Thank you for the adds, reviews, and - most importantly - the support from Sierra, skaterbaby-4-14, I'mAMusicGirl, McDip, Carlalinda, funelcakerocks, and xBorix. Well, here it is you guys, what you've all been waitin for chapter 10, enjoy.

"People often say that this or that person has not yet found himself. But the self is not something one finds, it is something one creates."

~Thomas Szasz, "Personal Conduct," The Second Sin, 1973

Jade's POV- Jade's house – One day ago

I headed to my room and when I got half way there, there was a knock on the door so, I went to answer the door and when I opened it there he stood. I frowned as I looked at him, but my heart seemed to think other wise as it leapt for joy. This could not be good.

"Hey Jade, you look lovely as always." He smirked as he took a step closer and I took a step back.

"What do you want?" I snarled, blocking his view and access to my house.

"To come and see you, of course. Are you still with that one guy, ummm, Beck was it?" he questioned as he leaned against the wall.

"Yes and I don't know." I sighed and admitted as I walked out of the house, shutting the door behind me then leaning on it.

"Yes, that's his name and you don't know if you are or not or yes, you are still dating him and you don't know his name? Because if you don't know your own boyfriend's name that's bad, Kitten." He playfully scolded me, causing me to laugh.

"Luke, I needed that more than anything, thank you." I said as he moved closer and moved a piece of hair from in front of my face.

"Good. You know what I need?" he questioned.

"What would that be?" I looked up at him and he kissed me.

"A kiss from one amazing woman." He smiled as blush crept onto my cheeks. "And some food, what do you say we go out and eat while I'm in town?"

"Alright." I nodded. "Just let me get my phone and jacket and we can go."

"No need. We'll be back before anyone can miss you too much." I gave him a look of doubt. "I promise and they would miss you if you went missing." I couldn't help, but smile at this. Luke knew my home life and what I was thinking before I ever said anything. It felt like he just knew me without me having to say anything at all.

"Well, alright, if you're sure." I said as I walked off the porch and over to his blue Eclipse.

"So, how are Cat, Robbie, and André?" he asked as he walked over to the driver's side, unlocked the door then ducked inside and started the car. I got in, shut the door then buckled.

"They're fine. Cat is…well, Cat." I shrugged and he chuckled.

"Still hasn't changed?" he questioned as he looked out the back window as he backed up then turned back around and took off down the street. "And what about the other two?"

"Robbie's still carries around that puppet, I'm still hoping he loses it somewhere and André's pretty good, had to go take him to the hospital with Beck earlier."

"And then they just dropped you off to get rid of you or something?" I raised an eyebrow, being sure to keep his eyes on the busy road.

"No, I told them I had a family thing today." I admitted.

"Well, do you?"

"No, I just didn't want to go back to Tori's house."

"Tori? Who is Tori?" I smirked at the chance to be able to vent.

"She's this little annoying new girl that Beck ahs grown fond of. He swears they're just friends and it's more of a brother and sister type thing, but I know that there's more. I mean she was at his house this morning for craps sake. She just…" I growled and let my anger out and punched the dashboard. "She pisses me off so damn bad, Luke. It's like everything she does is just perfect and everyone adores her and she always gets her way. And if I do anything I get scolded like I'm just this horrible, vicious, person. It's just so darn frustrating." I admitted as I leaned the seat back a little bit and held my head. "It just sucks because Beck's the main one that apologizes for the things I say to her and for what I do to her. He's always defending her. Always."

"Hey, hey." Luke said then look hold of the hand I punched the dash board with and looked away from the street just long enough to kiss my knuckles. "You keep doing that and you're going to hurt yourself, Angel." I sighed and couldn't' help, but laugh. "I'm serious; Beck is an idiot if he chooses her over you. So, I'll tell you what, if he's stupid enough to let you fall, I'll be smart enough to catch you."

"Thanks Luke, you always seem to know what do say to make my day that much better." I smiled as I relaxed and just let him hold my hand as I thought about what he said. "Do you think he likes her, more than me I mean."

