rory went back to her apartment, she was trying to get sleep but in vain, she was intrigued by logan huntzburger beneath that playboy facade he is hiding something. The main reason rory didn't over react like logan is that she is used to be treated like that by both her grandparents, she remembered the dinner during after her mother's funeral ,the gilmores and the hayden's argued about her flashback emily is sobbing "my daughter is dead because of this abomination, if she isn't born she would have stayed with us and married christopher happily".
straub commented " this girl is a mistake, and my son's life is ruined because of her".
richard growled "hey my daughter is dead, don't blame completely on my daughter, she should have married christopher after she is pregnant, but what can we do, she ran away with this girl, if she hasn't existed my daughter would have gone to yale which is our legacy".
straub replied " ok i will agree this isn't your daughter's fault it's her fault" pointing at dejected rory.
end of flashback

rory didn't even protest during that dinner because she thought what they said is true. she ruined lorelai's life because she is born and christopher life because lorelai didn't marry him because of rory and her mother shouldn't have died in the accident if she had told that she want's to study at starshollow high but she jumped like she was going to chilton and enjoy there, she know's that her mother didn't have money to pay fees for chilton.
Her mother wouldn't have approached her grandparents for money and wouln't have died in the car crash, it happened all because of rory's selfishness.
Both her grandparent's were dissapointed and led live's without their son and daughter because of her.
she is a mistake, a dissapointment isn't shouldn't have existed at all. she ruined two lives and reputation of two big families

rory thought of these things everyday in her bed and used to think about her know again she is ruining the life of another guy because her grandparent's want to get back their previous reputation and hayden's want's to marry her to the huntzburger's because her half-sister gigi was not being properly accepted to the society because of her scandal, if they marry her to a family like huntzburger's then they can show rory is a huntzburger and not a bastdard 's the least she can do to her grandparents isn't it marrying logan but logan's life is at stake because of her, that's the reason she came up with that 's the least she can do to logan.

slowly her thought's drifting to logan and she slept.