(A/N) I have decided to name my chapters after songs. Not exactly a song fic, but the song will reflect the mood of the story. The song lyrics will be in italics, occasionally.

Don't own anyone but my characters. I don't own Perfect by Simple Plan.

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(Ellie POV)

Hey, dad, look at me. Think back and talk to me.

I looked at my father through the IM. He seemed to be purposely avoiding eye contact, almost as though he thought I didn't deserve it.

His eyes got a faraway look in them almost as if he was remembering something he missed.

"Did I grow up according to plan?" I asked.

"I remember when I met your mother…" he started. I got a sinking feeling in the pit of my stomach. What did mom have to do with this?

"Yes?" I urged him to go on.

He sighed, "She used to be so proud of you. I used to be so proud of you!"

"So this is what this is about. You just called to tell me I'm a failure again?" I replied with my harshest tone. "And do you think I'm wasting my time doing things I want to do? But it hurts when you disapprove all along."

I had to admit. I was hurt. He calls me at 4 in the morning on my birthday to talk and all he does is tell me that I'm a disappointment.

"I didn't mean it like that." He looked down ashamed.

I have to admit. When I first found out that Hades was my father I was excited. Now I see that Dionysus would make a better father.

"Eleanor… You need to understand. The way your mother described you, I thought you would be a great child. Not yourself." He replied.

"Oh, I get it! You never loved me! You just claimed me to show me off thinking I was some great hero! Now that you see me do you just sit on the sidelines and criticize me?" I was yelling now. "And now I try hard to make it. I just want to make you proud."

I sighed in frustration. I had tried so hard to make him proud, to make him love me.

"I regret ever being born." I said.

"Be careful child. Words have powers." Father dearest warned.

I had tried so hard to make him proud of me and all I get was him trying to change me! I was done.

"Maybe if you could be more like Nico…" he stopped when he saw my intense gaze.

"I'm never going to be good enough for you!" I shouted at him.

"Please understand Eleanor…" he trailed off again.

"Don't call me that!" I screamed at him. By now I felt tears rolling down my cheeks.

"Calm down, Elean-Ellie. You're alright." He said.

"I can't pretend that I'm alright! And you CAN'T change me!" I grabbed a purple strand of hair and brought it forward for my dad to see.

"Why can't we be like we were when you were little?" he asked.

"'Cause we lost it all. Nothing lasts forever." I whispered the last part.

"You could be the perfect child if you just tried a little harder…" I had turned my back to the Iris Message but when he said that I spun around.

"Stop living a lie! I'm sorry! I can't be perfect!" I yelled at him, "Now it's too late and we can't go back! I'm sorry I can't be perfect!"

"Eleanor you're being unreasonable!" Hades responded. He is no longer Hades, he is Hades. "Can't you just forget about your feelings for once and actually try?"

"I try not to think about the pain I feel inside! Did you know you used to be my hero? All the days you spent with me now seem so far away and it feels like you don't care anymore! Why am I kidding myself! You never cared!" I was saying all the things I had wanted to say over all the years.

"Eleanor, you could make me so proud. I'm telling you! You could be greater than Percy Jackson himself!" Hades exclaimed.

"And now I try hard to make it! I just want to make you proud! I'm NEVER going to be good enough for you!" I took a deep breath, "I can't stand another fight! And NOTHING is alright!"

"Why can't you be that sweet angel that I used to know? Why aren't you the same?" Hades pondered out loud.

"'Cause we lost it all! NOTHING last forever! I'm sorry I can't be perfect!" I had sarcasm seeping through my voice threaded with venom, "Now it's just too late and we can't go back! I'm sorry! I CAN'T be perfect!"

"Can we go back to the way we were before this fight? Don't let this change us." Hades tried to persuade me.

"What? And sell my soul to the devil?" I raised my voice again, "Nothing's going to change the things that you said! Nothings going to make this right again!" Hades turned to leave, "Don't turn your back! I can't believe that it is this hard to talk to you! But you don't understand!"

Hades' eyes drifted to my wrist that I left totally uncovered. "Why didn't you tell me?" I looked down at the swift, anger cuts that dug out the word 'HATE' on my arm.

"How could I? We lost it all, nothing lasts forever." My eyes drifted to my wrist. "I'm sorry I can't be perfect." I shrugged my shoulders like it didn't matter. "Now it's just too late and we CAN'T go back. I'm sorry I can't be perfect.

"We lost it all. Nothing lasts forever." I repeated.

"Ellie! No!" Hades yelled but my hand was almost threw the connection.

"I'm sorry I can't be perfect." I told him while tears spilled out of eyes I cut the connection.

"It's just too late." I wrote sloppily on a note and put it next to Nico's sleeping figure.

"We can't go back." I said and ran towards the river. Sneaking out of the Hades cabin was easy since Nico slept like a bear.

I ran as fast as I could until I reached the river.

"Ellie!" someone yelled from a few meters behind me. I craned my head a bit and saw Stanley standing up on the Hephaestus porch.

I ran faster. When I reached the riverbank I ran into it.

"Ellie come out of there!" Stanley yelled catching up to me.

"I'm sorry I can't be perfect!" I yelled and plunged into the current.

"Ellie!" was a strangled cry I heard from above.

I took a gulp of water and tried to drown myself. It was just too much, I may act strong and confident but inside I was hurting. I couldn't take it.

I passed out but not before I felt strong arms picking me up and soft lips being pressed against mine.

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On that depressing note… I want a bagel.

Anyways review! Por favor?

I need demi-gods! I can't think of any! Oh and suggest some songs and I might make them into chapters like I did this one.

First Name:

Last Name:

Nickname:

Godly Parent:

Mortal Parent:

Mortal Siblings:

History:

Year Rounder or Not:

Birthday:

Age:

Scars/Piercing/Tattoos:

Anything Else:

LOOKS

Hair color:

Hair Length/Cut:

Eye Color:

Skin Color:

Weight:

Height:

Anything I've missed:

CLOTHES

Fave outside of camp outfit:

Fave camp outfit:

Fave shoes:

Jewelry:

Make up:

DETAILS

What camper/satyr brought them to camp:

What monster did they run into on the way to camp:

Weapon:

Likes:

Dislikes:

Good qualities:

Bad qualities:

Fatal flaw:

Do you want them to fall in love with a camper or a demigod that someone has created:

Who is their best friend (a camper or a demigod someone has created):

Short description of what they are like (moods, etc.):

Good qualities:

Bad qualities:

Enemies:

Quote or motto:

Fave thing to do at camp:

Goody goody or rebel:

Anything else you want to add in, like something I've missed: