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Back to Zero
a 1xR, 3xR fanfic by Ines kanoyan
Romance/Drama
Chapter 4: I never told you
Relena whimpered softly as she slowly opened her eyes. She was in her bed at her room in her condo. She tried to make sense of everything. What had happened? Should she really be here, lying in her bed?
Suddenly, a tall figure emerged from the door.
"You're already awake."
Trowa said as he pulled up a chair by her bed and sat on it. Suddenly, Relena remembered everything. How she had seen Heero on the streets today and how she caused a traffic chaos and how she lost her consciousness. Panic struck her. She glanced at the clock and saw that it was already 6 in the afternoon.
"I've been sleeping all day?" she exclaimed in disbelief.
Trowa nodded automatically.
"Noooohhhh!" Relena screamed rubbing her hands onto her head, making her hair bounce in all directions. "I missed my first day in school!"
"Hey, calm down will you?" Trowa cried as he tried to pacify the wild lady in front of her.
Putting his hands onto her shoulders and pressing them against them firmly, Trowa said, "I attended all your classes. I explained to your professors that you weren't feeling well and if I could sit in to be able to let you know what happened."
Relena's eyes widened as she listened intently to Trowa.
"Two of your professors simply, handed out the course syllabus and dismissed right after. The other two, the professors gave out a short introduction and dismissed early also. Since it's the first day, all of them didn't really take attendance. Here." he said, as he handed Relena an envelope containing a notepad and sheets of paper. "There's the syllabus and the notes I took down for you."
She took the envelope and inspected its contents. Then she stared at Trowa dumbfounded. He was looking at her plainly.
Relena jumped off her feet and throw her arms around the tall guy sitting beside her bed. Trowa was shocked upon her reaction but felt glad that she was back to her old self. Relena tightened her embrace around him and even made herself comfortable in his arms that she was practically sitting at his lap. Trowa felt his blood rush up to his cheeks, he was again blushing wildly.
"Thank you." Relena whispered to his ears and laid her head on his shoulder.
"That…was…nothing…" Trowa managed to reply, despite the obvious shaking of his voice. She didn't know what she was doing to him, holding him so close like this, was too good to be true for Trowa and yet it feels like his heart was about to explode. He desperately wanted to envelope her in his arms but feared that when he does, it might just give away his feelings. So, he fought hard to control his arms from wrapping them around her delicate body.
Relena lifted her head off his shoulders and looked straight into his eyes. Trowa swallowed hard upon this new pose and this close proximity of their faces.
She smiled as she said, "I wouldn't know what I would do without you."
With that she got off him and made her way out of the room. "I'll prepare dinner for both of us!" she cried as she left.
Trowa smiled painfully to himself. "I wouldn't know what I would do without you, Relena." he said softly to himself.
That night, Relena found it hard to sleep. Except for the fact, that she had been practically sleeping the whole day, it was again, mainly because of him. He was back. She had seen him; he is alive and just around somewhere. Just like before, he was again near her, just lingering around.
She held her legs tightly as she sat on her bed. She buried her face onto her knees as memories of him flooded her once again. How they had first met by the shore, how he had stuck his gun at her, promising to kill her and how they had danced right after the threat.
"Such crazy moments," Relena sighed to herself. But, she treasured them as much as her existence. His entrance to her life was crazy like that but ever since she had met him, she found herself growing more and more into the person she longed to be. He had thought her many things. It was amazing how he had been able to touch her without being near her, how he could do so much without being really there.
She stared at the gifts he had given her since her 16th birthday until her 19th. They were scattered in front of her lying atop her bed. She picked up the hand-made teddy bear he had given her. She smiled as she imagined how long he had worked to finish it. She stroke it soft fur and its tiny eyes.
Tears started streaming down her face.
But I never told you
What I should have said
No, I never told you
I just held it in
And now, I miss everything about you
Can't believe that I still want you
After all the things we've been through
I miss everything about you
Without you…
She wondered whether he feels the same toward her. Did he miss her? What had really happened? Did he really left on purpose or the accident prevented him from coming back sooner? Was he thinking of her like the way she was?
She remembered the incident in the morning, when she saw him on the street. She couldn't be mistaken. Once she had seen his hair and his built, she got a feeling that it could be him. But, when he accidentally glanced in her direction and she saw his face and his eyes, those eyes, they were his. She closed her eyes as she again buried her face onto her knees, hugging her legs in a tight embrace.
