I don't own VA. And this is RosexDimitri because they're married and she still does love him.

They arrived back to court where they decided to visit Lissa, now that she wasn't so busy.

They arrived and Rose immediately regretted it; Adrian was there, and although her world brighten a little bit more, she didn't want him there. She wanted to escape the reality of her life right now. She wanted to be released.

Release me

Release my body

I know it's wrong
So why am I with you now
I say release me
'Cause I'm not able to
Convince myself
That I'm better off without you

Adrian smiled at them when they walked in while Lissa looked wary.

Lissa pulled her aside, "You have to stop. You'll be better without him." she whispered.

"Without who? Dimitri? Or Adrian?" Rose asks her.

"Because I can't imagine myself without any of them." She hissed. They looked at each other, and Lissa started shaking her head.

"Its wrong!"

"You don't think I know that?"

Yeah, it's perfectly clear
That it's not what you need
I tell you that I don't care
But I don't want to
Anything that you say
I hear myself agree
And I don't recognize
What I've turned into

"I don't know who you are anymore," Lissa whispers to her before walking away. Rose is shocked, but if she's honest with her self, she doesn't either.

The old Rose would never do this. Somehow this was worst than being a blood whore.

I don't know why I want you so
'Cause I don't need the heart break
I don't know what love addictive hold
You have on me I can't shake
No, I'm not in control
So let me go

Why couldn't she stop? If she knew this was so wrong? Why did she have to keep hurting all 3 of them? Why couldn't she let go?

She hated how much of a hold Adrian had on her. How hypnotized she was by him.

Release me
Release my body
I know it's wrong
So why do I keep coming back
I say release me
'Cause I'm not able to
Convince myself
That I'm better off without you

How would things be without Adrian?

Boring, because she liked the feeling she got when she sneaked away to see him.

She loved the feeling of his lips against her body. She knows its beyond wrong... but she just can't stop! She can't stop her self, and she knows she can't be without Adrian.

So what about Dimitri?

I could sleep by myself
you would burn me alive
Find me somebody else
But I don't want to
Try to leave out the love
That goes against the grain
But I can rationalize it
If I have to

She could leave Adrian and live her life with her husband. Without worrying about anything and just go back to how things were before the affair began. But how? If Adrian always ended up convincing her not to... Damn him and his kisses.

I don't know why I want you so
'Cause I don't need the heart break
I don't know what addictive hold
You have on me I can't shake
No, I'm not in control
So let me go

She walked back to Dimitri who put an arm around her waist and kissed her hard in front of Adrian.

It meant, 'She's mine'. And she was... in a way. They were married after all. They had sex every night, and every night she would tell him she loved him, but he knew he was losing her, and the thought hurt more than anything else in the world.

Release me
Release my body
I know it's wrong
So why do I keep coming back
I say release me
'Cause I'm not able to
Convince myself
That I'm better off without you

Rose wanted to be sure she would be better off without Adrian.

"You will," Dimitri whispers in to her ear. She looks away from his pained look and walks away towards Eddie and Mia.

Im not in control, so let me go
Release me
Release my body
I know it's wrong
So why do I keep coming back
I say release me
'Cause I'm not able to
Convince myself
That I'm better off without you

'I can do this' she thought to herself. She had to regain control, otherwise someone would end up really hurt, and it'd be her fault.

She smiled and laughed along with them, but her mind was elsewhere. She walked towards where Adrian was in the balcony. She opened the door and walked outside. "You always come back," he teased. She smiled a little; she knew what she had to do.

She reminded herself she had to and that she was in control now, and she had to take advantage.

Release me
Release my body
I know it's wrong
So why do I keep coming back
I say release me
'Cause I'm not able to
Convince myself
That I'm better off without you

"It has to end tonight," she whispers while looking straight into Adrian's emerald green eyes..