EDIT: I'm sorry for the mix up! The correct ninth chapter is up now. Thanks to mariaxlove for pointing it out! I think the story makes more sense now ;)

Chapter 11

Shawn didn't understand what just had happened. For the second time within a month it felt like his world broke apart in front of him. He stood there unable to move or to think straight. Only one clear thought was forming in his head: go after her. So he ran. He sprinted through the entrance hall finally reaching the front door. He stepped outside and let his eyes screen the area for any signs of her. Then he saw her. She was about to open her car door on the other side of the street.

"JULIET! WAIT! PLEASE JUST WAIT!" He screamed and ran in her direction.

She didn't even flinch at the sound of his voice and quickly sat down in her car starting the engine. But it was too late he had reached her car and stood in front of it and laid both of his hands on the hood. Juliet took a quick glance over her shoulder. She parked close to another car and there was no other way than driving forward. And that wasn't really an option either since Shawn blocked the way. She let out a frustrated groan and let her head sink on top of the steering wheel.

Shawn carefully eyed her. Was this just a trick to get him to move away? But then he saw how her shoulders twitched lightly when she finally had lost the fight against her sobs.

He rounded the car quickly and opened her door. Without thinking he pulled her out of the car and held her in a tight hug murmuring comforting words into her ear.

After a few minutes of uncontrollable crying Juliet fought for her composure. She pushed Shawn slightly away to bring some room between them. He cupped her cheek with his hand and forced her to look at him.

"Let go, Shawn." She whispered.

"Don't say that, Jules. Just don't say that. I don't want to let go." He whispered back.

"You have to. You had your chance. Just let go. I'll be okay." She assured him.

His look hardened. "No. I want to explain everything to you. I just need more time than 10 seconds, okay? There's just so much we need to talk about. Please, hear me out, Jules. If you decide to leave afterwards I won't stop you. But hear me out first. That's all I ask for." She looked up to his eyes while he spoke and she could see a mix of desperation and decisiveness.

She took a minute to decide. "No. You hurt me, Shawn. After all the pain I went through with my break up with Declan you managed to hurt me even worse. It's better if we leave everything behind us. I don't want to see you again, Shawn." She said, this time she managed to hold her tears back and talk in a steady voice.

"Jules… please don't do this to me. I know I hurt you and I'm sorry for that. I never meant to do it but it happened and I'm sorry." He pleaded.

"Saying sorry won't make this okay."

"I know… just give me time to explain." His voice was full of desperation.

Juliet couldn't stand looking into his pleading eyes anymore and turned her head away from him.

"Let's just talk. No more sneaking around, no more keeping quiet, no more lies. Stay for dinner. We can talk before and during and afterwards. We can talk the whole night. I don't care how long it will take. Just the two of us. Please, Jules. I just need this one last chance."

Juliet turned her head again to face him. Shawn was shocked to see that the coldness was back in her eyes. "Just the two of us…right… and what about your daughter and your girlfriend?" She asked bitterly.

"What are you… wait you think…? No, Jules, you got it all wrong. Kate isn't my girlfriend. And Ashley is certainly not my daughter. I'm her godfather and Kate is like a little sister to me." His eyes found hers again and he could see that some of the coldness had vanished.

He held out his hand. "Come on, Jules." He smiled softly at her.

Juliet glanced from his face to his hand, then shook her head a little and turned around to her car. Shawn's smile faded instantly. He had messed it up for good.

Juliet glanced back when she heard him sigh. What she saw in front of her broke her heart. This wasn't the cheerful young man that had a playful and witty remark on his lips all the time, no, this was a broken man. He had closed his eyes and his head had slumped down on his chest in defeat.

He was sure he had lost her when she had turned back to her car. He had let out a frustrated sigh before closing his eyes. This couldn't happen. Not now. Hell, not ever. He didn't want to live without having Juliet in his life. In these few seconds he realized that he would give up everything… his new job as CEO of an international hotel chain, the money, the cars, everything, he'd leave everything behind just to be with her for one more day. Then he heard the car door being shut and he winced. It was over. He had really messed it up.

A/N: yup, Shawn, I gave you the opportunity to talk to her earlier...

Soo I'm actually done writing this story so I'll probably update the story twice a day from now on until everything is online...

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