"I don't know, Kitten." His thumb stroked the back of my hand. "It's going to be okay, no matter what happens. Everything always works out in the end. And if it seems that bad to you, I'll talk your parents into letting you come live with me in Florida." He kissed my hand again. "Alright?"

I smiled at the thought of finally leaving this place, my Hell on Earth, and going to live with Luke while Beck stayed here and adored his precious little Tori. "Yeah, alright. Wake me up when we get there, I need a nap." I said, closing my eyes.

"You got it. Anything for you, Jade." I smirked and drifted into sleep, dreaming of a life with Luke instead of Beck, like I had been for two years now.

"Hey, Kitten. Wake up, were here." I received a gentle shake that brought me somewhat back to reality. I didn't want to wake up to be honest because that would mean that my nice life with Luke would be over and I'd be back to being the girl that didn't know if she was in love with Beck, the guy that was supposed to be her boyfriend.

"Kitten." He sang in my ear and I couldn't help, but blow my cover by smiling. "Ah, there she is, up and at 'em, Gorgeous." I kept my eyes closed, but turned my head towards him

"I don't wanna." I whined, but opened one of my eyes when he kissed my cheek and then on my temple. "Fine, you win. This time, but don't make a habit of it." I mumbled as we got out of the car and headed inside Olive Garden. Our dinner was pretty good, I've had worse, but I've also had better. We talked about a bunch of nonsense and just really enjoyed ourselves. He mostly talked about how he was serious about wanting to take me to Florida to live with him and all I had to do was call. I was seriously thinking about it, Beck made me happy and he might love me, but it was obvious that he loved Tori more. The more I said it, to myself and out loud, the more I realized that it was true and that was oaky. I also realized that the more I said it, the more I found out that I was more in love with Luke than Beck.

When we got my house, Luke kissed me good night, told me to think about his offer and then took off when I got out. I walked inside and my dad was on the phone repeatedly saying "Hello?" and "Is anybody there?" at first I didn't think anything of it. I waved to my dad, he didn't notice, and headed to my house then started to my room when he called out.

"Jade!" I sighed and turned around.

"Yeah?" I asked and then caught the thing that flew towards me. My cell phone.

"Someone's on there, but they won't nswer." I looked down and saw it was Beck.

"You answered my phone?" I shouted then put the phone to my ear. "Hello? Beck?" Too late the line was dead. Crap, there had to be a reason as to why he called. I'd just have to ask him the next time that I saw him. We needed to talk about Tori, Luke, and, us – if there even was an "us" any more, which I doubted. I sighed and headed to my room then went and got in the shower. I relaxed as I thought of today and the look in Beck's eyes when he looked at Tori and about how happy Luke made me verses how happy Beck made me feel.

I was so deep in thought that only when the water turned cold did I span out of my trance like state then got out and started getting ready for bed. I sat at my desk and checked my e-mail hen sighed and went onto my Slap page and update my status.

Newest Update:

I'm starting to understand things a little bit better now, but not sure what to do. Stupid feelings. And WHY would you answer my phone!

Mood:

Annoyed

I sighed and shut down my lap top then climbed into bed, thinking about everything, mostly about Luke when my phone chimed, signaling a text. I sighed, rolled over and grabbed my phone off of my bed side table then opened the message. I was so tired.

From: Luke

Message: Good-night, Kitten. Sweet dreams.

Received: 9:28 PM

I smiled, set my phone back down then rolled back over, pulled my covers up to my neck then fell asleep and continued my earlier dream of me living with Luke.

Yes, I went there. I couldn't help myself, I'm not going to put up any more chapter until later because Sierra kept texting me and wouldn't let me eat until I finished. :( I love her though. I love you guys too. Not sure what I'm going to do for 11, but I'm thinking so don't worry. Don't forget to review and to tell everyone about this story. Until next time readers. By the way can I just say that as of chapter 9 this stoy has 37 reviews? I am like so happy about that. I'm goin to start a new story soon, while I work on this one. I'll tell you guys to check it out when I have it figured out. P.S. it might be on a different website so, just be on the look out. Later, love yas. Mwah! 3