Here Without You~
It all happened in a blur.
Paul grabbed my hand, dragging me through the hard carpeting of my house and out onto the front lawn. I remember my feet hitting the wet grass. I remember the sweet smell of the grass as I kneeled down on it. I remember hearing Mike yell something from inside the house about me burning food. I could remember the twinkle he always had in his eyes when he made such jokes. I remember watching Paul run back into the house that was now visibly burning down. I remember not being able to move. I remember Paul not coming out. I remember yelling for Foster. And yet- I remember nothing. My mind is blank- fogged- distant.
My breath is short- constricted- filled with smoke. I can't breathe.
But I remember the tears. And then- nothing.
I cracked open my eyes, only to squeeze them shut again. The room was bright- the curtains drawn from the blinding windows. I opened my eyes again, lifting my hand to wipe away the tears that stung my eyes from the sudden light. I felt a tugging in my hand that made me notice the wire running into it. With a sudden start I realized where I was.
I never really was a big fan of hospitals.
"Oh, God, Oh, God, Gabby, God." My mother sobbed, falling on top of me and holding me as if she'd lost me. I blinked hard, swallowing the lump in my throat. My mouth tasted bad- like I hadn't brushed my teeth in weeks- and was unbearably dry.
"Where's Mike?"
She started sobbing all over again and I felt someone squeeze my other hand. Mike looked very…clean, sitting next to me. His shirt was white and dry-cleaned, and his jeans were a faded blue. He sat in front of the blinding window light- which only made him look angelic. Almost like-
"Foster." My breath caught in my throat, my head beginning to pound as I realized it actually really hurt.
"Paul's been going nuts about you, you know." My mom started up. It's just like her to start criticizing me as soon as I woke up in the hospital. I looked around the room to see the bigger man asleep on the couch. He looked peaceful- unharmed- unafraid.
I could feel my eyes well up with relief but this wasn't the time for that. Because there was one person who wasn't in this room- foster- and I intended on finding him so I could personally beat him up for not being here to see me. "He's gone." Mike said suddenly, watching as I looked around.
"Wh-what?"
"That other boy at our place, the one with- with the WINGS, he's gone." He empathized just loud enough for me to hear.
"Gabby." Paul's voice came groggily as he sat up on the couch. I could feel my head get dizzy- the room starting to spin. No, no, no, no. Something seemed to dawn on Paul and he moved closer. "He saved us, Gabs. Ran in, grabbed us off the floor, got those damned wings of his- and well, the only was out was through the roof so-"
"THIS IS ALL YOUR FAULT!" I screeched at him, maneuvering away from his hands and sympathetic look. My mother was completely lost now. "HOW COULD YOU-"
"I couldn't help it, Gabby!" He was yelling back now. Did he really think simply telling me how heroic Foster had been made up for it? " I didn't tell him to come in and-"
That's when it hit me. Paul didn't tell him to come and save him, but I did. Afterall, I was the one who yelled for him to help, wasn't I? Oh dear Lord. I felt my throat swell and burn as if I'd swallowed a potato chip sideways. My stomach was in knots as tears stung my eyes. I felt anger at myself well up and spill over.
"I HATE YOU!" I screeched, picking up the closest thing- which happened to be a tissue box- and throwing it at Paul's head. My aim was a little off.
"Gabby, don't blame him, I-"
"STAY THE HELL OUT OF IT!" I defended myself towards Mike, my fist clenching at my sides as the tears poured down my face. There was no helping me now.
Vision blurred, I ripped the medical wires from my body and made my way from the room. On my mother's command- no one tried to stop me. And there was no stopping me.
I had one place in mind- Home.
A/N~ Woah. Okay, this was brewing for a while. It feels good to get it out- though I'm not exactly happy with it. Sorry for all you Foster lovers out there- and really hope no one got emotional over this! Bah, until next time~