I rehearsed most of the day yesterday. Even though I didn't need to, it took my mind off what happened at the airport. The two songs I'm doing are Superman and Hello Hello. Obvious choices in my opinion. I didn't have to worry about a new one now, thanks to Edward's worries about my health.
I was all ready to go, dressed in what I was going to perform in. It was a chilly day in L.A., so I didn't wear anything to scanty. Quite modest, actually. Simple black skinny jeans, a nice satin top and heels. I had my jacket on, because it was cold inside the house.
I was drinking tea instead of my usual coffee (how I miss it), waiting for Edward to come down. It was not like him to take a while to get ready. But I wasn't fussed at the moment.
When he finally came down, he seemed to look a little nervous. Goodness knows why. Worried about me? Was he concerned that I would have another Sydney incident? That's what we call my little faint on stage in Sydney.
I couldn't dwell on this for long, because we had to leave. The limo picks us up, already having picked up Steve, Liss and Adam. They each give a 'hi' as we get in. We don't say much on the way there. Just odd comments about the weather, make-up tools and amplifiers.
When we get there, there are more people than I thought. We drive past them, going around the back. I am grateful for that.
Security people rush us in. Apparently we're a little late. Liss starts work on me straight away, even though I had done most of it myself this morning. My mood is not as hyped up as it normally is. I don't feel like smiling. Maybe it's just one of those moods.
The show starts with the Black Eyed Peas. I read the set list; I am on very last. Huh. Save the best till last. The number of songs each artist is performing is next to the name. I notice I have three down next to mine. I thought I was only doing two? Must be a typo. Or Steve sent in the details before Edward convinced him otherwise.
I am watching Green Day play their set, when Edward joins me. He rubs my shoulders.
"Are you nervous?" he asks.
"Not really. I usually am, at least a little bit. I don't know, I'm not really feeling anything at the moment," I tell him honestly. He gives my a sympathetic half-smile.
"Well, I hope after today you feel happy."
"I most likely won't," I state.
"Oh, you will. How could you not, after my surprise?" I look at him, and he winks. Surprise? I hate surprises. And he knows it. I instantly want to know what it is. I open my mouth to bug him but he says: "I'm not saying a thing."
Hmph.
Lady GaGa is now on. Ohh, that explains her being at the airport. I recognise the song, so I start humming along.
Oh-oh-oh-oh-oooh!
Oh-oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh-oh!
Caught in a bad romance
Oh-oh-oh-oh-oooh!
Oh-oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh-oh!
Caught in a bad romance
Rah rah ah-ah-ah!
Ro mah ro-mah-mah
Gaga Ooh-la-la!
Want your bad romance
Rah rah ah-ah-ah!
Ro mah ro-mah-mah
Gaga Ooh-la-la!
Want your bad romance
I want your ugly
I want your disease
I want your everything
As long as it's free
I want your love
Love-love-love
I want your love
I want your drama
The touch of your hand
I want you leather-studded kiss in the sand
I want your love
Love-love-love
I want your love
Love-love-love
I want your love
You know that I want you
And you know that I need you
I want it bad
Your bad romance
I want your loving
And I want your revenge
You and me could write a bad romance
(Oh-oh-oh-oh-oooh!)
I want your loving
All your love is revenge
You and me could write a bad romance
Oh-oh-oh-oh-oooh!
Oh-oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh-oh!
Caught in a bad romance
Oh-oh-oh-oh-oooh!
Oh-oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh-oh!
Caught in a bad romance
Rah rah ah-ah-ah!
Ro mah ro-mah-mah
Gaga Ooh-la-la!
Want your bad romance
I want your horror
I want your design
'Cause you're a criminal
As long as your mine
I want your love
Love-love-love
I want your love, uhh
I want your psycho
Your vertical stick
Want you in my room
When your baby is sick
I want your love
Love-love-love
I want your love
Love-love-love
I want your love
You know that I want you
And you know that I need you
('Cause I'm a free bitch, baby!)
I want it bad
Your bad romance
I want your loving
And I want your revenge
You and me could write a bad romance
(Oh-oh-oh-oh-oooh!)
I want your loving
All your love is revenge
You and me could write a bad romance
Oh-oh-oh-oh-oooh!
Oh-oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh-oh!
Caught in a bad romance
Oh-oh-oh-oh-oooh!
Oh-oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh-oh!
Caught in a bad romance
Rah rah ah-ah-ah!
