his hand.

"This is Raven's diary. According to her, Rage has been gaining power for months but just barely broke out of her place in Raven's mind about five days ago." BB informed them.

Starfire gasped, "You read friend Raven's diary?"

The green teen laughed nervously, "Well it was the only way I could find out what was going on."

"Hey, isn't that the one you gave Raven for her birthday?" The tin man asked. "And didn't she say she'd never use it?"

The changeling smiled, "I guilted her into it. At least that's what she said in the first entry."

"Why didn't she tell us," the Boy Wonder asked.

"She thought she could stop it herself. Then when Rage broke free she had to spend all her time holding her back so she didn't have time to ask." Beast Boy spoke.

"Why didn't she remember us though," Cyborg asked curiously.

BB answered his question, "Well, before she lost control she said she was having trouble remembering everything and it was like her memories were disappearing. Plus, another reason why Rage has such a hold is most likely because her other emotions disappeared."

Everyone stared at the changeling for a moment, wondering when he started to act so smart.

"How are we going to help friend Raven gain control?" Star asked, breaking the silence.

Everyone looked at each other. How would they help Raven get back to normal?

Beep! Beep! Beep!

The alarm rang.