"What is so worth saving? I see nothing but pain here. I see inside you. I see your guilt, your anger, confusion. In paradise, all is forgiven. You'll be at peace. Even with Sam."
You doubt that. That you could ever forgive Sam.
That you could ever be without your too-deeply-ingrained guilt-anger-confusion
That paradise would be paradisiacal. You saw too much in Hell for you to believe in Heaven.
You doubt that this planet is not worth saving. That there is only pain here. You remember this thing called love.
But you know that it has long since forsaken you.