DPOV- Misery-Maroon 5
Being married to Rose was a disaster... Sometimes I found myself wondering if she even loved me. I knew of her affair with Adrian, I suspected when she started drifting apart.
I knew I loved her because why would I still be with her? And she would have to love, why else stay with me? I could tell her it pained her to do this, but not as bad as me.
I was in misery, completely broken...wondering all day long if she really loved me at all.
It was painful... and I just wanted to know why? Why is she hurting me like this? Why is she doing this to me, after all we've went through?
Misery
Oh yeah
Oh yeah
So scared of breaking it
But you won't let it bend
And I wrote two hundred letters
I won't ever send
Sometimes these cuts are so much
Deeper than they seem
You'd rather cover up
I'd rather let them be
So let me be
And I'll set you free
If she wanted the divorce I would give it to her, I would set her free...all she had to do was say.
I'd do anything to make her happy, and if her happiness isn't with me... then I would let her go.
And if the day ever came, I would give her one of the many letters I had written to her, or about her. To let her know just how much I actually loved her.
Every day hurt... And I wondered if the wounds my Roza had caused would ever heal.
My Roza... who sometimes didn't really seem as mine.
I'd given her a chance to come clean herself but she wanted to cover up.
I knew her, and I knew she would rather cover up everything then to let it be like me.
I am in misery
There ain't no other
Who can comfort me
Why won't you answer me?
The silence is slowly killing me
Girl you really got me bad
You really got me bad
Now I'm gonna get you back
I'm gonna get you back
Lissa who knew about their affair, tried comforting me, but really? What was the point? Sometimes I wanted so badly to get her back... and maybe I would. One day.
Your salty skin and how
It mixes in with mine
The way it feels to be
Completely intertwined
It's not that I didn't care
It's that I didn't know
It's not what I didn't feel,
It's what I didn't show
So let me be
And I'll set you free
I blamed myself.
Maybe I should be more PDA like he was. I would do anything to make her happy, because without her, without her body, without her love, I was nothing.
I am in misery
There ain't no other
Who can comfort me
Why won't you answer me?
The silence is slowly killing me
Girl you really got me bad
You really got me bad
Now I'm gonna get you back
I'm gonna get you back
I felt like she was torturing me, driving a stake into my heart over and over again.
Setting me on fire, burning me to the core, running me over with a car, a train, pushing me over the edge, letting me fall to my death, because one day she would be passionate and the next she would be cold.
Every day was different.
And every day was full of angst.
Of what she would do next... I was just waiting for her next move, her next lie, her next stab to the heart...and I prepared myself for it. Yet, it wasn't enough, because after her every lie, her next escapade, I felt broken and in complete misery.
You say your faith is shaken
You may be mistaken
You keep me wide awake and
Waiting for the sun
I'm desperate and confused
So far away from you
I'm getting here
I don't care where I have to go
I really would go to the end of the world for her. At night, she believed I was asleep, but the truth is I wasn't. It was a rare night that I slept well, without thoughts of her keeping me awake.
So I hear her cry every night, and without her knowing it, I would cry with her too.
Why do you do what you do to me, yeah
Why won't you answer me, answer me yeah
Why do you do what you do to me yeah
Why won't you answer me, answer me yeah
I'd asked her a few times why.
Her eyes would fill up with tears, she would look away, and then walk away.
She had never answered. And I was scared of the truth, to be honest.
I am in misery
There ain't nobody
Who can comfort me
Why won't you answer me?
Your silence is slowly killing me
Girl you really got me bad
You really got me bad
Now I'm gonna get you back
I'm gonna get you back
So the question remained: Why was she doing this? Did she not love me enough?
And the most important... What was I going to do?