"I tried, Sammy. I mean, I really tried. But I just can't keep pretending that everything's alright. Because it's not. And it's never going to be. You chose a demon over your own brother-"
How can anything ever be alright after that?
I mean, sure, you've been acting like nothing happened, but that's just cause you have a job to do. Head in the game and all that.
But you don't think you can ever forgive him. You don't think you can ever hold him again like you used to.
And that breaks your heart into a million pieces.