I see your blue eyes
Everytime I close mine
You make it hard to see
Where I belong to
When I'm not around you
It's like I'm not with me
But I never told you
What I should have said
No, I never told you
I just held it in
And now, I miss everything about you
Can't believe that I still want you
After all the things we've been through
I miss everything about you
Without you…
But I never told you
What I should have said
No, I never told you
I just held it in
"Please Heero, come back." she murmured, still with her eyes closed.
Relena went to school the next day feeling groggy. It was good that Trowa was there to come with her or she might have crossed the street sleepily and caused traffic chaos again.
As she sat on a desk inside the classroom, a perky blonde sat next to her and greeted her, "Hi!"
"Oh, hi." Relena replied, a bit shocked with the girl's sudden greeting.
"So, you're his girl, huh." she commented.
"Huh?"
The blonde giggled playfully. Her long blond curls dangling as she did. "The guy who attended this class for you yesterday. Don't tell me you don't have an idea?"
She was obviously pertaining to Trowa, Relena realized.
"Oh, him."
She nodded automatically.
"He's not my boyfriend. In fact, he's my bodyguard but more of a friend." she clarified.
"Bodyguard?" she gasped, then stared at her for a while and then, "Oh, yes. How could I have missed?"
Relena looked at her quizzically.
"Former queen of the world and vice-foreign minister Relena Darlian or do you use Peacecraft now?" she had said loud enough to catch the attention of the rest of her classmates. They, in turn, managed to sneak a look at her. They all smiled and bowed their heads in recognition. Relena smiled awkwardly upon them. She had planned of not exposing herself as much as she was able to. She wanted normal treatment after all, right? But, thanks to this blonde, her status has once again been revealed.
"What?" she demanded a reply.
"I'm using Peacecraft now." she replied still feeling uneasy.
The blonde seeing that she was becoming uneasy tapped her shoulders and said, as if reading her mind, "Don't worry, students here are famous and celebrities in their own right. Plus, this is an international university so don't fear the special treatment. We'll all get that."
Relena glanced around her and looked at her classmates. The blonde was right, she recognized some familiar faces. If they weren't young diplomats like her, they were related to various dignitaries all over the world. She stared at the perky blonde beside her seat. She, too looked quite familiar. She had long blond hair, lighter than hers, that curled at the ends, cute heart-shaped face, pale brown eyes, slim and lean body-wait!
"You are Sophia Nuremberg, right?" Relena managed to figure out.
She smiled, "Wow! Princess Relena knows me."
Relena frowned at her comment. "Aw, come on. Let me correct myself. You are Princess Sophia Nuremberg, right?"
She giggled even louder than before. "Ok, ok you win. But, drop the princess and you can call me Sophie. Our kingdom's a country now so technically I'm no princess anymore. Thanks to your principles."
Sophia Nuremberg came from the Kingdom of Nuremvia, in the European continent, few miles across the Cinq Kingdom. But, since the end of the wars, more and more kingdoms have decided to join the Earth Sphere Unified Nations and become nations instead of kingdoms; the monarchs becoming presidents or prime ministers and the citizens having the right to elect their leaders. However, the monarchs may still be qualified to become leaders and they still possess the respect and loyalty of the people.
"So, you hate the special treatment too?" Relena asked.
"Sort of, I'm really adventurous, you know." she replied.
"I see that means, running away from your bodyguards all the time?"
"You bet!" she said, as she raised her hand for a high five.
Relena and Sophia easily hit it off as friends and chatted all the way until their professor came.
"So, is this your last class?" Sophia asked Relena as they went out of the classroom.
"Yeah, you too?"
"Yup. Nice meeting you. See you tomorrow!"
They were busy saying their goodbyes that Relena didn't notice Trowa who was already behind her. Sophia's eyes brightened upon seeing him.
"Here's your boyfriend!" she teased looking straight into Trowa.
Relena quickly glanced over her shoulder and was surprised to see Trowa, who was standing there dumbfounded.
"Bye, guys!" Sophia giggled some more as she left them.
"Who was that?" Trowa asked. "Where's your boyfriend?"
"Sophia Nuremberg, she's my classmate. She remembered you from yesterday when you attended my class. She thought you were my boyfriend. She's really playful, full of jokes." Relena explained. "Why are you here?"
"Relena, I'm your bodyguard, remember?"