Ro mah ro-mah-mah
Gaga Ooh-la-la!
Want your bad romance
Walk-walk fashion baby
Work it
move that bitch crazy
Walk-walk fashion baby
Work it
move that bitch crazy
Walk-walk fashion baby
Work it
move that bitch crazy
Walk-walk passion baby
Work it
I'm a free bitch baby
I want your love
And I want your revenge
I want your love
I don't wanna be friends
J'veux ton amour
Et je veux ton revenge
J'veux ton amour
I don't wanna be friends
Oh-oh-oh-oh-oooh!
(I don't wanna be friends)
Oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh!
Caught in a bad romance
(I don't wanna be friends)
Oh-oh-oh-oh-oooh!
Oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh!
(Want your bad romance)
Caught in a bad romance
(Want your bad romance)
I want your loving
I want your revenge
You and me could write a bad romance
(Oh-oh-oh-oh-oooh!)
I want your loving
All your love is revenge
You and me could write a bad romance
Oh-oh-oh-oh-oooh!
(Want your bad romance)
Oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh!
Caught in a bad romance
(Want your bad romance)
Oh-oh-oh-oh-oooh!
(Want your bad romance)
Oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh!
Caught in a bad romance
Rah rah ah-ah-ah!
Ro mah ro-mah-mah
Gaga Ooh-la-la!
Want your bad romance
She's a good performer, I'll give her that. Nice heels.
As my act creeps closer, I want to go home even more. I mean, benefits are great, but I'd rather be at home, wallowing in self pity.
30 Seconds to Mars are on before me, and they're after Muse. One of my favourite bands Muse is. They play Hysteria and Uprising. Good songs.
I start to warm up as 30 Seconds to Mars goes on. They walk past me, and the drummer gives me a wink. Ugh, that's awkward… I remember waking up next to him at some point…
They finish with a roar of the crowd. I decide to make my traditional entry from behind the backdrop, witch is not so fancy. I hope they won't mind if I tear a hole in it…
At the end of my set, I'm totally ready to get out of there as fast as possible. I go off with a wave of my hand. To my surprise, no one seems to be packing up. Was there another act? Oh well.
I start to look for Edward, but I can't see him anywhere. I locate Steve.
"Hey, have you seen Edward anywhere?" I ask blandly.
"Yes. But I'm not telling you where he is, it'll ruin his surprise," he answers with a grin.
"I'm really not in the mood for that. Can't I go home?" I pine.
"Nope. Definitely can't do that yet," he refuses, still smiling. I sigh.
Then I see him. I absent-mindedly turned my head towards the stage, as you do, and he was there. What was he doing there? Then I hear the back vocals sing a very familiar tune. Oh my god. How many times had I listened to this song on my iPod, the radio, hoping someone would sing it to me? I can't believe this is happening.
Then, the love of my life starts to sing.
Oh her eyes, her eyes
Make the stars look like they're not shining
Her hair, her hair
Falls perfectly without her trying
She's so beautiful
And I tell her every day
Yeah I know, I know
When I compliment her
She wont believe me
And its so, its so
Sad to think she don't see what I see
But every time she asks me do I look okay
I say
When I see your face
There's not a thing that I would change
Cause you're amazing
Just the way you are
And when you smile,
The whole world stops and stares for a while
Cause girl you're amazing
Just the way you are
Her lips, her lips
I could kiss them all day if she'd let me
Her laugh, her laugh
She hates but I think its so sexy
She's so beautiful
And I tell her every day
Oh you know, you know, you know
I'd never ask you to change
If perfect is what you're searching for
Then just stay the same
So don't even bother asking
If you look okay
You know I'll say
When I see your face
There's not a thing that I would change
Cause you're amazing
Just the way you are
And when you smile,
The whole world stops and stares for a while
Cause girl you're amazing
Just the way you are
The way you are
The way you are
Girl you're amazing
Just the way you are
When I see your face
There's not a thing that I would change
Cause you're amazing
Just the way you are
And when you smile,
The whole world stops and stares for a while
Cause girl you're amazing
Just the way you are
A tear rolls down my cheek when he turns to look at me. He holds out his hand. He wants me to join him. Is he serious? I shake my head; I'm not going out there in a state like this. He frowns. He walks towards me, grabs my hand and drags me out. How rude. He smiles at me. He pulls me to the middle of the stage, and hugs me. A collective "awwww!" is heard from the crowd. Then he kisses me.
And I forget all of my worries.