"Yeah, but everything's fine. Since when did the security become so tight again?'
"Since you caused that traffic chaos and you lost your consciousness." Trowa replied, as matter-of-factly.
Relena rolled her eyes in defeat. "Okay."
The next day, after their classes Sophia asked Relena to go with her to the mall.
"Trowa can come with us if he likes, I need the opinion of the male species too." Sophia cheerfully said.
But, Trowa declined, since he was planning to go find a present for Relena himself and he wanted it to be a surprise. And since, Sophia had her own security, he felt that there was no need to worry about Relena.
As soon as they arrived at the mall, Sophia ordered her security to roam around the mall by themselves, so she and Relena can have the time for themselves.
"So, why did you suddenly feel like malling? Or do you really love shopping?" Relena asked, she herself do not go out that often, as Trowa would say during her free time, she did nothing but sleep.
"Actually, I have to buy a gift for someone,"
"Birthday? When?"
Sophia nodded. "Tomorrow."
'We have the same birthday.' Relena thought to herself.
"Actually, it's not his birthday, but I consider it that since we don't know when his real birthday is." she informed her.
"Really? Why is that?" Relena asked, getting confused.
"He has amnesia. I met him three years ago in an accident and eversince he hasn't recalled anything from his past yet. Tomorrow is the 3rd anniversary of our meeting, so I consider it his birthday-the day he arrived into my life." she explained.
"Wow! It sounds really superficial to me, but I guess things like that can happen." Relena commented. "Wait! You said 'he', so it's for a guy. Your boyfriend?"
Sophia shook her head in denial. "No, not at all. He's a close friend."
But, Relena could sense the sadness in her friend's eyes upon denying it. She felt that there was something going on.
"I know we've just met and I'm in no position to inquire about personal things but can I ask you something?" Relena said with caution and tension. She didn't want to be invading Sophie's privacy.
"Sure,"
"Do you have feelings for him?"
Sophie found it hard to answer. "Well, I am physically attracted to him. I wouldn't deny that, I've noticed that since the day we've met but…"
"But?" Relena said, urging Sophie to continue.
"But, I don't know." was all Sophie could muster.
Relena sighed in dissatisfaction. "What do you mean you don't know?"
"Okay. He's really nice and caring. Protective and gentle yet he can be extremely cold and serious, it's all mixed up. But, I find myself drawn to him but, I don't know whether to entertain my feelings for him."
"Why?" Relena inquired.
"Well, I'm not sure if he feels the same way." she sadly replied.
"Oh," Relena gasped. Relena didn't expect that to be Sophia's problem. She thought that Sophia was really pretty, intelligent and fun to be with. She could just imagine guys lining up just to ask her to be their girlfriends.
"Yeah, he's well I think he respects me that much that's why he doesn't see me in the way I want him too." Sophie added. "He used to be my bodyguard. After he recuperated from his wounds from the accident, I got into a dangerous situation and he saved my life. Dad hired him to be my bodyguard since then. He's really strong and adept in weapons and he has keen senses. I think he maybe a soldier during the war."
Relena suddenly missed Heero. He was just like what Sophie was describing.
"He's not your bodyguard anymore?" Relena asked.
"It's not very dangerous nowadays and we have been really close. Just like you and Trowa, I felt that I wouldn't want him to remain my bodyguard forever. He has to live a life of his own. I'm sure he doesn't want to be just a bodyguard all his life. He's the same age of us, if I may say."
"Oh, but you still keep in touch?"
"Of course. Though, I have my new security, he still makes it a point to visit me and check up on me. And we're good friends so we see each other a lot."
"So, there what's the problem?" Relena exclaimed.
"What do you mean?"
"If you like him, let him know before it's too late." Relena advised. "Treasure the times you are with the person you love. Things can happen,"
Sophie noticed the sadness that suddenly brushed on Relena's face. "Wanna share your story?"
"Well, there's this someone I really liked or perhaps loved but he got into an accident and since then I've never seen him again. I regret that I haven't told him how much he means to me. I miss him so much." she narrated sadly.
"Geez, that's way too sad." Sophie said as she placed a hand on Relena's shoulder to comfort her.
But I never told you
What I should have said
No, I never told you
I just held it in
And now, I miss everything about you
Can't believe that I still want you
After all the things we've been through
I miss everything about you
Without you…
-to be continued-
song used: I never told you by Colbie Caillat
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